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Yusuke, Kurma, and Hiei stood bent over breathing hard. They looked around their surroundings not knowing where they were, or caring for that matter. "It's...It's just no use..." Kurama sighed. "He ran so wildly I can't tell where he took off to!" Yusuke stood straite up, "The best we can do is try...try damXit!" Yusuke turned away tears rolling down his cheeks.
Kurama extend an arm to comfort Yusuke, but Yusuke left. Kurama watched him, and Hiei sighed, "He won't stop until Kuwabara's found." Kurama sighed, "Let us hope when we find him he's alive." Hiei looked over at him brows raised. "Kuwabara wouldn't..."
Kurama looked at him, "Hiei he's been keeping many things inside...maybe he's..." Kurama sighed, "Maybe he's not as stable as we would have thought...He could be...a really good actor as Boeton said a while back" Kurama smiled bitterly, "Remember? Faking that death...even though he was alive...he had me skilled...he..."
"He played to role well." Hiei said before Kurama could, "It was as if he knew how he wanted to die." Hiei smiled oddly, "He played out his death in his head, why would it be any differnt acting it out?" Kurama shivered as Hiei vanished. Kurama looked up at the noon day sun peeking through the trees.
"Heaven help us..."
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Hiei stood leaning against a tree watching Kuwbara sleep. He had found him here as soon as they entered the forest...but Kuwabara needed sleep. He needed to cry, to curse, to rant. He needed to get everthing out. All of it. Hiei slowly approached him, and placed Kuwabara's head on his lap. He fluffed Kuwabara's hair without realizing it whispered, "I didn't realize that you dealt with..."
Hiei sighed, "Let me tell you a story Kuwabara." Hiei looked at the slumbering man. "One time there was a shadow and when he tried to step into the light he siffered. The others, much older, much bigger, would hurt him. Would torture him...would ra...." Hiei held onto Kuwabara, "Would rape him. and the shadow-"
"Killed his parents and tried to cover it up like a coward?" A meek vopice whispered. Hiei met Kuwabara's teary eyes. "No...I got my revenge...but in ways that even disgust me." Hiei swallowed a lump rising in his voice, "Your father...he...did he..." Kuwabara sobbed, and suprised Hiei by hugging him around the waist, and curling up closer on Kuwabara's lap. Hiei felt hot tear gems drip down his face as he rememberd. He cursed under his breath.
Some things just refused to go away.
Bending over, Hiei lay on top of Kuwabara's back, and ran one of his hands up and down it. "Don't do it Kuwabara, don't take your life." Kuwabara grew still. "I saw that look in your eyes, I saw what you were thinking...I thought that once." Hiei sat up, no more gems dripping down his face, but on the ground and on Kuwabara's back.
Hiei gripped Kuwabara painfully hard, who was now shivering onhis lap, "Don't be a fool..." Kuwabara sniffed and angrilly muttered, "Why do you have to see me like this...this great big sniveling fool..." Hiei growled impatiently, "Crying does not make you a fool. I've seen you cry before. From laughing too hard, from tears of regret and sadness...remember Sensui?" Kuwabara had gone quiet. "You've cried from releif, and even from joy." Hiei sighed, "You don't lock things away, you let everyone and everything know what you're thinking."
"I on the other hand..." Kuwabara looked at him with glassey eyes. Hiei held his gaze, afraid if he turned away Kuwabara would break and turn to dust before him, "Have locked everything inside...and I don't intend to let it out. That is how I deal with things, not with how you deal with them." Kuwabara whispered, "I didn't want any of you to know..."
Hiei snorted, "Where you afraid we would think less of you? Loose all respect...I never respected you from the start." Kuwabara coughed to hide a laugh. Hiei frowned, "What?" Kuwabara looked away, "Your lying...you and I are friends whether you want to admit it or not." Hiei snorted, and thought of pushing Kuwabara off him. But as soon as it came, it had gone. Hiei instead gripped him tighter. Something about Kuwabara...reminded Hiei of himself. The crying, snivling, whimpering young man seemed but a child. A chld who screamed from abuse, and rape. Hiei saw himself on the ground, and bowed his head.
"You are not any different. You are Kazuma Kuwabara, noble old fool." Kuwabara relazed completly, falling asleep, but this time looking much more peaceful. It was over. Everythign would be okay now...Hiei sighed, he had never told anyone of his past. Feeling better than he had ever felt, Hiei Picked Kuwabara up and carried him out of the woods. What an odd sight it was. A small demon carrying out a very tall, and sleeping human.
Hiei praised God that no one had a camera.
When everyone returned, they panted leaning against the door. "No use!" Kurama cried upset. Yusuke Was silent, and tried to turn. "Where are you going Yusuke?" Yusuke growled, "What do you think Hiei?! I GOTTA FIND-Kuwabara!!" Yusuke starred at the man behind Hiei.
Kuwabara stood shyly away from everyone. He was battered and briused, and in need of a bath, or something to help get the twigs out that had entangled in his hair. Kuwabara eventaully looked up at Yusuke embarssed, and shame in his eyes. Yusuke took three long strides, andyanked Kuwabara down wrapping his arms around him.
Yusuke cursed him out, raved, yelled, and cried. When that was all done he looked at Kuwabara, with his red puffed up eyes from tears. "Everythings going to be okay...Everything will be better. No one will hurt you again...Don't be ashamed. Everything is okay...everything is ok." Kuwabara collpased on his knees, and sobbed. Yusuke held onto him, pressing Kuwabara to his waist, as Kuwabara reveled his secrets.
Revelaed his past.
Kurama at one point threw up, and Hiei went a little paler. Yusuke stood calmly holding the man, letting him get it all out. He held onto him, waiting for him to get it all out. When Kuwabara was done, he'd done just what Yusuke thought he would do. He fainted. Yusuke sat down holding Kuwabara in his arms, letting his head rest on his shoudler. He rocked him like a babe, as he had seen Shizuru do in that video. Kurama came to sit by him, Hiei also silently joing them.
The child that died twice, one from pain, and one from guilt now freed himself, and let go of his guilt, of his crimes, of his suffering.
And Kazuma Kuwabara finally came home.
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