My Worst Enemy
Author: lakura
Chapter: Left in the Dark
POV: Riku
I do not own Kingdom Hearts.
"Hey Sora, hand me that wrench!!!"He passed it to me. Haiden sat above me, dangling her legs atop the roof of the ship."Haiden, make yourself useful!" She completely ignored me. Fine, I thought, be that way. Sora swung around the corner, and started screwing in some bolts that were attaching a piece of covering. "Thanks" He ignored me this time, to, completely focused on the task at hand. I sighed. I jumped down, and picked up a water bottle which had been carelessly thrown to the ground, from a 20 foot height. Sora had already told me his story with a little more details, but I really had nothing to tell him. And that disturbed me. Had I really done so little? I didn't know.
I went to the bed, and sat down. Haiden jumped off, and headed down a narrow passageway. I wasn't going to follow her. I just wanted to rest….Maybe fall into a deep, deep sleep…..And never wake up……Ah, would that be nice. All of a sudden , something slapped me on the back. I turned around to see bright blue eyes staring into mine. "Sora….." "Even wondering about your own death is going to get you no where. Trust me, I know. " I looked at him, and smiled for the first time in a while. "Man, Sora, thanks." He smiled slightly, maybe more of a smirk, but it was something. "I used to remember when you were the one smirking, and I was the one to truly smile. It seems out position has been reversed." I looked up at him. He held out a hand to help me up. I took it, and he pulled me up. "Riku, I have to ask you something." I looked at him, puzzled. "Ya?" "I was wondering, if you still cared about me, like you used to, not in a gay aspect. Just as friends, or if you lost that over the years." I blinked. "Yea, I do. Your one of my deepest friends. What would ever make you feel different?" I noticed a shadow in the corner just now, but didn't investigate, and only turned back to Sora.
"Well, its just, ya know, your not too good at expressing any other emotion other than rage and sadness. I couldn't, and never could read your emotions. I was just wondering. And that Haiden girl, I thought maybe you cared for her. " I shook my head " I do not care for Haiden, I do not love her. And you will always be in my heart, as a good good friend." He smiled at me, and then turned away to go and work on the ship some more. I jumped down the steps to help him.
A few days after that , the ship was fixed. Haiden was rarely seen, and when I did see her, she was always in a dark place, and sometimes, she came back with long black streaks down her face. Mascara streaks I think they were called. From crying maybe.I always told her to wipe it off, and get to work, and she always went away. She wouldn't talk to me anymore, and when she did, it was seldom more than a few words, like' pass me that', or 'shut up you bastard'. I guess, I just would stop caring period. She didn't seem to care anymore. Maybe that one moment was just a sexual need of hers? Maybe not, but that feeling wasn't present anymore. I didn't really mind that much.
The damned whale spit us out eventually. Thank the gods. It was cramped it that hell hole!!
I had to check to see if Haiden was even still present. She shooed me away. She didn't want me around. She acted like she did nothing, But I knew that she was up to something or another. She wasn't just sitting there.
I got back on course again. I sat in the navigator chair, when Sora came to me.
"You know I am going to die this afternoon right?"
"No, I didn't know it would be this soon. Your leaving me, now that I have found you?"
"Yes"
sigh
I wish you didn't have to leave me Sora….
Not with her.
It just all hit me. She is made of me. She is made of MY blood. My genes flow through her. She is acting Just like me. Exactly what she is doing, I did. I was so open, so confident, so cocky. I wanted so badly to be free. I wanted to explore, I didn't want to listen. Then I found the darkness, and it all became clear. I rejected all those who really cared about me. I wasn't concerned on finding Kairi. I wanted power. And I used her as an excuse to get it. And that was my demise. The Darkness over came me. And when I think back on it, nothing could have stopped me. Nothing.
I need you here to pull her out of the darkness, to save her. Like you did me. I am no savior. I will never be. At least I hope I wont ever be. Too much responsibility. Too much of that tingly feeling inside that no one can erase, that everybody wants to remind you of, and wants you to add to. No way did I want that.
But no, You are going to commit suicide on these very rocks.
I Hate you Sora. You're leaving me.
To deal with myself.
AN: Yea, it took me a REALLY REALLY long time.New twist though! Like it eh? Tell me! I dunno, I like it, and I took a different twist in writing this. Tell me if you want me to continue like this or if you like the old style better. LMK.R/R
lakura