A/N: Hey there...Ok...heres the deal... This story was originally nc-17...I am so bummed that I had to drastically cut a lot of the more intense scenes. With this chapter especially... I mean I don't know how far I can go, but I'm taking a risk.. So if this chapter really sucks and seems short and badly written....most of the scene was cut.. so so sorry...if anyone is interested in the full original scene...let me know...

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She looks like she's sleeping...but I can't tell. I inch my way up to her bed. I loom over her, anxiously trying to decide if I should just go back to my own bed, and stare at the ceiling all night.

"Dustin?" Tori asks. She's not asleep. She doesn't turn to look at me at all.

"Hey, Tori... I uh... can't sleep...again...sorry.." I say nervously. I'm such a dumbass....

"Me neither." Tori rolls over. I feel her eyes on me. Through the darkness, I notice a smile on her face. Tori moves over to make room for me.

I slowly climb into her bed. She shares her fluffy blue pillow, and I lay my head. Our bodies, so close. Way closer than on my bed. I have to fight myself tonight from growing too excited. She'd notice, for sure. Oh man, I am freaking out here, with her next to me. I want to wrap my arms around her, but I just can't. I wonder what she's thinking. We lay, spooning, but I'm trying not to touch her. I'm staring at the back of her head, her hair smells so good. I close my eyes and take in her scent. The heat from her body. Her breathing. I hear her let out a sigh. She wiggles around to face me. Surprised, my eyes pop open and I catch her eyes. Here we are, gazing at each other...again...the same as before. I feel myself pulling towards her...almost magnetically. I fight the urge to kiss her. Damn, I want to kiss her so bad! So bad! There is so much tension in this room right now, and I really don't know what to do. Should I go?

I hear Tori sigh and swallow hard. Suddenly, I feel a hand on mine, underneath her sheets. Oh my God.. Tori is touching me...Dude... my heart feels like its going to explode...but no, its not that serious, right? I mean I'm her friend..she touches my hand a lot...right? My skin feels tingly, almost like I'm dreaming. Tori moves my hand, slowly away from me, and places it on her stomach. Her bare stomach. Her warm, soft skin. At this point, I totally give up on trying to suppress my hard on. I breathe heavily, more scared than I've been in a while. The room is silent. All I can hear is the sound of my own heart beating loudly. I can swear I feel Tori's beating, too. Just as fast as mine. Tori moves my hand slowly, down her stomach.

Lower...

Lower....

Lower....

Oh...

My...

God.......

She is so smooth and hairless... My manhood is massive, at this point and I find my hand between her legs. I realize that all she is wearing is a t-shirt and panties. Tori's heavy breathing and soft moans fill the room, breaking the silence. She's squirming and shuttering all over the place. My heart is racing and I'm breathing intensely, massively turned on. I want her so bad.... it's been a while since I last pleased a female like this...and she doesnt seem to be complaining at all....

"I .... I think I'm...." She whispers in my ear, between the heavy breathing. She wiggles and shutters, Throwing a hand over her mouth as she lets out a loud moan.

Woah.. that was intense...As much as I don't want to, I pull my fingers from inside of her.. Tori's still breathing deeply as she calms herself down. A sudden rage of guilt and total embarrassment comes over me.

Tori, not saying a word, looks over at me. She looks like she's just seen a ghost.

"Oh God! Oh Dude!" I say, swallowing hard. "Oh...no... what did I do? I'm so, so sorry.. I'm so sorry.." I quickly, jump up out of the bed leaving Tori blankly staring at me. "I'm so sorry, Tori.. I .... I am so sorry.." I say, running out of the room, and into the bathroom. I run right by Shane, who's dead asleep on the fold out bed from the couch in the living room. I flick on the light, blinded by the brightness at first, I squint, letting my eyes adjust. I look at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes now, wide, staring at myself. I look at my hand. Oh..my hand...My fingers are the luckiest fingers ever! Oh my God...she felt even better than in my dreams... I can only imagine how she'd feel if...

I hold my lucky fingers up to my nose and inhale. Oh, dude...she smells sooooooo amazing...... Gosh! What am I doing??? I feel like a rapist... a pervert.... A horrible, horrible human being..... but...she put my hand there....she so wanted it, too... I can't feel bad about it.. I shouldn't .... But I do... uggghhhh!! Why do I have to be the nice guy? Why??? I feel like I ruined everything.. EVERYTHING! Dude..friends don't finger each other! They just don't!!

Suddenly, Tori's figure appears in the bathroom doorway. Staring right at me, she closes the door behind her. I look away, ashamed to look at her. Because, I know if I look at her, I'm going to grab her and finish what we started.. then I'll really feel like a rapist. She hates me right now...she hates me I know it....

"Dustin-" Tori tries to speak but I don't want to hear her say how much she hates me.

"Tori, I'm sorry...truly... um.. so sorry.. I swear to you I did not plan on any of that when I came into your room.. It just .. I don't know..." I stutter, losing all my words inside my messed up brain.

"It just...happened...look, I know...it's my fault.. I'm the one who's sorry, Dustin... I'm sorry if I freaked you out.. I got a little carried away. I'm sorry.. it's just... it's been a while...and.. you were there and...well...you know.." Tori tried to explain, in so many words, that I just happened to be there when she really wanted someone else. Ouch.. hey thanks, Tor.. I feel like dying right now. Dropping dead on this bathroom floor. I'd die at the feet of the girl I love. Uh.... Now I sound all emo again.. and a part of me thought that if there was any other time to tell her how I feel... now would be that time.... But without knowing it....she just broke my heart into 5 pieces... again...

"Oh... yeah.. um.. I ... um" Still no words. Well, why do I even bother anyway? Whatever....

Tori is standing uneasily in front of me, blocking the door, "Can we just forget this happened.. can we please?? Can we just put it behind us and just be the same as we were earlier? Please?" Tori pleaded. Are you serious??? You want me to forget this?? Like it was nothing?? So basically she's saying it was nothing to her, so just forget it.. delete it...scratch it out.. cut it from the script... This film can do without it.. it isn't important. Wow.....rip me open a little more, here.. please.... Just take your hand and rip my heart right out of my chest!!! Throw it, still beating, right onto the floor and step on it... laugh as the blood squirts between your toes...Damn Tori.... But she is not going to let me leave this tension filled shit hole until she knows for sure this little mess is cleaned up.

"Sure. Already forgotten." I lie, choking back tears. Forgetting this, is not going to be easy for me. Forgetting the little details...how amazing she felt..Oh, dude..it's gonna be even harder...

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A/N: Dammit! Ok so there it was...oh man.. so much was cut out but I'm sure you can use your imagination and fill in the blanks.. hehehee... The biggest problem with writing in the first person is that I , well Dustin, can only describe how he feels and how he sees the other persons reactions. Unfortunately he cant really describe how Tori is feeling or thinking about the situation.. . I don't know but with Tori's actions one can only get the feeling that she's way in denial.. Hey thanks for reading please tell me what you think!!! I am not happy with this chappie....