'Kay, guys. This is an ongoing songficcy-story. I have a nifty little plotline for y'all. Chapter number two. Inuyasha's gonna go bye-bye for a bit. He just can't really deal right now.
Song: Take Me Away, from the Avril Lavigne CD Under My Skin
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How am I supposed to tell her? How do you tell someone like Kagome that you love them?
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
The hanyou kept his gaze upon the girl. She smiled at him over the fire. Biting his lip, the hanyou dropped his gaze, trying to let the flames soothe his aching head. He heard her sigh again and chanced a glance up at her. Kagome was looking away from him, fishing through the gigantic yellow backpack that she could never seem to lift.
Quite suddenly, Inuyasha was aware that a certain taijiya was watching him. As were a perverted houshi, a kitsune, an old miko, and a tiny firecat.
"What are you all gawking at?" the inu-hanyou snarled, baring his fangs. The sharp incisors glinted in the firelight, and he hid his amusement as Shippo squealed and dove behind the taijiya.
Sango sighed and Miroku shook his head.
"Nothing, Inuyasha." Kaede said in exasperation, turning her attention back to a bundle of herbs she was crushing into powder.
Inuyasha snorted and turned his nose upward. "I thought not."
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
And, once again, the hanyou's gaze settled on the teenage girl. She had tugged a huge tome from her bag, opened it, and her eyes now fluttered over each page. It looked as if she was drinking in the information printed on the paper, just as a hummingbird would drink in the sweet nectar of a flower.
How am I supposed to tell her? What'll she say? What if...what if she rejects me? What if she just laughs in my face?
Kagome wouldn't do that...would she?
"Hmph." Inuyasha grunted. The miko blinked and looked up at him.
"What?"
"Eh?" was the inu-hanyou's reply.
"You said 'hmph.'"
"Oh. What're you reading?"
"I'm studying History. I have another test coming up soon."
"Another test?"
"In at least a month, Inuyasha. You don't have to worry about me leaving yet."
"Keh."
Kagome rolled her eyes and returned to reading. Inuyasha blinked at her, head tilting of its own accord.
What would she say?
I have to tell her sometime, don't I? I mean, what if Koga comes and claims her? She's free for the taking until I mark her...
But how am I supposed to tell her? And besides, she'd be better off with a full youkai or with one of her own people. Not with a hanyou. How did I ever deserve to have her anywhere near me, anyway?
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself
I need to get around it
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
I hate this. I hate not knowing what to do. I want to say it...I want to tell her how much I care about her. I do. I love her. But how am I supposed to make her understand that?
Besides which. She's a hell of a lot better off without me. I shouldn't say anything.
His head was ringing. Thinking this hard was something the hanyou hadn't done in a long time. He was scared. He didn't want to risk rejection and, in the same breath, he didn't believe that Kagome should have to stay with him. He wasn't good enough for her. She was a miko, for Kami's sake! One of the purest creatures on the face of the Earth!
Damn.
I can't do it. I can't say it. Damn, damn, damn. She's fucking better off without me. She's gotta be. I'm a half-demon.
The molten gold of Inuyasha's gaze passed over the miko. No, he didn't deserve something--someone--this perfect.
But before he knew it, he had spoken. "Kagome?"
Kagome blinked and looked up. "Hm?"
Shit! Now what do I do? "Er...you should...get some rest."
The miko stared at him, then tugged a watch out of her bag and gasped. "Whoa...it's already ten o' clock...I guess you're right." The book was closed with a BANG and dropped heavily back into the bag. She unrolled her sleeping back and laid down, her back to him. Shippo scuttled past him and squirmed into Kagome's sleeping bag, snuggling down beside the girl.
That was close.
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
What the hell made me talk, anyway?
The hanyou watched as Sango and her husband exited the hut, heading toward their own home. Since their marriage the houshi and taijiya had built a relatively large hut with the help of Inuyasha and the villagers. Sango had recently announced that she was pregnant. The hanyou thought that the children would all be mouthy perverts....but, to his credit, he'd kept his mouth shut. The Hiraikotsu could really hurt--he knew this from Miroku's recaps of being clobbered with the Boomerang Bone.
Kaede settled onto the futon mat and fell into slumber after a few more minutes of working.
The hanyou sighed and leaned back against the wall, gaze trained on the sleeping girl.
I'm going nowhere
(on and on and)
I'm getting nowhere
(on and on and on)
Take me away
I'm going nowhere
(on and off and off and on)
(and off and on)
I love you, Kagome. But I can't say it. I can't...
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I don't know what to do. I can't face you right now, Kagome. I don't even know why I feel this way. But I can't talk to anyone about this. I can't even think straight. I'm confused. I can't...I'm sorry, Kagome--I'll come back.
The hanyou rose and padded silently from the hut, the wooden door slipping closed behind him.
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away