Chapter Four

August 5th

Something's bothering Harry, I can tell. I wish he would stop locking himself in his room everyday and tell us what's wrong. It would probably do him a lot of good.

I've noticed that Ron has been acting a bit strange around me lately; like there's something he wants to tell me. It's probably just me though, with my crush and all. Maybe I'm just imagining that he'll reveal his true feelings. It's probably just me. My mind is most likely searching for a reason for me to suspect something.

All of us have been having quite a bit of fun with these two-way mirrors. It's kind of fun being able to talk to each other in a regular conversation without even being in the same room.

I finally started the holiday work that the teachers assigned us right before term ended. That really isn't like me at all to procrastinate. There have been too many things on my mind now that I'm back at Grimmauld Place and I'm actually able to hear about what has been going on in the wizarding world. It's nice that I'm not cut off from everything here like I am at home.

It's actually taking me quite a bit longer to get all my homework done than usual, now that all of it is at N.E.W.T. level. I imagine that I'm going to have quite a workload once the term starts, considering I'm taking more N.E.W.T. courses than anyone else in sixth year, according to Dumbledore. I just hope it's not too much, like it was in my third year. That was a nightmare amount of studying for exams at the end of the year, and they weren't even O.W.L.s or N.E.W.T.s.

I'm also probably not going to write in this diary everyday anymore until term starts. It's just so boring around here.

August 10th

STILL nothing is happening. Ron, Harry, and Ginny are still using Fred and George's Extendable Ears to try to listen in on Order meetings, despite all my warnings that they are going to be caught by Mrs. Weasley for sure. Apparently she's stopped putting Imperturbable Charms on the door. I guess she doesn't suspect they're still being used. As of now I'm resisting my temptation to open my mouth and tell her, mainly because I would rather avoid annoyed looks coming from Ron, Harry, and Ginny's directions.

We've gotten to meet a few new Order members. There are a few new Aurors, so that's helpful for us, as well as many of the parents of other students at Hogwarts. Seamus Finnigan's mom is one new member (she's not telling her husband, who's a muggle according to Seamus) and the Patil twins parents are just some of them. It's kind of nice to see people from Hogwarts over the summer, even if we aren't close friends.

I guess that's about all for now, I probably won't write again until the end of the holidays. Only if something interesting happens (unlikely).

August 31st

We're leaving for Hogwarts tomorrow! Finally! The summer holidays have been going on forever (or so it seems)!

I swear Ron's been avoiding me. I'm pretty sure it's not just me. And when he's not avoiding me and we're talking, he won't look me in the face anymore! It's so annoying. I'm almost positive he likes me. Why else would he be doing that? I'm just a bit afraid to say anything. I really don't want things to get weird between us.

I've sort of been thinking lately…if Ron and I ever do get together, what Harry is going to think. He's probably not going to want to be around me and Ron if we're like…that. And I suppose, if Ron and I ever do go on a date to Hogsmeade or something, what's he going to do?

I wonder if there's anyone on his mind. He seems to be over Cho. I still think he could've done better on his date with her, but she still could have waited for him to explain more before storming out of the place. I think Harry and Ginny would be really cute together. On the train last year, Ron was practically encouraging them to get together, when he found out about Ginny and Dean. I saw him cast Harry I significant look. I don't know if Harry noticed it though.

Fred or George (can't remember which) did say last year that Ginny had given up on Harry a while ago, and Ginny did tell me that she didn't really like him anymore. That doesn't necessarily mean that she's completely over him, even though she is a lot less shy. Maybe she'd tell me. We're really good friends and all. I definitely would never tell anyone.

Ginny told me about a week ago that she and Dean had decided to break up. She said that they "just weren't meant for each other." They sure weren't together for that long.

Harry doesn't usually talk to me about stuff like girls. That's usually him and Ron. Sometimes I feel like they don't trust me not to tell. I would never tell anybody something such as who he likes. True I might threaten to tell Professor McGonagall or another teacher if they're doing something they shouldn't just for the sake of it, but I wouldn't actually tell. I say those things mainly just to scare them and keep them out of trouble. Or worse, to keep them from being expelled. It's almost a miracle that they haven't been expelled, with all the trouble that they've gotten themselves into over the past five years.

Well, I better go pack. We have to get up and leave early tomorrow; I wouldn't want it to be me that holds everyone up.

September 1st

It's so nice to be at Hogwarts at last.

Our new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher is Professor McClaggan. It looks like Dumbledore didn't have too much trouble finding a new teacher this year. I'm so glad we no longer have Umbridge. I don't think we could've gotten any worse than her. She really didn't seem to know the subject at all.

Harry told Ron and me tonight that Dumbledore had arranged for him to start having Occlumency lessons again. This time they are going to be with Professor McClaggan rather than Professor Snape. I have a feeling he'll probably do better. Professor Snape really isn't the more encouraging teacher (obviously). Hopefully he'll improve this time.

Well, gotta go. First day of classes tomorrow and I don't want to be too tired.