I Want You to Understand

"How are you feeling?" Harry asked Luna. He was sitting on the end of his bed as Luna slowly woke up.

"I don't know. Numb, confused but nothing that I shouldn't be feeling," she said as she slowly sat up in the bed. "Thank you for looking after me last night," She smiled sweetly at Harry, really meaning what she said.

"You would have done the same for me," Harry said smiling at Luna.

"I just don't know what to do. I want to cry but I can't because I have to stay strong and I can't have a breakdown. And what about the family, what do I tell them, how can I possibly tell them. And then the funeral, I can't even dress myself; I don't know how to organise a funeral. The business, what am I going to do with that,"

"Shhh, it's going to be ok," Harry moved and laid near Luna and put a comforting arm around her. "There are people here to help you with that. You don't have to do it all by yourself. It's funny, I remember you telling me the very same thing when I had to face Voldy."

Luna smiled at Harry, remembering the times that her and Harry spent together. They had become very close during his 6th and 7th year. They had both felt connected with one another because they both knew how it felt to loss a loved one. Harry could talk to Luna about his parents and Sirius because she had also lost her mother when she was only little. He didn't feel that he could talk to Hermione or Ron about those feelings because they didn't really understand it like Luna did. Sure, they were there when Sirius died and they felt his loss. They were connected to Sirius but he was more to Harry, because Sirius was his godfather and the only other living family that Harry had other then the Dursleys. Harry also felt guilty because he felt responsible for his godfathers death. Harry just felt more comfortable talking to Luna about his parents and Sirius.

"We had good times didn't we? In school. Do you miss it much?" Luna asked Harry.

"Yeah, I do. The atmosphere I miss a lot, and the social things and everything. But it was a very difficult time for me as you would know."

"Yeah, I know. It was hard for a lot of us." Luna said looking sincere. "I just wish you didn't have to have such a hard time. You might have enjoyed it a bit more,"

"Yeah, but I'm glad you were there with me. I don't think I could have survived with out you,"

"Oh, come on, what did I do. I was so up in the clouds I didn't even notice when you suddenly became a hott stud," Luna said, and then realising what she said, her cheeks went a pink with embarrassment.

"You were there for me. You understood how I felt. Even if you were up in the clouds as you say," he said smiling at her with those captivating eyes. "And I am not a hott stud as you called me. I never was and never will be,"

"Oh come on, Harry. Pull the other bloody leg. You know you are hott."

"No I'm not,"

"Yes you are. Look how many girls were after you at school. All of them following you around like a lil fan club. I could hardly ever get you alone,"

"They just liked me cos I am the boy who lived. Nothing more,"

"Nah," Luna laughed at Harry's stubbornness. She poked him in the ribs which made him jerk.

"Hey, stop that," He poked her back. Luna then started to tickle Harry. Harry was crying out with laughed and the more he cried out for her to stop the more she tickled him. Luna laughed with Harry, forgetting about the loss of her father and Harry being able to let loose from all his pressure. It all came to a halt when there was a knock at the door.

"Come in," Harry said. Ron guilty opened the door.

"Hey, Harry, Luna, sorry to disturb you but Nathan just paged you. He needs to meet you at the library to look for that book again,"

"Ok," Harry was disappointed. Work was always an excuse for Harry not to have fun, yet when he was finally having fun work had to come around the corner and bite him in the ass.

"No luck here," Nathan said, as he finished looking though the top shelf. He made his way down the ladder to Harry who was still looking through the bottom shelves.

"How hard could it be to find one stupid book," Harry said angrily.

"Well, they can never make it easy for us, and then anyone could become an Auror." Nathan said stepping down from the last row of the ladder.

Harry sat down on at the desk that was near and placed his head in his hands. He sighed in frustration, wanting to just forget about the burden that was upon him. They had searched for the whole morning and they had skipped lunch to keep on searching but still they had found nothing. They still had about a third of the library to go, time was running out. They didn't even know what spell it was.

"Look, how about I go and get us something to eat. We have to keep our energy up," Harry nodded to this and Nathan went off to get some food for him and Harry. Harry was only sitting there for a little while before the library assistant came over to him.

"Ummm…. Excuse me but…. Ummm ……. A woman told me to give you this note," She handed him the note and he took it looking puzzled. He thanked the assistant. She nodded her understanding and then left him be. Harry opened the note and it read;

Ile 16, Row 23, Shelf 6

Harry was puzzled. Who would write something like this, he thought. He decided to go check it out. There was no point in just sitting around here. He got up out of his sit slowly, pain shooting to his sore tired feet. He made his way over to the Ile, walked down the dimly lit Ile of the library. He got to row 23; he had to grab the ladder to get to shelf 6. He made his way up, nearly to the top and then slowly slid the ladder along the top to look at all of the books. He didn't know why he was doing this, but then he saw a book. It was much older then the rest and it didn't have a title along the spine. He slow slid the book out of the shelf and turned it over to look at the cover. On the cover was an eye, nothing else. He had found the book. He wanted to thank the person that led him to the book but he didn't know who that person was. Harry made his way down the ladder and then he hurried over to where he was sitting before. He sat down and then started to flick through the old pages of the book. He flicks over a page and a piece of parchment fell out. Harry bent over and picked it up. There was the same handwriting that was on the other note that he received earlier printed on the parchment. It read;

7:30 Mainfield Forest, I will find you .Come alone.

Harry stood in the dimness that surrounded him. He felt the coldness of night creeping up to his bare skin and his breathe started to become frost. He didn't know if he should have come by himself but he didn't want to break this person's trust. He started to feel anxious with all the waiting. He was sick of being patient and this annoyed him. Just as he was about to give up hope he heard a sound behind him. Saylie Rain stood a few feet away from Harry. Harry went out to grab his wand but then he looked at her. She did look evil or threaterning. Her eyes read something else.

"Thank you for coming, Harry. And thank you for coming alone." Saylie said walking closer to Harry. "I didn't know if you would trust me enough to do that. I don't know if that was stupid or just the famous Harry Potter being brave."

Harry knew there was something different about her. Instead of the cruel eyes he used to see, instead she looked peaceful, a person not to be feared. She stepped closer to Harry, there faces inches from one another. Saylie was looking around the forest. Making sure there was no one there, then they connected with Harry's, feeling satisfied that no one was around.

"Harry, please listen to me closely. I'm only going to say this once." She was looking at Harry with a plea, yet with determination in her voice. "I understand that the innocent that I killed last night was the father of a friend of yours. I want you to understand that I do feel. I do feel for those I have killed. But you also have to understand the pressure that I am under to protect my kind. I don't kill for fun and I wouldn't do it if I could help it. I wanted you to come here tonight for me to tell you that I shall not kill you or your friends but I can not say that for Serenity. That is not what you or I want……. I also need you. I fear that what I have agreed to may backfire upon me and my kind. Unfortunately my cousin doesn't see this. Love…. It is a very unpredictable thing." She stopped talking to let this sink in. Harry suddenly understood. She was human after all and all she was trying to do was protect the ones she loved. Harry would do anything to protect Ron, Hermione and Luna, even if he had to kill.

"I have placed the body of your friend's father on the north side of London's Bridge. I do respect those who I kill, Harry and I trust your friend would want a proper burial,"

"Why are you telling me all this," Harry asked her. Saylie stepped back from Harry, turned and looked into the now very dark forest. She stood there for awhile, thinking. She turned back to Harry, her faced heartfelt with sorrow.

"I wish I could tell you more, Harry. But for my sack I can't. You're a good person Harry and your people need you. A lot of them don't know how much they need you. I will try and keep Serenity off you and your friends but I don't know for how long. You know about the meeting that will take place in 6 days." Harry nodded to Saylie. Saylie moved closer to Harry. Her face yet again inches away from Harry's. "Bring only the people you need and keep the group as small as possible and never lash out until the others make a move. Observe. Always observe." Saylie looked at her watched and then looked back at harry as if he was a friend, as if they were just meeting for a cup of coffee. "Be good, Harry and don't let your heart stay locked. You don't want to end up like me," she slides her hand into his. Placing a piece of folded paper into it. She kissed him on the lips, sliding her hand around his neck. She then pulled away, looking Harry straight in the eyes. She smiled and than disappeared.

A/N - HELLO EVERYBODY..... ok here is another chapter for those of you who can't wait any longer. i've got to more chapters typed but i'm going to wait a bit ...... the next is very.... sad but sweet..... toodles and have a great week.

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