Dear Al,
Mustang? Panic about me? Al, what have you been smoking, and where can I get some? Hell, it's pass the time on this Godforsaken rock anyway.
And what the hell was that bastard doing anywhere near my desk? What the hell was he doing in our apartment? I hate that man and you know it, Al. Keep him away in future. For my sake, if for anyone.
It's rather pleasant here, actually, I've had a lot of time to think, because the atmosphere is very serene and calming, not like our island experiences with Wrath and Wolfman. Now there's no one to rabidly chase me through the woods except one or tow foxes, but even they're more afraid of me than I am of them. I can't get within about 10 metres of one before it decides to run.
Actually, speaking of foxes, there's this one pure white fox who seems to be an outcast compared to the others. They treat him (I'm pretty sure it's a him) in a word, like shit. The poor thing. They take away his kills, and He hasn't been eating well since I've been here. I don't know why, but I can really relate to him. He's also a bit smaller than the others. Kind of like me. (Note: Only I am allowed to call myself short. Because I'm not. Not at all.)
My feelings? Muted? I'm not actually sure, Al, I'm not sure what I feel anymore. I've tried to block off emotions for so long so that I can drive forward and help you, that I guess I'm not sure how to feel anymore. That is another thing that I'm hoping to learn away from you all, for the connection I have with you has caused me to act a certain way for so long, I'm not sure if that's even me anymore. My emotions are coming in sudden bursts now, and I want to return them to how they were before.
Hughes WAS my fault! Why can't you see that? He was killed because he was trying to look out for me! He never would have met Sloth if we hadn't of done... THAT to mum. I'm sorry Al; I can't see it any other way. And please don't try and convince me, my mind is made up.
I asked Teacher for a book to read when she was here, because at times, when I'm not eating, hunting, sleeping or looking out for the white fox, it does get pretty dull here. I've thought about teaching myself to swim, because there's a brilliant waterfall and a deep pool at its base and it looks like a brilliant place to do so. Teacher stayed for 3 hours helping me learn, and making sure I didn't drown. I've got bruises to show for where she hit me over the head a few times because I did it wrong. Now I can actually float on the water, though my Automail weighs me down a bit. She said I would be able to swim perfectly when I get my arm back. I never knew she had such high hopes for us, Al! Isn't that incredible! She's really not so ba
Al, don't cry. I didn't want you to cry, I made you cry. I'm so sorry, my brother. I hate making you upset, you understand, it makes me feel as if I've failed in my duty as a brother. Don't cry for me, I'm alright. Honest.
I'm sorry, Al, I can't come back, not until all my problems here are solved. Besides, this white fox is starting to really make me curious, because it doesn't have pink eyes like it should if it were an albino, it has the most startling golden ones that you've ever seen. I'm starting to think it might be a chimera, because at times it acts almost human. It's really confusing. It's worth staying just to try and figure it out.
I'm not ready to come home yet, Al, Not nearly ready.
I miss you,
Ed.
P.S Please confiscate Winry's spanner set? Pretty please?
01/17
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Teacher?
Might I enquire as to why you're writing me a letter when you can just talk to me?
Ed.
01/17
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Roy,
I AM NOT SHORT GODDAMNIT!!!!!
The forever TALL Fullmetal Alchemist!
P.S: You're such a bastard.
01/18
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Winry,
I kind of got some very mixed messages with that letter. Tell me straight. Do you love me, or hate me? You probably sounded more like a sibling then, then Al does. He's so bloody mature.
I'm sorry. I can't come back. And yes, I will risk life and limb and being hit over the head by your largest spanner several times.
I can't come back, I'm sorry. Not until I've discovered who I really AM again. You probably don't understand, or maybe you do. I've seen you look at me curiously before after one of my more sullen moments.
Think of this as a little holiday I'm taking. A holiday to a place you don't know about, and I didn't either until I came here. I'm even writing to you.
I know, that's going to be very hard to do, isn't it, but can you try? For me? And can you keep Al company for me? He's probably going to get lonely, because we've never really been apart before. I know I'm getting lonely occasionally. He'd really love it if you were around. I know he would.
Can you send me some machine oil please with your next letter? I only really had time to really pack a few spares of clothes, because Al would wake up any minute... Also teacher was rushing me. I'd really appreciate it if you could, because I forgot mine.
Tell Aunty Pinnako that I said 'hi' and that I really did think out this decision, despite all evidence to the contrary.
Cringing in fear,
Ed.
01/20
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I apologise for the lateness of this fic. It's exceedingly hard to write, because I want to put what happens to Ed on the island, and there are a few things that I want to just 'slip out' without Ed realising. You know, things that he would normally keep from everyone. It's VERY hard to make that happen.
Okay, I'm thinking about chucking in a few letters between the other characters, not only Ed and everyone. How would people like to see a chain between Hawkeye, Havoc and Fury for instance?
Next chapter, there's going to be Roy pulling Ed's leg which hints at that coupling, but it's really just Roy doing his best to piss Ed off, nothing more serious. IF you let me do the Hawkeye/Havoc/Fury chain, I'm going to make it incredibly uncomfortable for fury... IF you know what I mean. -Cough-
Also, there will be hints at Al/Winry, just because I think that that's SUCH a cute couple. The techno geek and the giant suit of armour. -Sighs dreamily-
-Coughs- in summary, this is going to be a -coughgasp!- Hetro only fic! Wow! There's a first time for me to write everything I guess. Lol. Next I'll be writing Inu/Kag! (Oh GOD no!)
Review and feed a hungry authoress? -Rattles a little can.-