A/N: I'm here with the second chapter. I really hope you like this! I really can't remember what Deena's last name was. So for the purpose of this story it used to be Thayer. Babs, however, replied to my request and told me what it was. Thank you!

Disclaimer: I don't own 7th Heaven.

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Simon carefully strummed the strings of his guitar. He was in the process of loosing himself in the rhythmic melody of that he had been meticulously plucking out for some time now. His reverie was broken with the cheerful call of his mother.

"Simon, dinner's ready. Come down now."

Simon slowly put his guitar away and prepared to go down and put up another show, pretending he was happy. He hated having to pretend that all was fine with him, when inside his heart was bleeding.

Why must you cause me so much misery?

My tears now fall endlessly

I hate having to function in forced propriety

Everyone takes me lightly

But now, I'm more than they think

My heart is about to sink...

.... And it's all because of you

It's all that you refuse to do

Must you turn me away?

Please, please make my day

The beginnings of a poem flowed from Simon's pen onto the paper he had just grabbed. He often wrote his feelings down, when he needed to compose himself. Again, Annie's voice snapped him out of his trance. He rushed downstairs, forcing a neutral expression and a half-smile on his face. No one suspected a thing, except for Lucy, who seemed to be watching him throughout the entire dinner. He forced himself to ignore her fixed gaze.

Eric asked for everyone's attention just then. "As you all know, Christmas break has begun and your mother and I thought that we could go for a trip during the break."

"Great!" Ruthie said, happily. "Where are we going? Are Matt and Mary coming?"

"Unfortunately, no." Annie sadly informed the family. "Matt is too busy with medical school and Mary can't get the time off and wants to spend her first Christmas alone with her husband."

"So it's just going to be you, Simon, Sam, David, Lucy, Kevin, your mom and me, unless of course Lucy and Kevin decide they want to be alone for their first Christmas." Eric put in. "And we thought it would be nice to go to the camping site we used to go to, when you kids were younger."

"If Lucy's fine with going camping, I'm fine with it. In fact, I'm actually looking forward to it; I used to love camping with Ben when I was younger! Kevin spoke up then. "But, I'll have to check with the chief about the length and timing of my Christmas vacation first. Can I get back to you tomorrow if I can go?" he asked.

"Oh no!" Lucy exclaimed disappointedly. "So there's a chance you might not be able to come?"

"I'm afraid so, Luce, but you can go with your family if you want to." He tried to comfort her. "But, I'll miss you..." he added deeply looking into Lucy's eyes, and stabbing at Simon's heart in the process.

"If Mom and Dad don't mind," Lucy said, exchanging a look with Kevin "I'm not going if you're not; I want to be with you on our first Christmas."

Annie looked at Eric, dejected. She knew that Lucy had every right to spend Christmas with her husband. Kevin noticed Annie's crestfallen look and spoke up again. "Hey, I'm not yet sure if I can or can't go. No need to be disappointed yet."

"You're right." Eric replied "But before we go any further, Simon can you go? You don't have any plans, do you?"

Simon felt like crying he had asked a very special girl out, but she said she wasn't allowed to date because she was falling behind in school. He sighed and spoke up for the first time that night "Yeah, I will. I have no plans."

Lucy noticed another sad look cross his normally smiling face. For the second time that day, she wondered if her little brother was alright.

Later that night, she approached Annie and Eric. "Mom, Dad, do you think something's wrong with Simon? He seemed unusually quiet today."

"Yes, I did notice that." Eric commented. "I wonder what's wrong."

Ruthie came up to them just then. "I know what's wrong with Simon." She volunteered

Annie looked at her youngest daughter; who seemed to know everything that was going on in the household. "Well, what's wrong?"

"He wants to get back together with Deena Stuart, but her parents won't allow her to date Simon because they claim she needs to focus on her studies, especially since she got delayed because of her Leukemia. At least that's what Deena's telling Simon." Ruthie finished.

Ruthie's words immediately confirmed Lucy's suspicions about Simon's love life. It had been awhile now since he broke up with Cecelia. "But how did you know about this? Surely, Simon didn't tell you." She stared curiously at Ruthie.

"We-ell, I may have read Simon's diary." Ruthie admitted guiltily.

"What? Why did you read your brother's diary?" Eric asked, shocked.

"Reading Lucy's was getting boring. All she wrote about was how much she loved Kevin. It was all Kevin, Kevin, Kevin! At first I thought it would be fun, but it got really predictable and sappy and too icky for my taste." Ruthie complained, avoiding Lucy's eyes. "Simon's diary, on the other hand, is fun and very unpredictable. Not to mention, really juicy!"

It was Lucy's turn to let out a shocked "WHAT?" her face was quickly turning a fiery red; she was going to kill Ruthie! "Who told you to read my diary? What's written there is private! Kevin can't even TOUCH that thing!" she cried.

Annie tried to stifle her laughter, while Eric was obviously failing at hiding his amusement. As shocked as they were, they both knew that only Ruthie could have pulled something like this off. It was so typical of her.

"It's your fault for leaving it there on your nightstand. It's as if you were inviting me to read it." Ruthie tried to defend herself, but saw that her attempts would be futile. So she chose to run instead.

"RUTHIE! I'm going to get you!" Lucy screamed, chasing after her younger sister.

Annie and Eric finally gave up their attempts at covering their laughter up. Eric said aloud "And that concludes another normal day in the Camden Household." Annie just looked up at him, laughing.

A/N: What do you think? I did that to my older sister. A piece of advice to all of you, never EVER read your married siblings' diaries without their permission. You might just get totally shocked (and grossed out!). Lol! Oh! It just occurred to me... Who do you think is cuter, Simon or Kevin? I just can't seem to decide.... ï