Disclaimer: In chapter one.

Warning: Some language. If you don't like it, don't read it.

Authors Note: sorry that it took so long to get this chapter out. I had a couple tests at school. I hope you enjoy it. Another chapter should be up soon.

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"Shit! Fuck! This can't be happening."

Sara was sitting in her bathroom staring at a positive pregnancy test. She had only been back for two weeks, which made her three weeks pregnant. She had never missed a period so when it was three days late she went to the store and bought a test.

Things between Sara and Gil were still a little sore. They had talked for hours the day she got back, but there were still some open wounds.

'How the fuck am I going to tell him? I mean his letter made it pretty clear that he couldn't commit to me. I know he loves me, and I love him, but things will just get worse with a baby around. Maybe I shouldn't tell him, I could move back to Canada with my sister and get a job in criminalistics. No I can't do that to him, he has a right to know.'

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Gil was sitting on his couch watching a baseball game when the doorbell rang.

"Sara? What are you doing here?"

Sara had always been a right to the point kind of person so she just said it.

"I'm pregnant…I'm sorry I shouldn't have come here."

When she turned to leave Grissom grabbed her arm.

"No Sara, I'm sorry. I took advantage of you that night. I regret that, but I don't regret that we created something that night. You don't look so good, why don't we go sit."

"I don't know what to do. I hate being vulnerable. When I looked at that test, I didn't feel anything but regret. Then I thought about you. You can't commit to me and I understand...I do. I can't be a single parent Gil. I'm not going to push you into something you can't handle, I won't have an abortion, but I don't think I can keep it."

"Then why did you come here? You know that I love you, and I do want to commit myself to you, I'm just not ready yet. I would love to have children with you, I told you that. If your just going to throw this all away then WHY did you COME HERE?"

He knew that Sara was right, he was afraid to commit, but he lost his family once, he wasn't going to let that happen again.

"I think I should go. I'll be at work tonight, maybe by then I'll be a little more rational. I do love you, I know its beginning to sound tired, but I do. Just give me some time. God knows I've given you enough."

"I'm sorry Sara"

She stood and walked out of his townhouse. She had just made it to her car when a wave of nausea hit her.

Gil was standing at his kitchen window when he saw Sara grab her stomach and double over. He ran out to her and, with much refusal on her part, led her back inside.

"I'm fine Gil, I just need to go home and sleep a little."

"No Sara. You're staying here, and not going to work."

He led her to his room for the second time in a month. She was hot and pale. He left the room to get a wet, cold, washcloth. When he returned, Sara had already fallen asleep. He put the cloth on her head and gave her a quick little kiss.

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When Sara woke up she felt like a brick wall had hit her, she hurt all over. Then she noticed that she wasn't at home in her bed, and all the memories of the past day hit her. She ran to the bathroom and threw up.

A few minutes later Gil walked into the bathroom with a glass of apple juice, aspirin, and a toothbrush.

"Aren't you supposed to be at work? You remembered." For the first time that day she smiled.

"I'm not going to make that mistake twice. No water with pills. I stopped in at work for a few minutes. I left shift with Catherine. I wanted to be here in case you needed me."

"God, I don't think I've thrown up this much since liquid man…..o god why did I say that."

There was nothing in her stomach to throw up. She was just dry heaving and It hurt like a bitch.

"What did you say about both of us not being there?"

"I told her the truth. I said that you were sick and that I needed to be here for you. She won't tell anybody. Then I went to the store and got you some pills and apple juice and a toothbrush, to get the taste of vomit out of your mouth."

At the look on her face Gil cringed

"Sorry"

"Thanks, I do feel better. I don't think I've slept that good since I slept with you….shit now I'm sorry."

"I haven't been sleeping well either…um…you still look tired, why don't you lie back down. I'll be in the living room if you need anything. If you want you can shower first. I can find you something to wear that would be better to sleep in."

Sara was glad that Gil was there with her, for her. She was happy that he was trying to respect her privacy and space, even if she was in his house, in his space. It was one of the things they had talked about when she came back.

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She showered quickly and threw on the boxers and t-shirt that Gil had left on the bed.

She walked out to the living room and found Gil sitting on his couch reading a forensic magazine.

"As I recall, you said that you would get me on their mailing list."

When he looked up, confused, Sara pointed to the magazine and laughed.

"Oh yeah.… I …uh…forgot. Was there something you needed?"

"Do you want to sleep with me? Just sleep. I just want you to hold me for a while."

"If that's what you want Sara."

"I want you Gil, ALL of you, but having you with me while I sleep will have to do for now."

They lay down on his bed and Sara scooted her back against his warm chest. Together they fell into a restful sleep.

TBC?