Summary: Evanscnc/Lnkn' Prk/Adema (suicide)"I've been looking in the mirror for so long,that I've come to believe my souls on the other side.Oh the little pieces falling shatter.Shards of me too sharp to put back together.To small to matter"
Short story.
Lyrics from Evanescence 'October'
The icy winter wind blew its fury onto the landscape tearing branches from the naked trees and scattering them about the freshly shoveled driveway of the 'Rembrandt Psychological Foundation and Help Center'.
I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
The massive three-story building loomed eerily over the winter backdrop, with its grotesque brick walls, high arches and stained glass windows portraying a Germanic battle with the gods.
This once great cathedral, faced the modernized city of domino, its monstrous walls a refuge from the insanity that lurked outside it.
Inside, those tagged by society as 'the mentally disoriented' boded, forcefully locked away against their will.
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
Once such case was Yami Mouto.
His file read:
Mouto, Yami
Age: 17Sex: Male
Patient No.: 6114
Level: 3
Work Sessions: Mild amnesia, severe Phengophobia (1)
Special drugs: None
Psychologist in charge of status : Dr. Rori Yumiko
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Stuck in that room day after day, they told him everything would be alright and he would be out of there in no time if he co-operated.
It's been almost 2 months since he came and nothing improved or even changed for that matter. He'd developed a serious phobia for light and couldn't stand being around more than a simple candle or very dim lights.
It all had all changed since that day. It'd be with him for the rest of his life.
Flashback
The words from Yugi's lips seemed to take a very long to sink in. "You wanna know something else, I meant to kill that bitch."
I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
It was one of those oh so often fights he and Yugi always had after Ryou's death. But this time, Yami snapped when those awful words hit his senses.
Yugi did kill Ryou.
"Wh-Wh-What?" Yami stuttered, his temper flaring, his crimson eyes becoming colder than usual.
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
Yugi smiled and took a step back, preparing to run if necessary, "You heard me," he spat with acidic cruelty, amethyst now plain and hardened, "I wanted to kill him and I did. In fact if I could, I'd do it again because I hated him the same way I hated you."
Yami was blank to all this. His reality had crashed and his whole body went numb. His mind went black and his limbs seemed to have a reasoning for themselves that he couldn't understand.
His senses returned only hours later, to find himself with a bloody knife in his hand and Yugi's naked blood ladled body on the floor shivering and sobbing violently.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Yugi's body was cut in several places and blood poured from out him like it was a never-ending fountain. There were scratch marks down his spine and knife marks down his slim thighs. But the worst of all was his hikari's face. It was simply unforgettable. A potion of torment mixed with utter sadness and betrayal.
Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.
Yami dropped the knife, immediately backing away slowly from the bruised light on the floor. A raw scream quickly brought the situation out of control.
He turned immediately to see Anzu at the kitchen door with Malik and Marik staring blindly at him.
He wasn't quite aware of what happened next except when he was brought to this center and then and only then did they tell him what truly happened from his hikari's point of view.
He tackled Yugi to the floor and then had beaten him with wanton disregard. He then dragged the poor light down the stairs and into the kitchen where he proceeded to use a knife and carve little patterns on his skin.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
Dr. Yumiko had told him what happened when he wouldn't co-operate with her during the sessions as a deal to behave. From that time, Yami shied away from any kind of light whatsoever and became phengophobic.
Nightmares haunted him, little horrible flashes of memory of what happened that day. He dreamt of Yugi screaming as his bloody hand dragged him down steps or when the knife pieced his aibou's skin emitting a terrible scream from Yugi.
But the ultimate betrayal, as Dr. Yumiko put bluntly, Yami raped him.
...........End Flashback....................
Yami watched as the nurse stealthily placed his dinner on the bed beside him. She turned on the very dim overhead lights designed for him and smiled.
"And how's my favourite patient today?" she asked quite cheerily, taking up the syringe from the tray and inserting the needle into a small bottle and withdrawing it when the right amount was in the syringe.
"I'm fine." Yami answered softly, "What's that for?"
"Just to help your appetite. Dr. Yumiko says you haven't been eating much."
She lifted Yami's arm and pushed up the cotton white blouse. Yami looked away as she inserted the needle, it pinched a bit but he'd gotten used to getting injections.
"Alright then, I'm done here." She says, patting him on the head. The door creaks slightly as she leaves.
Yami looks at the plate with all its plastic items. He sighs just noticing how really hungry he is. He picks up the fork and shoves the tines into the veal and puts it to his mouth.
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
TBC
Oh man, I've got so much things doing this year. Damn school work. Man I'm seriously beginning to hate bio right now, it's a real pain in the ass. I'm seriously rethinking my career choice and maybe switching into something with Physics and Chemistry as the main subjects needed...nuclear physics maybe...or chemical engineering.....who knows....I might join the army and just forget about school for a while....but then again I might not.
Please review and tell me what you think of the story so far. Okay nuff luv. fero-kun forever.