Shane decided he'd go to Vanessa's for a while to give me and Tori some alone time. After I had described to everyone what happened, no one could say a word. Never in a million years would anyone have thought that this could happen. I thought maybe I should call up Hunter and tell him, but I don't know. Tori thinks I should press charges, but I don't really want to go through all of that. The law can be a bitch, dude! I like to avoid it whenever I can. Plus, a part of me feels bad for Blake. I know, I know, I sound like a moron right now but, loving someone can do crazy things to you. It's like your heart does the thinking…the reacting….which in most cases isn't smart at all. You act on impulse..which a highly trained ninja impulse can have fatal consequences. At this point, I can have 100 stab wounds, and I'm still the happiest dude in the world. As for Blake, I just.. I don't know…I'm too good of a person sometimes. I hate it!! But I feel bad for him…
On the upside, I'm glad that I don't have to feel like the worlds biggest dirtbag anymore 'cuz I think Cam and Ivette like each other..that'd be sweet! Now here we are…me and Tori..resting on her bed….
"You okay?" She asks, running her fingers through my hair.
"I'm good…this shit is really bothering me." I hold my bandaged arm up. In total, I scored 32 stiches.
"You see, we should've went to the pharmacy… I told you!" She's right..but I'll live. With her by my side I'll live.
"I know… I'm just tired." I say , closing my eyes. Her fingers on my scalp feel amazing. And I never have to hide my feelings again. "That feels good." I say.
"Yeah? Good." Tori gently kisses my forehead.
"Tori.."
"Yes, my love.." I hear a smile in her voice.
"How long have you felt this way?" I ask.
"For you?" She asks.
"Yeah."
"Honestly, I really believe that I've felt this way since we met…since we were kids.."
"Really?" I open my eyes to see her, smiling at me.
"Yeah.. I mean it was always there….subconsciously, you know? There was something and I didn't realize it.. I didn't understand why I was so drawn to you..protective over you. And I got so jealous of all the other girls..oh God! Always!! Especially Euyi! Oh man, when you started dating her I was ssssooooooooooooooooooo jealous!! I hated her so much! I'm the only girl that should ever be special to you. Ever!" Tori giggles.
"You've always been." I caress her beautiful face. She closes her eyes.
"And I really started to understand my feelings. And realize how much I truly love you. And how attracted I am to you. That was my biggest obstacle.. It's weird when you grow insanely attracted to your best friend! When you wanna kiss that person…hold that person…yeah…. Usually friends don't think of each other in that way… I mean, you hit puberty and oh boy…you really grew up to be a hottie!" Tori continues, biting her bottom lip.
"In what way?" I grin. Yeah, I know what she's talking about…
"You know, that way.." Tori bites her lip, "I think about it a lot. More than I should."
"Ooohh..what do you think about?" My grin grows more devious. Oh yeah…
"Ok, before this conversation turns into an x-rated play by play.." Tori rolls her eyes.
"Nice!" I giggle.
"So anyway.." Tori playfully sucks her teeth, "Why didn't you say anything? Why couldn't you tell me how you felt?"
"I was so afraid of you taking it weird…and like, laughing at me..or saying no…or… I was just so scared.. I don't know… I wanted to..everyday.. I tried..but I couldn't.." I sigh, "Half the time, I couldn't even speak straight when I was around you, let alone spill my heart.. I didn't wanna make things weird..and I didn't wanna make you think of me differently…. But by me not saying anything, it was way weirder.."
"I was petrified! I was so scared of you not feeling the same way, and thinking I was nuts! Wow! This whole time! In a way, I tried to make myself fall for Blake.. to try to get rid of my feelings for you..I know that sounds horrible, but I didn't know what else to do.. I mean best friends falling for each other usually never works out..and I didn't wanna risk ruining our friendship. But now, I cant deny you anymore. And this is a risk I'm more than willing to take."
"Me too. But I know this is gonna work.. I know it.. I can feel it.. and one day…I'm gonna marry you." I blurt.
Tori looks at me with a shocked look on her face. Her eyes widen. She sighs. "Really?" She pauses, trying to find the words to say, "Wow..well.. I hope you're right.. I'd.. I would like that a lot.. one day.."
"I've never felt this way about anyone before. Never. This is new..and I've had my share of so called love.. but nothing like this.. my feelings for you are so strong..and pure..and true.. I'd do anything for you.. I want to do anything for you!" I laugh, "I want to take care of you and pamper you and treat you like a queen. I have not one doubt about this.. not one.. I swear I'll make you so happy, Tori..anything you want.. just ask.. I promise.. you make me wanna stand up in the middle of a crowded street and sing.. and I can't sing for shit, but I get this random urge to! Freaky! You make me wanna… wake up in the morning… dude, I hate mornings!! But I can't wait to get outta bed to see your face..to hear your voice..your smile.. your laugh..even if you're laughing at me! You make me just wanna give up anything that's unnessesary in my life and be a better person.. think better..take care of myself better..eat salad! Be more motivated..not be an airhead.." I laugh.
Tori giggles through teary eyes, "You are not an airhead.."
"You are all I've ever wanted in this world. You are all that truly matters to me. Not video games. Not motocross. Not bikes. Not pizza. Not ninja training. Not Angelina Jolie….well….on second thought.." I kid.
"What??" Tori's face distorts.
"I'm just kidding!" I wink, "But seriously.. I love you. And that's more the truth than the truth. There are no words.. none. its that deep.."
"I love you so much, Dustin." Tori squeezes me in her arms, sniffing back tears, "Ditto. I feel the same.. No words. You make me happier than I've ever been. And I cant wait to be with you. Hopefully for the rest of my life. You and only you."
We lay, holding each other. Taking in our first real moment together. I'm so stoked to get all of this off my chest. Finally. Even if my arm and my shoulder are throbbing with pain. Now, I'll have love scars.
I brush Tori's hair from her face and pull her close to me. Our lips touch and I swear it feels like our first kiss all over again. Her tongue finds its way in my mouth and she grabs the back of my head. Her lips taste so good. My hands explore her skin…her curves.. I want her now..all of her.. I feel her hands all over me, exploring me. I want to see the parts of her I've never seen.. I wanna go to places I've never been.. I cup her breast through her shirt and she lets out a little moan.. I guess she took that as a cue to sneak her hand in my pants..she's rubbing me and driving me insane…Oh Tori…
"I'm ready.." She whispers , "Make love to me. I wanna feel you. All of you." She slips her pants off and pulls her shirt off over her head. She unhooks her bra and soon she's laying on the bed, naked. Completely. She is….so…so unbelievable. And I'm so nervous. I've never laid eyes on anything more perfect in my life. The mold was forever broken as soon as she took her first breath. I swallow hard, studying her. She smiles warmly at me. And she's just as nervous as I am. "here.." She sits up, her hair falling to cover her breasts slightly. "Let me help you." She starts to help me take my clothes off. And, this is me. Totally. Here we are studying each other..seeing each other fully..no clothes..no lies..all natural. My heart is racing. Oh dude…this is it… I hold Tori in my arms as I kiss her. I gently lower her down onto the bed, my hands all over her. Lower…lower…she moans as I explore her warm place…
"I love you. You are so beautiful." I whisper in her ear, as I make love to her for the first time , all night.
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A/N: Woah…man I wish I could make this nc-17!!!!!!!!! Well, I hope you liked this just as much as I do… only one more short chapter left..thanks so much for reading! Tori and Dustin 4ever!!!! Hehehe
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