Chapter One

July 31

I'm finally leaving today. It seems like this summer has been going on forever. Lupin and Moody are picking me up later today on their way to Grimmauld Place. They say they have business for the Order they need to take care of. Typical.

I'm very excited to see Harry and Ron of course. I wonder what they got on their O.W.L.s. I was so surprised when I found out that I achieved 10 results as 'Outstanding'. Never did I dream that I would manage to do that well in the exams.

I still don't know what I'll do once I'm out of Hogwarts. I'm considering trying to take the Society for the Promotion of Elfish Welfare a bit farther, but after two unsuccessful years trying to run it and very few members, none of which participate, I'm thinking it would almost be better to just quit. That doesn't sound like me at all....

But what happened to all the hats and socks last year? Didn't those little elves want to be free? Was Ron right? Were the poor little elves being freed when they didn't want to be?

No of course they want to be free! Why wouldn't they be? They should at least all be paid like Dobby. Why don't they see that?

I'm really going to be busy this year, with all my classes. They'll also be much more difficult, being at N.E.W.T. level. What if I fail? My whole future will be ruined.

I wish I could tell someone my secret. I can't tell Harry or Ron, they'd never understand. Especially not Ron, considering it concerns him and I really don't want him to start acting all weird around me. I wish I had a friend that I could tell everything. Someone I can talk to about boys and stuff like that. I could talk to Ginny, but well, I mean, this is her brother, and she might tell him. But whom else do I have?

I've never felt this strongly for anyone before. I mean, when Viktor asked me to the Yule Ball, I couldn't believe it, did I actually have a boyfriend? But those days are over now, he's two old for me, he hardly ever writes, and I haven't seen him for over a year. Perhaps I should tell him we are through. He probably thinks we already are.

I've always had this little crush on both of them, each one more at times, but they've eventually faded away rather fast. But this is different, so much different. I've never felt this way this much before. I can hardly stand it, I feel like I'm about to explode. What am I supposed to do?

Later

I've just realized that it's Harry's birthday today and I completely forgot! How could I have been so stupid? I've been thinking about Ron too much lately, it feels like my obsession is taking over my life. Obsession. Is it really that bad? Oh this is driving me mad!

I really need to talk about something other than Ron, I mean lets face it, it's a bit boring going on and on about him.

I wonder if Ginny will be made a Prefect. I hope she does. She better not be taking what Percy called last year in his letter to Ron, the "Fred and George" route. She'll probably join them in making things for their joke shop. Mrs. Weasley probably wouldn't be too happy.

I've been thinking a lot about becoming an animagus when I'm older and out of Hogwarts. It could be useful. Especially if I join the Order, which I'm planning on doing. I wouldn't use the ability to change into an animal to harm others like Rita Skeeter did obviously.

I wonder what animal I'll become. I've read that it's like a Patronus, each person has a certain shape based on themselves. I wonder if mine will be an otter like my Patronus. I hope not though. I don't fancy being a water animal.

I would love to turn into a cat like Professor McGonagall. Cats are so mysterious. I know this probably sounds stupid, but maybe I could do something like Sirius did and communicate with Crookshanks. I'm sure Crookshanks sees things we humans don't, being allowed to wander around in certain areas without arousing suspicion.

Lupin and Moody just arrived downstairs. I'll write more later when I get to Grimmauld Place. Oh I can't wait to see Ron!

11:00 PM

Well I'm here and I must say it's been great to see everyone again. It amazes me how much I've missed everybody even though we haven't been apart for that long.

When I arrived, Mrs. Weasley showed me to my room, the same one as I had last year, which is right across the hall from Harry and Ron's. This year I'm sharing with Ginny.

After leaving my things in the room I went and saw Harry and Ron. Finally. A gave both of them a hug and we discussed all the new events that have happened now that Voldemort has finally moved out into the open. It's terrifying knowing that someone who has killed all those people is has risen again. I feel like we're all out in the middle of nowhere with no protection what so ever.

It turns out that there's going to be an election for a new minister of magic this year. The election takes place on September 1st, the same day we go back to Hogwarts. It's sort of a relief knowing that Fudge will no longer be in office. Although he's back on Dumbledore's side, I still feel he doesn't deserve forgiveness for telling all those lies about Harry.

I was shocked to discover that Lupin is going to be running for minister. I'm hoping he will win of course, but I can help wondering if people want to vote for him if they know that he is a werewolf. Won't that scare all the people that don't know him? I'm not saying that's a good thing, but it's just something that will most likely happen.

If he's elected I wonder if any of the laws will be changed. He will probably make it easier for the Order to discover what they need to. I suppose that could count as an advantage for our side. Voldemort will have a much harder time accomplishing what he is intending to do.

I better go, because it's getting late and we're going to Diagon Alley tomorrow to get our new school things.