CHAPTER 7/ NEW FEELINGS. (very heavey R in this chapter, just a warning.)

By the time Christmas break rolled around Jay had come to a shocking discovery he truley was in love with Emma Nelson, but that's not all that scared him it was the fact that Manny wasn't letting him forget that she knew about his plan. He couldn't break Emma's heart, but he couldn't let Manny hurt her either. He had a choice to make he could either let Manny get so frustrated and just tell the whole damn school adn make it ten times worse or he could tell Emma about it and beg her for forgiveness, either way he had a feeling he was going to lose her. And he didn't want that, he just wanted to be with her.

Emma was having pretty much the same thoughts, she had loved Sean but for some reason the love she had for Jay was so much more it ran deeper than anything. And that really scared her she had no idea how to react to it, a part of her was expecting something to go wrong with their relationship, this fear were coming more offten now for somereason. She really needed to talk to someone, she sat up on her bed and picked up her phone to call paige. "Hello." "Paige it's Emma I need to talk to you." "okay calm down you sound like your going to have a painc attack." "Well I feel like I am." Emma said laying back on the bed. "Okay how about we meet at the Dot, okay?" "yea okay meet you in 15." they both hung up adn Emma went to grab her coat for her vanity chair, when she noticed a picture of her and Jay. 'please let my bad feeling go away, I love him so much.' she thought leaving the house.

Emma walked into the Dot and spotted Paige sitting at the counter waiting for her. "Hey sorry I'm late I had to stay with Jack for a minute."she said sitting down next to her. "no promblem, I ordered for you the same thing as always." "Thanks." Emma looked liek she hdn't had a good night's sleep in days, she smiled and took a sip of her tea as it was placed infornt of her. "Okay now tell me why you were panicking on the phone, and why you look like you haven't slept." Paige said turning to face her friend. "well i've been thinking about Jay and me." she stoped and looked down at her tea. "Are you guys haveing problems." over the months Paige, Spinner, Jimmy, Hazel, and Marco had all tried to get along with Jay since he was dating their friend, and the more they hung out the more they realized he's not that bad of a guy, and he made Emma so happy. "no onthing like that, but I've been thinking." She looked up at Paige "I love him Paige"

Paige had the biggest smiles on her face "Hon that's great what's with the paincing?" "because I don't know how he feels and I have this bad feeling that something is going to go wrong." "Em, don't worry I've seen the way he looks at you he loves you more than you know." "I'm scared Paige I loved Sean but this is different, he's the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about at night, it hurts to breath when I'm not with him. I've never had to deal with this before and I don't know how to handel it." She put her head on the counter. "Emma no one knows how to handel love you just have to go with it, but seriously Em tell him, and trust me when I say he loves you." "your right, tonight my parents are going away for the weekend and Jack is staying at Catlins so I'll tell him tonight." "Good and your going to feel so much better when you tell him all those bad feelings will go away the minute the words leave your mouth." Emma leaned over to hug her friedn "Thank you so much Paige." "no problem hun but tell me what happens after okay good or bad even though it'll be good."

Jay just came home from work when the phone rang, he went to his room though when his mom answered it. He was laying on the bed half asleep when his mother came in, "Jason phone's for you it's Emma." she said and left, he rolled over and picked it up, "okay hang up mom, hey, what's up." "um we have to talk Jay can you come over my house tonight?" she didn't see the point in beating around the bush, "Yea is everything okay." he was panicing on the inside wondering if Manny had told her anything. "Yea I'm alone for the weekend and just wanted to hang out and I have to talk to you about something." "Okay want me to stay over with you?" "yea that'd be nice." "okay I'll see you at seven then." " okay bye." "bye baby." ' I love you' he said in his head as he hung up, ' that's it I'm telling her tonight.' he thought getting some sleep because it was only three o'clock.

It was almost seven and Emma was pacing her room, she was a nervouse werk, "I can't do this I can't do this." she kept saying toherself. She stoped when she caught a glimps of her reflextion in her vanity mirror. Emma stood over it and tried to calm her nerves. She looked down adn tookm a few deep breaths, her head shot up when the doorbell rang. She looked at the picture of them on her vanity again before going upstaries. 'I can do this.' she thought taking one more deeo breath before opening the door and coming face to face with Jay.

Jay was so nervouse he could barley keep his hands from shaking when he was driving. When he reached her house he stood out on the steps for a few minutes before he actually was able to ring the bell. Emma answered the door and he felt a sick shaky feeling settel in the pit of his stomach. "Hey." he said coming in the house and kissed her. "Are you okay, your shaking." she asked him when they pulled away. "I'm...um I'm okay I just have to talk to you." "Good because I have to talk to you." she said and lead him into the den and they sat down on the couch. "you go first Em." he was still nervouse and maybe hearing what she had to say would be better. Emma took a deep breath and turned to look him in the eye.

"Okay Jay this isn't easy for me to say but I can't keep it in any more." She took another deep breath and felt her heart racing. "Okay I'm just gonna say it, I love you Jay." she looked down to afraid to see the look he had on his face. "Emma look at me." he told her "no don't wanna." she said pouting like a little kid, he had to smiled at that, she probably was thinking he didn't feel the same but how wrong she was. "Baby come here." he said pulling her into his arms and kissing her with at much passion as he could find in him. When he pulled back he looked in her eyes and said the words that were building up inside of him, "I love you too Emma." he said with a smile on his face, and it grew when he saw her smile, and wrap her arms around his neck. "you really do?" she asked him pulling away just a little. "Yes I love you Emma Nelson." he said and pulled her into a deep kiss, he laid back on the couch and wpulled her down on top of him. Jay wanted her more than ever at that moment he loved her and she loved him and he wanted to show her how much he loved her. Jay didn't want to think about Manny, or his plan, or anything that had to do with that, he just wanted to live in this moment.

"Jay I want you now, I love you and want to show you how much." she said pulling back form him, "are you sure you want to Emma, I want you to be sure." she smiled at him adn kissed him gently. "I am sure." she said against his mouth. She got up adn held out her hand for him to take. He grabbed her hand and she lead him to her basement room. Emma walked over to the bed and took her shirt off. Jay walked over to her and pulled her into a kiss, he moved his mouth form hers to her neck kissing and licking at the exsposed skin, Emma moaned in pleasure and tossed her head back giving him more room to kiss. Jay walked her back till the back of her knees hit the edge of the bed. "It's not to later to change your mind Em." he said pulling back from her. She thought about it and then kissed him wrapping her amrs around his neck. Jay moaned into her mouth and grabbed her legs wrapping them around his waist.

He managed to lay down on the bed with her arms and legs wraped around him. Emma ran her hadns down his back and under his shirt, she pulled it up and broke away form him to pull it over his head, she let out a small giggle when it got stuck over his head "oh you think that's funny?" he asked her leaning down to kiss her again she mummbled a yes against his mouth, and sighed when his kisses moved form her lips to her neck, then her collar bone where he sucked till he left a mark. Emma reached between them and undid the button adn zipper of his jeans, adn started to push them down.She only got them to his hips before she dug her nails into his skin, because he had taken off her bra and was sucking on her breast. Emma's breath was coming is shallow gasps as she held his head to her chest, she pulled his head up to her and kissed him forcing her tounge into his mouth..Jay undid her pants and pushed them down her hips and her thighs, he pulled away form her to pull them off and left her laying beneith him. "you are so beautiful." he said and leaned down to kiss her.Emma blushed nad kissed hi back with as much force and passion as she could mange. JAy pulled away and got up formt he bed to take off the rest of his clothes, before he laid back down with her he got a condom out of his pocket and put it on the night table.

"I love you Emma, so much." "I love you too." she was the one to reach for the condom he took it form her hadns adn opened it and slid it into place, Jay looked at her and saw how nervous she was "it's okay I won't hurt you, and I'll stop any time you want." she nodded her head and kissed him when she felt him start to push into her she slightly tense at the new feeling, but she didn't want him stop. Jay looked down at her when he felt her tense underneth him. "do you want me to stop?" he said quietly, she just shook he head 'no' and pushed on his back telling him to go a little faster. Jay pushed in a little more and started a slow pace letting her get used to it, not wanting to rush this. I t was her first time he wanted it be something she'll never forget. They both were sweating form moving in time with each other, Jay was getting closer to the end each time he heard her moan and gasp his name.

Emma pulled his body closer to her's so his chest was press completly against hers, his head was buirred in between her neck and shoulder, Emma had her eyes closed and was running her hands all over his back, and scratching him with her nails. She gasped when into his ear when he started to go harder and faster than before. "I love you JAy, so much" she said into his ear as her body spasmed around him, that was all it took for Jay to lose all his control as he came inside her, he fell against her as their breathing went back to normal. He rolled off of her and pulled her into his arms, "That was amazing and it was even better because it was with some one I truely love with all my heart." he said to her adn kissed her on the head, "yea it was pretty amazing, I love you Jay more than anything." she leaned up and kissed him gentaly before she slid downa little adn fell asleep wraped in his arms.

Sleep didn't come that easy to Jay he was staring at her as she slept think she was the most importan thing in his life right now, the only truely good thing and now it's going to be ruined because of his stupid pride. 'God how am I going to fix this, I can't lose her.' he thought asn was a litlte shocked when he notice that tears were coming form his eyes. Sleep finally took over him, but not before realizing he ahd to make the rest of his time with her the best he could because after everything is let out in the open he would lose her forever and his heart will never heal form that.

Okay guys sorry it took so long I've had some tests to study for, and sorry if the sex suckd I'm ussally really good at writtign it but I think I'm losing my touch anyway let me know what you think.

Allie