He-ey. Yeah, the HP boards have REALLY pissed me off. I spent about two years writing my first fic, and. . . Now it's all gone. And I didn't even get to finish it.
It's sad 'cause I've got the last posts saved on my computer, but nowhere to post them. . . I might post them on here, actually. It's basically Lily and James's last moments.
Anywho.
In a slightly better mood now. Thanks you lot.
And cheers for the reviews! Here's the next chapter.
James' POV
Sirius doesn't get it!
He broke up with her four days ago. . . and he can't believe I've let four days go by without asking her out.
Besides. . . I don't know if I actually like-
Oh, yes I do. What's the point in lying to myself? It's just a little thing called 'denial'.
And anyway. She apparently hates us Marauders.
But as well as Lily hating us, Sirius hates me. Yeah he does. He didn't want to end it with her. He just did.
For me.
Ugh. I hate myself.
"So. . . um. . . what have we got planned for the next full moon?" I asked, trying to make conversation. And also trying to ignore the three girls who were sitting on the other side of the Common Room.
Man, that's ironic. Do we have a thing for being the only two groups up and in the Common Room, in the early hours of the morning?
"No," Sirius said bluntly, not really looking interested.
Lily's POV
"So. . . Lils?" Helen murmured, in the middle of a gobstones game with Tess.
"Hmm-hmm?" I replied, not looking up from my homework.
I really shouldn't leave it to the last minute.
"You know you're a prefect?"
"Well, it sorta helps that I know I am one, since I've got the badge and everything."
"Oh, ha-ha. No, I was thinking. . . Maybe you'll be made Head Girl," Helen said casually, her eyes still not leaving her game.
"Me?" I snorted, raising my eyebrows.
Yeah right.
"As if! With my grades?"
"You know you've got good grades," Tess said, rolling her eyes. "Don't even pretend that you haven't."
"But-"
"So you're crap at Transfiguration. So what? Ask for help! Get a tutor or something. If it helps you become Head Girl, go for it," Helen shrugged.
"A tutor?"
"Yeah. . . a teacher or someone older. Ask McGonagall about it," Tess suggested. "It'll save us from nights like these!"
Hmm. It makes sense. But over my dead body will it be Sirius Black.
"Yeah, I'll see what she says. . . I don't want to fail my exams, after all," I agreed, then got back to my homework.
Sirius' POVWhat is James's problem?!
He wanted me to break up with her; I break up with her!
But what does he do once I have broken up with her?
Nothing.
That's it. I have to talk to her. Even though she won't talk to me. . .
I hate having her mad at me. Why did I make her hate me so much?
Ugh. I'll make her talk to me somehow. . . And I'll set her up with James.
Lily's POV
I sighed and closed my eyes, leaning back on my chair in the library.
You know what I've discovered? Transfiguration gives you a headache.
"C'mon Lily. . ." My tutor sighed.
McGonagall had thought it was a wonderful idea for me to get a tutor, but none of the teacher's were available.
So I got this guy in 7th year. He was good, but his best subject was Defense Against the Dark Arts and I don't think he liked Transfiguration. At all.
The only problem was. . . he just happened to be Severus Snape. The Marauders enemy.
"I'm really trying. . . it's just hard," I muttered, opening my eyes and focusing on the book I was supposed to be transfiguring again.
"I know you are. And you're doing well, you just need to concentrate. . ."
Yeah right. He gets really impatient with me. And him saying I'm good doesn't make me good, so I don't know why he's lying.
"Okay, okay," I said, raising my wand and trying again.
Still, nothing worked.
"I don't get it. . ." he murmured, looking at the book as if it could explain. "You're doing everything perfectly!" He glanced at his watch quickly. "Look Lily, I'm really sorry but I have to go. You keep trying and I'll see you tomorrow. Maybe you'll be able to do it then. . . maybe it's the book that's the problem! I dunno. I've really gotta go. Bye!" he said hurriedly, tossing his books into his bag and walking out of library, leaving me sitting, there staring glumly at the stupid book.
"See you Severus. . ." I murmured, even though he was long gone.
Okay. I can do this. Yes I can, yes I can, yes I can. I just need to practice.
Sirius' POV
I was walking down the corridor, having just returned from Quidditch practice. James was still in the showers and I couldn't be bothered waiting for him, which left me to walk back to the Common Room on my own.
When who should I come across?
My best bud, Snape. Coming from the direction of the library.
He glared at me as he walked past. Now a few years ago, I would have said something.
But last year I was a right idiot and very nearly killed him, so I sort of avoid him now.
I still hate him, but I didn't mean to kill him, after all. It just sort of happened. I was in a real mood with him and. . . yeah. I was stupid.
At least he lived! I felt sorrier for Remus, actually. Transforming back and realizing he'd nearly killed someone. Then I felt bad.
But anyway. Can you believe that prat actually helps Lily study?
Oooh. Idea. What's Snape doing in a library? Helping someone study? Someone who might be still in there?
May as well try. I've still got to get her to talk to me. And if she's not there. . . well I'll probably be thrown out within minutes anyway, because the Librarian doesn't like me, so it doesn't really matter.
I made my way into the library, and spotted Lily right away.
Slouched in a chair and glaring at something in front of her, she had her wand raised and was muttering something.
It was sort of strange seeing her without a flock of friends, but I suppose she was trying to concentrate.
"Hi," I said casually, slipping into a seat opposite her.
Immediately she looked up from glaring at the book and set that glare on me. Then she stood up swiftly, grabbing her bag that was hanging on her chair.
"Lily-" I jumped up and pushed her back into her chair. "Just listen. You can't avoid me forever, so listen."
"Oh, I can avoid you forever," she replied curtly. "You're leaving in a few months, which will have you out of my life for good."
I sighed, looking at her pleadingly.
How am I supposed to explain that this isn't my fault?
You know, I'm a prat.
I could have done anything else, and it would have been easier.
I could have told her I liked her too much as a friend to spoil it with a relationship. . . Told her I was leaving in a couple of months, so I didn't want it to become too serious. . . Told her I was gay. . . Thrown myself at the Whomping Willow and then let my body be tossed to the giant squid. . .
I could've done any of those things. But nooo. I had to do the stupid one and make myself out to be a heartless player.
"Fine," Lily sighed, folding her arms. "Go ahead. Explain. But if I either walk out of here half way through, or slap you, then it's your own fault. You're the one who wants to 'explain' so badly. Though I don't see why. Aren't you 'bored' of me enough already, to still talk to me?"
Oh yeah. I said I was bored.
"Well. . ." I hesitated, thinking how to put it.
Somehow, 'My best friend's in love with you' didn't seem much of an excuse. "It's. . . it's. . ."
"Complicated," Lily said, mockingly. She rolled her eyes and stood up. "Whatever Black."
She snatched up her bag and stormed out of the library.
Well. That went well.
I groaned and put my head in my hands briefly, then jumped up, realizing I had to make her talk to me.
"Lily!" I shouted, as she strode down the corridors.
God that girl can walk fast.
Fortunately for me, so can I. But the corridors were pretty crowded with people, so I had to push my way through.
"Lily!" I repeated, as I caught up with her. I stepped in front of her so she couldn't keep walking.
"Go away!" she cried. "I've listened. It's complicated. I get it. I hate you, but I get it. Okay?"
"Lil-"
"Go. A. Way!" she snapped, stepping around me.
"Please!" I cried, doing the only thing I could do.
Throwing myself onto my knees at her feet and clinging to her robes.
Yes, I was aware of all the people in the corridors staring at us. But at least she couldn't walk away now.