Repmet (please read)-Just so you all know, I was sorely tempted not to post this…because well…I like it as a one shot and …it doesn't seem to go with the mood of the last chapter. I mean all the people who've actually hear the song 'White houses' well know it's a pop-y upbeat, high pitch (really awesome) song. Not really like 'Feeling too damn good' at all. But what can I say, I totally love this song because it makes me think of my friends…except we'll always be friends…shifty eyes right? pokes Natalie, Andrea, KK, Nicole, and Cody (none of which will ever read this so why am I even trying?) And I just felt like this was something I needed to add onto-'cus this is my fav of my fics. Anyway…tell me how you like it…if I get bad reviews or people say they like it better as a one shot (like me) I'll most likely delete this chapter.

Chapter 2

White Houses Vanessa Carlton

Quote of the chapter:-

takes place on board walk at 9:00 ish me and my BFF

Me-"Promise me we'll always be friends?"

Nat-"That's just seems so right to say right now huh?"

Me points at something in the water-"Hey look! A dead fish! Dare you to eat it!"

I remember the flashing lights, the red mixed in and out of blue and blinding white. There was no sound, there was nothing but those bright lights and the feel of tears running down my face, yet I don't know why I was crying. They were so pretty, and I don't remember why they were there, but I know it was something serious. They say we you die your whole life flashes before your eyes. IT's not really true…you don't see your whole life…just the parts brought up by your subconsious. Out of all the terrible things that had happened, out of all the beatings and taunts…for some reason, I remembered these ones. I was swimming in and out of those blinding city lights, I saw things that made me cry with fear. It was like the flickering of candle light on water and then the vague reflection of the outside world. I saw the memories, and though I heard nothing, I still knew ever word as though it was sharpened with detail.

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end

We moved in together when we first stared collage, just the five of us snug in a small collage house. Friends from the beginning we were under the dilution that uor dream would last forever, that things would never change.

It was the first day we'd moved it, the house empty and us laughing and moving boxes into the rooms we'd claimed. They we smiling and running around, I was with them, laughing though no sound came out of my mouth and they were yelling though the voices didn't come. The first thing we set up was the TV, Tea was shaking her head at us and leaning against the door frame to the kitchen. Honda and I were trying to get the plugs correctly into the wall, Yugi was peering over the top, trying to see what we were doing, and Ryou sitting on the couch. I put in a movie and we watched in till the end, the film was a blur of colors, but we were all crying in the end, all unsure of this future. Tea hugged us, burring her face in Yugi's shoulder, we laughed with unease and made empty promises we'd never leave each other.

Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

The memory faded in and out until it was something new, smooth as the rippling water. We'd thrown a party to welcome ourselves home. There were lots of people, I don't know who invited you, probably Yugi…he didn't like to leave anyone out. An empty soda bottle was in the middle of a circle of collage students, laughing at such a juvenile game. I reached out and spun the bottle, it spun faster and faster, such a green blur that I'm sure this wasn't how it really was. And then it stopped. It's didn't slow down or loose speed, it just stopped. And I looked up at the person it had landed on and my eyes met yours. I don't remember this being so slow. My face drained of color and everyone started to laugh. Honda was falling over himself, Yugi was even cracking up. I tried to talk myself out of it, you just sat there, staring at me. Some how or another they convinced me to kiss you. I leaned forward and out lips met.

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

The memoir faded again and I was sad because I wanted to remember the moment. Then Tea was dancing in the almost empty house. There was music poring from somewhere, and I felt it in my bones more than I heard it. She danced and she danced and we just watched, And even when the song was over she kept dancing, her feet pounding on the wood floors, her bare feet scarping the ruff wood and bleeding. Her movements became less fluid and more forced, tears fell down her face and she forced herself to do the dance, over and over. I could see the pain etched in her features. And finally she couldn't go on and she fell to the floor in a sobbing heap. We were all stunned, just standing there, watching her cry. Yugi finally walked over, kneeling beside her and hugging her in his arms, whispering in her ear. He managed to carry her off to bed and came back later crying silently and telling us that they said she wasn't good enough for the school…she fell down in the middle of her addition. We were silent that night, just sitting silently in the living room with the TV off and lost in our own thoughts.

I took a walk that night, roaming the town streets and my face expressionless as I pushed through a crowded queued for a restaurant. I heard a voice yell out my name, and I turned, my hands shoved into the pockets of my green jacket. You beckoned to me, looking kinder than I'd ever seen you. I walked over, forcing a smile and greeted you like an old friend. You weren't actually smiling, but you looked softer than usual. You asked me how I was in a very formal way, nodding as I answered, I asked you how you'd been and you answered some long forgotten response. I smiled and told you that was cool. You asked what I was doing, and if you were keeping me, I told you about Tea and your face softened more.

You asked me to join you for dinner, and against my better judgment I agreed. We sat down together and shared a almost civil dinner, you commented about me being a mutt, I said something about a rich pig…you ended up paying the bill against my many assurances that it was unnecessary. You decided to walk me home, saying you hoped Tea was fine, and that you wished there was something you could do. I shrugged saying that we can always look towards the future. You nodded and leaned down. Your lips hit mine and I was taken aback at first, but complied to the kiss, closing my eyes and smelling in your sent.

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt

It faded again and I felt myself sinking into another memoir, the water swirling around me, the thoughts fading in and out. I was sitting alone in the house, curled up on the couch and reading a book. Tea and Yugi had gone out on a date, he trying to cheer her up. Honda had taken a girl out and Ryou was visiting his father in a different part of town.

The doorbell rang and I got up to answer it reluctantly, setting my book on the couch. I pulled open the door, looking outside. You were standing there, holding a bundle of red roses in your arm and wearing a crazy matching red button down shirt. In your other hand you held a paper. I was taken aback at first. You said Hi, and asked it Tea was home. I frowned and said she was out with Yugi. You nodded and pasted me the letter, it was from the school she'd applied to. I read it over and looked up at you with disbelief. You said you'd pulled some strings and gotten her in, but asked me not to tell her. I was confused and looked at the letter, nodding. I asked you if you wanted to tell her you dropped by. You looked at me like I was crazy, stating that in reality you hated the girl, but hated seeing me upset. You were blushing as you handed me the flowers, I took them, staring at you with disbelief. I smiled as you watched me with unease. I laughed and wrapped my arms around your neck, pushing you against the doorframe and kissing you hard.

The memoir didn't face out this time, instead it kept going, to my dismay. Things led to another and eventually we were out the couch, somehow our shirts had disappeared. We didn't go any further, but fell asleep against each other, you with your arms around me.

A few minutes later the door opened, and Honda came in with Yugi and Tea, they looked at the flowers and the letter addressed to Tea, she stooped down to pick up the paper, touching the roses discarded on the coffee table behind the couch. She scanned the letter, eyes wide, she screamed and hugged Yugi. Honda clapped her on the back and then froze. He yelled loudly, profanities streaming from his mouth. I wok up in a flash, they were all staring at us, Honda with a look of disgust. Yugi looked confused, Tea fearful. You slid out from under me, standing up and pulling on a that goofy red shirt, I scampered up to, blushing like mad and started trying to explain myself. You wrapped your arms around my waist, only causing me to ramble more hurriedly. Honda started yelling again, Tea asked fierce questions.

We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

Honda swung the first punch, it landed on my jaw and I growled, leaping at his throat. We got into a full on fistfight, him pounding on me, and me just trying to block his blows in a confused frenzy. He flung insults at me and they hurt worse than the blows, and before I knew it I had stopped trying to fight and just stood there, letting tears run down my face. Honda stopped hitting me and just kept screaming. Yugi touched his shoulder, telling him to drop it and we could talk about it in the morning. Honda said he wasn't sleeping in the same room as a fag.

Ryou took that moment to enter, he froze in the doorway, paling, then looking around confused. Tea was crying, her hand over her mouth, Seto was rubbing his forehead. Yugi was trying to explain things to Ryou who was frowning and looking from me to you. He shrugged, and Yugi looked at him like he was crazy. Honda was still glaring at me. He disappeared for a moment, then re-appeared holding my stuff. He threw it at me, glaring then pointed at the door. He told me to get the hell out, I just stared. You put an arm around my shoulders and spoke softly for the first time, trying to talk some science into my old friends. Tea was shaking her head, she sighed and whispered something in Yugi's ear. Yugi looked at her sharply then sighed. He said that maybe it would be a good idea if I didn't stay here for a little while.

I was crying harder, staring at him. Your face was expressionless, and you shook your head and took the things Honda had thrown at me, putting an arm around my other shoulder and saying I should crash with him. I looked once more at my friends and nodded, letting you steering me out of that little White House.

You opened the door to car outside, holding it open for me and threw my stuff in the back. I covered my hands and cried, you got into the driver's seat and we just stood there for a while, me crying and you staring out the window. You leaned over and kissed me softly on the forehead, telling me it would be okay.

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again

It faded in and out again, broken memories of screaming faces, old friends telling me to never talk to them again, best friends turning away as I fell to my knees and sobbed, scornful faces, broken smiles, hateful eyes. I wanted to scream, but couldn't move my body, I wanted you to be there to hold me…but I could feel nothing, nothing except the tears running my face. And the memories flashed in front of me and swirled around me, ripples formed at the edge, fanning out and causing the faces to move in little lines and merge with each other. Then there was me, falling onto me knees in the middle of our bedroom in your house, clutching man hands over my head and screaming…and this time I could hear the words the streamed through my mouth, the swears and vows that echoed in the room. I would never forget what they did, how they forgot me, hated me, lied to me. I would show them, I would live like I didn't need them, I would put it in my past…and I would go on.

You came over and put your arms around me, letting me sob into your shoulder, kissing me on the forehead softly. I melted into your touch and cried my heart out and you kissed me and told me you would never leave me.

I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses

And then that faded, and everything was black. I felt the words said in my heart, in my soul and I opened my eyes.