~it was just brought to my attention that Kenshin wasn't an imperialist.so
I'm confused because in the sixth episode I think they call him an
imperialist...maybe I'm just confused, but if someone could please tell me
what the heck he is?..........~
It was another evening at the Kamiya dojo. Everything seemed to be normal, but it wasn't. To any normal person's eyes they all were happy and life couldn't be better. That's what it seemed to be on the outside, but it was all just a mask. They were all wearing masks. Masks to cover up the pain. They didn't want anyone to know they were hurting. Maybe it was because they were worried that the other person would be sad or unhappy or maybe it was just because. They couldn't tell because they were all covering it up with their masks. No one could read their emotions.
Kenshin smiled at the dinner table, but Kaoru could tell he was hiding something from them. He smiled as he washed the laundry, he laughed as he made supper, but all the time there was that hint of pain, that flash of falseness. Kaoru knew that he wasn't happy, but he was trying to be for her sake. If she could only find out what was bothering him so much. If she only knew the pain behind the mask.
What Kenshin was hiding from everyone was his uncertainty of his love. He knew he loved Kaoru with everything he was, but he was scared. He was scared that she would be hurt again. So many times had she been a target because of what he was. Every time he saw her in danger and every time that she was hurt, it made him felt broken. He felt like his heart was broken into pieces and there was no way that he could ever fit them back together. What hurt him even worse was the thought that she didn't love him back, that she didn't feel the same way.
The other thing that hurt him was his past. No matter how hard he tried to forget it. No matter how many times it seemed like he had forgotten it. It always came back to haunt him. Everyday he looked at Kaoru's face and he hoped that this would be another uneventful day. Every night he said goodnight to her and prayed that she would never be hurt again.
Masks, they never do much of any good. They always seem to hide us from the people we love. Kaoru knew that she should ask Kenshin what was bothering him. She knew that she tell how much she loved him, but something held her back. She didn't know what it was that held her, but she felt as she couldn't budge. Every time she opened her mouth it seemed that the words would just not come out. Every time she saw that fake smile, she felt like she was washed away in the tide of pain. How could he hide it so well? If she had not known him so long she probably wouldn't be able to tell.
Kenshin knew everything about Kaoru and he knew that she was worried about him. He smiled and laughed whenever he could, but he could tell it didn't help. He didn't know what else to do. He watched her every day. He knew her morning routine. He knew the way she walked, the way she spoke, her smell, even the way her eyes looked when she gazed up at the stars. Maybe one day in the future he would be able to tell her how much he felt for her, but for some reason it did not feel like the right time.
One evening Kenshin was cleaning up the dishes. It had been a quiet night, not much had been said. They were having many of those nights. He heard Kaoru's footsteps behind him. He turned around and smiled. "Hello Miss Kaoru." He said lightly.
Kaoru almost cringed. It was one of those fake smiles again. He must have been thinking again.
"There is something I need to talk to you about Kenshin." Kaoru said seriously. Kenshin noted her tone carefully and set down the plate he had been washing. They both sat down around the table.
"Kenshin...I don't how to ask this really, but...I noticed something was bothering you...You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to...I'd understand." Kaoru said.
Kenshin paused for a second. "Miss Kaoru, I..."
"Yes?" Kaoru prompted gently.
"I value your opinion above everything else, but there is some things about me that you would probably not wish to know." He said quietly. She could feel the pain in voice.
"Let me decide that. Tell me..please trust me." Kaoru pleaded.
Kenshin stared into her serious face. He watched her silently as tears began to slip down her face. Slowly, but surely his mask began to crack.
It was another evening at the Kamiya dojo. Everything seemed to be normal, but it wasn't. To any normal person's eyes they all were happy and life couldn't be better. That's what it seemed to be on the outside, but it was all just a mask. They were all wearing masks. Masks to cover up the pain. They didn't want anyone to know they were hurting. Maybe it was because they were worried that the other person would be sad or unhappy or maybe it was just because. They couldn't tell because they were all covering it up with their masks. No one could read their emotions.
Kenshin smiled at the dinner table, but Kaoru could tell he was hiding something from them. He smiled as he washed the laundry, he laughed as he made supper, but all the time there was that hint of pain, that flash of falseness. Kaoru knew that he wasn't happy, but he was trying to be for her sake. If she could only find out what was bothering him so much. If she only knew the pain behind the mask.
What Kenshin was hiding from everyone was his uncertainty of his love. He knew he loved Kaoru with everything he was, but he was scared. He was scared that she would be hurt again. So many times had she been a target because of what he was. Every time he saw her in danger and every time that she was hurt, it made him felt broken. He felt like his heart was broken into pieces and there was no way that he could ever fit them back together. What hurt him even worse was the thought that she didn't love him back, that she didn't feel the same way.
The other thing that hurt him was his past. No matter how hard he tried to forget it. No matter how many times it seemed like he had forgotten it. It always came back to haunt him. Everyday he looked at Kaoru's face and he hoped that this would be another uneventful day. Every night he said goodnight to her and prayed that she would never be hurt again.
Masks, they never do much of any good. They always seem to hide us from the people we love. Kaoru knew that she should ask Kenshin what was bothering him. She knew that she tell how much she loved him, but something held her back. She didn't know what it was that held her, but she felt as she couldn't budge. Every time she opened her mouth it seemed that the words would just not come out. Every time she saw that fake smile, she felt like she was washed away in the tide of pain. How could he hide it so well? If she had not known him so long she probably wouldn't be able to tell.
Kenshin knew everything about Kaoru and he knew that she was worried about him. He smiled and laughed whenever he could, but he could tell it didn't help. He didn't know what else to do. He watched her every day. He knew her morning routine. He knew the way she walked, the way she spoke, her smell, even the way her eyes looked when she gazed up at the stars. Maybe one day in the future he would be able to tell her how much he felt for her, but for some reason it did not feel like the right time.
One evening Kenshin was cleaning up the dishes. It had been a quiet night, not much had been said. They were having many of those nights. He heard Kaoru's footsteps behind him. He turned around and smiled. "Hello Miss Kaoru." He said lightly.
Kaoru almost cringed. It was one of those fake smiles again. He must have been thinking again.
"There is something I need to talk to you about Kenshin." Kaoru said seriously. Kenshin noted her tone carefully and set down the plate he had been washing. They both sat down around the table.
"Kenshin...I don't how to ask this really, but...I noticed something was bothering you...You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to...I'd understand." Kaoru said.
Kenshin paused for a second. "Miss Kaoru, I..."
"Yes?" Kaoru prompted gently.
"I value your opinion above everything else, but there is some things about me that you would probably not wish to know." He said quietly. She could feel the pain in voice.
"Let me decide that. Tell me..please trust me." Kaoru pleaded.
Kenshin stared into her serious face. He watched her silently as tears began to slip down her face. Slowly, but surely his mask began to crack.