I can not feel because I am not here

by: only me

prt 3: I come for you

I walked through the forest once more a wondering soul. As I came to a village, people running around doing their dayly chores, I hurd the pristast talking with a women. I wondered closer to them to listen.

"Please Lady Nova. Please you must heal my doughter from her sickness before the soul stealer comes for her. Please mi'lady she is but a child" the younger women was crying and hurying twords a small hut on the edge of the village.

"I will do as much as I can my child. But remimber if the soul stealer wants your doughters soul she will take it." said the older woman doing her best to keep up.

I silently followed them, a chilling breaze parting those around me. As I passed a middle aged women she looked in my direction with fear in her eyes. She backed away from the chill in the air and mumbled to her self. She turned and ran to her hut locking the door after calling in her four children. I sighed. "I do not come for you and yours this day be calm" I then walked in to the hut the young women and preastes had intered.

Lady Nova was leaning over the child examining her. As she sat up strat she looked at the women weaping next to her. "Your daughter has been poisend by a barry. She will not live. I am sorry." Lady Nova stud and turned to the women as she broke down in tears "I am truely sorry for your lost. Please say your good byes while you can. She has come."

The youmger women looked around tears in her eyes. She then crolled to the bed side. "I love you baby. I know you probly cant hear mama right now but I have to say this just incase you can hear. I am very proude of you. I will miss you a great deal my doughter." She then leaned down and kissed the little girl's cheack as more tears fell.

I started forwered and Lady Nova polled the crying women back and held her tight. "Wake little one I am here to take you away so you may run through the clouds and tast the milky way. So you can have your wings and play with the stars. Wake little one I have come for you." I wispered in to her ear.

Slowly the soul of the little girl sat up. She looked passed me at her mama and said "Mama please dont cry" I could see the tears in this small child's eyes. "How old are you child" I asked wiping the tears from her face. "I am but 8" she replyed. I smiled "I will make a deal with you. In ten years I will return for you. I will heal you and you will live but you must be a good little girl and care for your mama. She needs you a great deal." I could see the light in her eyes as I said this. She huged me and said "But why ten years" My only reply was"In ten years you papa will return from war and be able to take care of her. What you must do is never tell a soul about that and promise to come with me when I return. Do you understand child?" She noded and I laid her back down in to her body.

I watched as the little girls eyes fluter and open. "Mama?" she said weakly looking around. The women looked up and started to whale. She huged her doughter close and tight."I thought I was gana lose you baby" she cryed in to her little girl's hair. "Dont cry mama. The angel said I can stay" the little girl said huging her mother "Oh baby I know" the cryed still holding her littler girl close and tight.

I watched with a slight smill. "I grant you the wish of staying with her till the age of 18. I will returl my little one and you will come as you have promised." 'Mama I hope you are proud I could not take her away. She needs her mama as much as her mama needs her. I could not leave a mother with out her child just like you did not want to leave your child with out a mother' I though as I walked out of the hut. I gassed up at the sun. It was a beautiful day with beautiful skys. I only wish to have some one to share it with.

(with jaken and sesshomaru)

Jaken ran through the woods calling "Mi'lord! Mi'lord wher are you?" He came across a lake and saw him. "Mi'lord!" he cryed runing to the awaking inu. "Mi'lord I was so worried! You did not return last night! I have been out surching for you. I am so glade to have found you mi'lord. Are you hurt? Do I need fetch AhUn?" The toad demon rambaled on.

"Jaken" said an ice cold voice.

"Yes mi'lord?" the little toad demon looked up at his lord now siting up.

"You have been looking for me all night and morning have you not?" said the yuoki looking at the bandiges and almost heal wond. "Iy mi'lord. All night and morning. This fathfull survent would not leave his lord o.." The toad demon was cut off by his lord jurcking the staf out of his hands and bashing him over the head with it. "I told you to stay with Rin you slimy toad." said the cold voice. "For give this welp of a surven mi'lord! I was worried of your safty!" the toad cowered. He was then hit over the head again. "You think I Lord Sesshomaru needs your protection? You dishoner me toad"

With that he hit the toad in the head, droped the staf, and stood. Fixing his kimono Sesshomaru gave Jaken a good kick. "Go make your self use full and watch over Rena as you were told." He then turned and walked in to the woods.

Jaken skuried and ran after his lord. "Mi'lord the girl is with her father now it was time for her lesson. I'm sorry mi'lord please dont leave me."

A hour passed and Sesshomaru reintered to the clearing by the lake carying a dead dear on his sholder. Droping it by the fire the Joken had made, he sat down under the willow tree looking at all the dead flowers around him. 'Why are they all dead?' he thought to him self.

Sudenly out of the corner of his eye he saw an orange and black blure runing at him. "Sesshomaru-sama!" squealed a little girl as she latches onto Sesshomarus neck. "Sesshomaru-sama Rena has missed you alot mi'lord. Rena is glad you are back." The little girl let go of his neck and sat in his lap.

Sesshomaru looked at the little girl in his lap and the slitest hint of a smile played on his face for just a second then vanished as if it had never been. "I missed you too Rena." he said in an imotionless tone and patted her on the head. "Rena why are you not with your father and mother?" The little girl looked up at him. "Mama said I could come visit you she and papa had to go see Aunt Reka they said something was wrong with Ammy but they wouldnt let me go." Rena looked around them. "Lord Sesshomaru why are all the prity flowers black and crumpled?" she asked inocently looking up at him again. "They are dead Rena." Sesshomaru replied. "Why are they dead?" she asked. "I do not know" he said.

As jaken fixed the dear meat for them to eat, Sesshomaru thought of the women he saw the night before and why she had helped him. 'Who was she?' he thought to him self. They ate and Rena crowled up in Sesshomaru's lap and fell asleep. Sesshomaru had a hint of a smile again and his tail raped around the little girl to keep her worm. Then he himself fell in to a very light sleep.

(Kasitty's veiw)

I made my way back to the Shindera mansion singing a my song to my self. I sang in my same mainer I always did. Sad and depresed.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears.

And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave,

'cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal.

This pain is just too real.

There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

and I've held your hand through all of these years,

but you still have all of me.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light.

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.

Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams.

Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me.

These wounds won't seem to heal.

This pain is just too real.

There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears,

when you'd scream, i'd fight away all of your fears,

and i've held your hand through all of these years,

but you still have all of me.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.

But though you're still with me I've been alone all along.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

and i've held your hand through all of these years,

but you still have all of me.

As I intered the burnt down mansion, I wiped a single tear from my eye. I went in to the library and sat in the midle of the room wher the light of the moon shown through. I sat there and looked at a book that was burnt but still read able. I sighed as I thought of the demon I saw back in the woods. 'Why was he hurt? What hurt him? Why did I hepl him? Why didn't I take his soul like I do to all the others who are dying?' I sighed again and looked up at the moon and started to sing my song once more.