2/06/05 For some reason this one wasn't saved on my pc. Freaking thing. I curse you, you fowl piece of technology! I decided to edit everything and reload them. Why can't this process be easier? Why do I have to constantly upload and then change them? It's very tedious and I don't like it. Oh well. No use complaining. I do so love to write and have you all review.

12/13/04 My mind is like 'blah'. I think I should stop after this one and call it a night. I haven't even eaten anything all day. It's all for the art, man! Whatever. Just finished the second part of apologies. I don't like Tifa. I'm a big supporter of CloudAeris. Screw Tifa! Yes! That's right! I said it! You heard me! Muahahahaha! Okay, yeah…

Disclaimer: yawn you know the routine.

The evil, tired, mistreated, hungry and underappreciated squeaker apprentices: like monotonous drones Jing Xiao Jie doesn't own FFVII or any of the characters.

Evil, tired, mistreated, hungry and underappreciated squeaker apprentice 3: Can we lie down now?yawn

Jing: Very well. Excellent, my minions. throws a piece of raw meat into the group and watches them scrap for it( I'm tired yawn Oi! Chichiri, it's bedtime. AND YOU ALL! STOP BEING PERVERTED! I DIDN'T MEAN IT THAT WAY! Though I wouldn't mind… evil grin I need a massage sighs and retreats to her dark hole

The wind like a heart that swam in the accumulated words

The clouds, a voice that was shot into the holding future

The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror

The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream

Isn't is beautiful, to walk together in each others hands

I do so want to go

To your city, your house, into your arms

That heart held within your body

In those confusing nights, I dream

The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion

The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice

The moon, a heart flowing in the clouded mirror

The stars, broken and swaying, like tears unable to be hidden.

Isn't is beautiful, to walk together in each others hands

I do so want to go

To your city, your house, into your arms

That face

A soft touch

Dissolving into morning

I dream.

Suteki Da Ne (Isn't it Lovely?) by Rikki

Chapter 3

"The wild dreams of a deluded child"

She'd barely been asleep an hour and already started to drift into a dream world. She was surrounded by space. Stars and planets collided and she was thrown into a black hole. She tried to scream for help but not a sound escaped her lips. Her voice just wouldn't work. So she just let herself fall, if you could say she was falling. Space and time, all direction seemed to disappear in this place; up was down; left was right; correct was not. It was just an empty void where nothingness existed. Suddenly she was drawn into a whirling vortex and she was violently thrown toward the ground.

Aeris again tried screaming, but to no avail. She closed her eyes, tears streaming out. In her head she kept telling herself that it was only a dream. She dug her nails into her palms in an attempt to wake herself. The ground flew toward her or she picked up speed. As the ground came closer, she finally was able to scream out. Only one name popped into her head and she screamed that name for all she could. She called out for him.

She shot up out of bed, screaming loud enough she was sure she shattered the windows. Ethel and Isaiah heard her screams and came running in, worry evident on their faces, asking if she was all right.

She looked at her hands. She was shaking like a rattle. She looked at her palms and noticed nail marks where she had dug her nails into her skin. The wounds were starting to clot up already. She was covered in a cold sweat from head to toe, but was still burning up. She was blinded by a wall of tears she hadn't even realized was there, and now they began to make their way down her cheeks like a waterfall. She didn't know why she was crying. It was just a dream after all. But they kept coming and wouldn't relent. She had no idea why she was so upset. She couldn't recall ever having such a nightmare.

She was so very confused. Recalling the fall and being unable to scream out. But she did scream. She woke up screaming, and it had woken her caretakers. That's right. She called out for that blonde haired man. What was his name? She was sure she had called out a name. She thought she had remembered something. She wanted to know his name more than anything. And she had forgotten it in all of her excitement. She sighed and cursed for not being able to remember. The tears started to flow more heavily because of her inability to remember a trivial thing such as a name Ethel piped in and interrupted her thought.

"Aeris, dear? Who's Cloud?"

"What?"

"You called out the name 'Cloud'. Who is he?"

"Cloud?" Was that his name? It was. She was sure of it. She pictured him. They were on a roller coaster or something. At an amusement park. He was smiling at her. She felt herself calming. "Cloud… " That was it.

Ethel and Isaiah only gave her a curious look. She looked back at them and smiled. "I'm fine now, thank you. I'm sorry that I startled you so."

After much coaxing on Aeris' part, feeling reassured that she was all right, they went back to bed, leaving Aeris to her thoughts. With just a name she started to remember all about him. Her fragmented memories started to piece together and slow down. Her memories began to replay like a movie. Only she couldn't hear anything. She couldn't hear his voice. Great. She could remember nearly everything now and still she couldn't seem to remember his voice. She knew everything he had said, but his voice, she just couldn't remember it no matter how hard she tried.

Crystal memories

Touched by your voice, in the moonlight

"Nothing lasts." you said.

But everything still holds meaning in my heart

Hidden deep in my mind

River to the time

That we once shared together-

The pictures are still on the wall and why.

Shining smiles, like snow flakes.

All melted and gone away

Only answer was to live.

And I am still here-

With your memories...

Dreaming hopelessly.

Holding in my heart

All the flowers you left...

Crystallized moments

Shattered into frozen pieces in my tears

River of moonlight

I hear your voice echoing.

But I'm here, alone...

Crystal melodies

Moments so sweet, I remember

"Nothing lasts." you said.

Then why is a pain still confusing memory

Only time will go on

River has its end

Our light was blown by the wind

My fingers reach out and find no one there

Rainy sky, please tell me my emptiness will be filled

Only answer was to live.

And I am still here-

With your memories...

Walking hopelessly.

Holding in my eyes

All the colors you left...

Broken melodies

No more singing, no more laughing in the sun

River of moonshine

I hear your voice echoing

But I'm still alone...

River of Crystal by Kimiko Itoh

Thanx to Tacofoolio and VenusBlade for their constructive reviews!

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Hey, if you guys like InuYasha, you should check out CrystalEchoes fic "To Wash It All Away". Holy Crap is that a good piece of work. The chapters are quite lengthy and she stays true to the real personalities of the characters and in my opinion does Takahashi-sama real justice. If she asks, I sent ya!