Takes place after Brother's Keeper, sorry about not posting for a while. Thank you for all my lovely reviews so far they've helped me to keep writing so carry on. Hope you like this
Lexa knocked on the door. She waited a moment for an answer but none came. She knocked on the door again, louder than the last time. Still no answer came. She kept knocking on the door till she heard heavy footsteps nearing the door and then the sight of Jesse swinging the door open. His hair was all ruffled from just waking up.
"What is it Lexa?" He asked as he yawned.
"You wanna do something?" She asked. She avoided looking into his eyes as she spoke. He arms tightly crossed in front of her.
"Lexa, you complain when I'm up all night and here you are at-" Jesse brought his watch up to find out the time "-just past 12"
"Never mind" She spoke quietly and started to walk off. For the first time Jesse realised something was wrong and gently took hold of her arm, pulling her back to where he was standing.
"What is it?" He asked softly. She didn't answer. "Please Lexa, tell me what's wrong" She could help answering at his pleading voice. She looked into his eyes as she spoke
"I just… I can't sleep okay? Every time I close my eyes I see Leo's face and I replay everything over and over and over again. I keep seeing me kill him and I just want to do something, anything to forget, for a while anyway" Jesse could tell that it was hard for her to tell him this and he also knew that she needed this. Looking into her eyes he didn't see the normally constant fiery spark that lit up her eyes.
"How about a movie, your choice" Lexa nodded and watched as he went back into his room and put a t-shirt and trousers on. He picked up a blanket and moved back to Lexa, placing is carefully round her shoulders. "You looked cold" He replied to her questioning look. He led her over to the couch and sat her down. "So what do you want to watch?"
"Something without death in it"
"One of Shal's romantic films it is" He went over to the cupboard to pick out a movie. Flicking through a couple of films he found the perfect one. It was an old black and white film that had all the clichés possible in it. He put it in the player and sat down next to Lexa. Both fell into a calm silence as they watched the movie. Lexa leaning back and pulled herself further under the blanket. She was still cold. Looking over to Jesse she saw him shiver and he was just as cold as she was.
"Here" She spoke and Jesse looked at her. She moved closer to him and pulled the blanket over the two of them. Jesse smiled as she made her self comfortable, placing her head on his shoulder.
"Are you ok?" He asked, enjoying the feel of her by his side.
"Not yet, but I will be"
"you want to talk about it?"
"not really"
"okay" They went back to watching the film. Jesse has seen it so many times as it was the film Shal would watch after she had just broken up with her latest guy and he would always keep her company. He knew from this that sometimes just being there was enough.
As the credits rolled up the screen Jesse looked at Lexa who was fast asleep on his shoulder. Gently he moved away. He placed his arms carefully under her and picked her up. He moved towards her bedroom slowly so he wouldn't wake her up. A second later he was placing her down on her bed and pulling the covers up around her. Suddenly an idea came to him, he quickly made his way back to his bedroom and pulled out a box from a drawer in his desk. He went back to Lexa's bedroom, tiptoed back to her bed and placed the box on her bedside table.
"What is that?" She whispered. Jesse jumped as she spoke, thinking she was asleep. She sat up in bed. Jesse handed over the box.
"It was your birthday present for next week, I thought you could do with it now" Slowly she opened the box and stared at its contents. Inside was a delicate silver chain. On the chain was a small crystal prism pendant.
"Its beautiful"
"The perfect piece of jewellery for someone who can manipulate light" Lexa picked up the necklace and let it dangle from her hands. From her other hand she produced a small light beam. As she did this hundreds of tiny rainbows filled the room, moving with the motion of the prism. Both looked up at the colours now decorating her room.
"Wow" Lexa whispered. She looked at Jesse and laughed. A small rainbow had fallen on his face.
"what's so funny"
"You have a rainbow on your face !" Jesse laughed. For a perfect minute they both watched the rainbows moving, both watching each other. Lexa didn't want to ruin this moment but slowly she moved her hand away from the necklace and the rainbows disappeared from the walls.
"Thank you Jesse"
"It's okay"
"I mean it Jesse, not just for the necklace, thank you for being with me when I needed it"
"Anytime"
Inside my skin there is this space
It twists and turns
It bleeds and aches
Inside my heart there's an empty room
It's waiting for lightning
It's waiting for you
And I am wanting
And I am needing you here
Inside the absence of fear
I am wanting
And I am needing of you here
Inside the absence of fear
there is this hunger
This restlessness inside of me
and it knows that you're no stranger
you're my gravity
My hands will adore you through all darkness aim
They will lay you out in moonlight
And reinvent your name
For I am wanting you
And I am needing you here
I need you near
Inside the absence of fear