My Worst Enemy
Author; lakura
Chapter;The Beginning
Point of View; Riku
Disclaimer -I do not own Kingdom Hearts.
I am alive. But I shouldn't be. Not after I did what I did. I almost killed my best friend, I gave into the darkness, I hurt her. I do not deserve what I have left, even if it is living Hell. I should be in the real place, not stuck in between. But I can't forgive myself and move on. I can't.
I am blinded. The light in , from Kingdom Hearts was so bright, it blinded me, the darkness so dark, it cut off my sight. I can, but cannot see. I can take the blindfold off, but what good would that be? I could only see the horrific world which faces me. And I don't want to see that.
3 Years since he shut me behind the door. I knew I had to go , but I never thought I would survive. The physical, and mental wounds, I thought, would get me for sure. But they didn't. I longed to scream, longed to cry, but nobody, would hear, and nobody would care. They would kick me, hurt me, tell me to move , get up, go on. Or kill me. They almost did. They did kick me, they did hurt me, & I did move on, get up. But they didn't notice.
I think about Sora...about Kairi... But I know they don't think of me. Why? That is obvious. But I think of them..I'll never forget. I can stop in this realm, or that, and wash off the blood, I can drink the water, wipe away the tears, but I am never clean. Never pure, always tainted.
The Darkness claimed me. 5 Souls, beings, who are lost, in this world, but will ever control me. Now, and soon they will know Everything. Always. They are dark, and seek the end, of this world, then another, and another, till nothing is left. I work for them, they captured me. I tried to struggle, but they whipped me, and a soul, if I have one, can not stand whipping of that nature, no matter how strong. If I try to go against them, they will defeat me, and I will die.
I thought I could let them kill me, but they know better, they know I am of use, so they will not let me die without purpose. They send me everywhere. I obey them, 1-5.The no-names. They are everywhere, but they let themselves be seen almost never. But they see me. The people. And they are frightened. I am outlawed, not human to them. I am the monster, they are the flesh. They do not speak when I am around .
I refuse to destroy worlds, and refuse to hurt structures. I think it is wrong. But I cannot help killing. Even Women and children. But that....is life. The weak deserve to live, but what I cannot save, probably shall not survive. But I am no ones savior.
A jump off the cliff, I fall, I hurt. I eat, I drink, but cannot enjoy food. I will live htat way...Unless something can change that. Someone...
Authors Notes; Hey I will get better. I swear. This is my 2nd fic, say what ya want, but gimme some reviews. I will post again at 3. I really hope ya like it, tell me. R/R. Read my other fic, 'k? Bye!!