6 months later…
Alex shivered uncomfortably as she walked toward the mailbox. It was freezing, and the former ADA stepped outside in nothing more than a t-shirt, flannel pajama pants, and flip-flops. "I thought North Carolina was supposed to be warmer than this in winter," she mused as the metal container creaked open. Ruffling through the usual bills and catchy offers, a slightly yellowed envelope caught her eye. When she saw who the sender was, her eyebrow arched somewhat. "Why is Liv sending me a letter?" She ripped the paper open eagerly and started to read:
Dear Alex,
I remember…
"Oh god…" The blonde was hunched over on her curb, her sobs making her entire body shake. She raised an arm to wipe her tears, but as soon as they were gone, more came. She knew her neighbors were probably peeking curiously out their windows- after all; it's not every day you get to see a grown woman pour her heart out through her eyes like a teenager. Hastily she rose and returned to the privacy of her own home.
"What is it, hon?" The lanky brunette hidden inside the fortress of Alex's house appeared almost out of thin air to comfort the lawyer who sat crying at the kitchen table. Alex angrily handed her the letter after squirming out of the strong embrace she was held in. The embrace was released and an uncomfortable silence lay in the air. "Alex…" Alex got up so suddenly that her chair almost toppled backwards.
"You were going to kill yourself, Olivia? Kill yourself because you didn't have me around?" She paused for breath, her back now facing the detective. Olivia cleared her throat. "Alex…you were as good as gone. Do you know how hard it was for me to wake up every morning without you beside me?" Alex whirled around and approached her girlfriend. "Of course! I was by myself too, Liv, or did you forget? I had to leave everything; everyone; I loved." A meaningful glance was shared between the lovers before Olivia ran a hand through her cropped hair. "I thought it got lost…I mean, it took half a year to get here." Her face downcast, Olivia walked in the living room and laid down on the couch. Alex followed.
"How close did you come?" Olivia felt a tear escape, and knew her 'tough-guy' façade had fallen through. "After mailing that to you," she halted momentarily and looked with disgust at the letter, then continued. "I had just put the gun to my head when someone knocked at the door." Alex emitted a soft gasp and let the distressed woman continue. "I don't know why, but I felt it was important. So, I set the gun down and answered. It was Cragen. He said they had found him." She let everything go, and the waterworks exploded. Alex laid down beside her and wrapped her arms around the quivering body, placing soft kisses on Olivia's neck. "Baby…I love you. With all my heart, and I would have lost it if you really had…" She bent over so that their lips were almost touching. "I need you, Olivia." Each woman felt a warm mouth against her own and was calmed. Olivia's soft moans were drowned by Alex's skillful lips, which opened to draw in her lower one. After a few minutes, they both broke.
"God, counselor, I forgot you knew how to kiss so well." Alex laughed despite her gloomy predicament as Olivia kissed away the rest of her tears. "What can I say? I learned from the best." Olivia smiled mischievously. "Want me to show you what else the best has to offer?" Alex looked at her briefly, removed her glasses, and switched off the lights. "Be my guest." Olivia began to kiss down Alex's neck as the blonde spoke once more. "And by the way, Liv, I'm glad you love the way I make people want to kick my ass. I guess that is one of my more endearing traits."
Fin