I sat in my room, pacing, thinking, and wondering. I couldn't help, but give in to my feelings for him. I thought we were so close. So alike... I want you badly, but you belong to someone else. One I can never hate, one I can never hurt, the one closest to me, you. What does he see in you? Yes, you are sweet, and yes smart, and also pretty...courageous too. Oh, you are a better choice than me. I'm timid, not very smart at everything, and compared to you...nothing...I envy you. You are a famous hero, while I just stood in the back and watched you. You never let anything scare you. You were bold and thought of those around you, not selfish or conceited. I wish I were you...but I like who I am. If only I was like you. If only-
Knock, knock
Oh! Not again! I'm thinking! Can't they just leave me alone.
"R-Rikku? C-can I come in?"
It was him...the man I can...ne...never have. What does he want? I didn't do or say anything to anyone. Am I really that suspicious? Can everyone see right through me? Am I that obvious?
"Rikku? (Knocks again) Rikku, I really need to talk to you. Will you let me in?" His voice so sweet, so innocent, so caring.
I went to my door, and hesitantly slid it open. To my surprise, no one was there. Did I imagine his voice? No it had to be real, right? I look to the left of the corridor of the Celcius no one was there, I looked to the right, and there he was. Staring into my eyes. I started to speak but...he put his finger one my lips. I stared straight into his eyes, I never felt happier. For some reason he put his arms around me. And, started to kiss me. We fell onto the bed, and as he took of my yellow bikini top......I woke up. I had just been dreaming it. I knew it was too good to be true. He would never do that. I rose from my bed, and started to cry into my hands, but not making a sound, not even a whimper.
Knock, knock, knock
W-what the? Who could that be? It's too early, isn't? I looked at the clock; it was already five in the afternoon. I don't remember taking a nap, or sleeping late, and I would never sleep in this late. I guess my dreams of him got the best of me, wait, there is no 'best' of me. I'm just an ordinary Al Bhed girl, who moans over the man she lost and can never have.
"R-Rikku? C-can I come in?"
It was just like my dream. Am I still dreaming?
"Rikku? (Knocks again) Rikku, I really need to talk to you. Will you let me in?"
I had to be dreaming, because he said the same words as he did in my dream. I'm dreaming, right? So I decided to pinch myself. I-I wasn't dreaming. It was real. Or am I dreaming so hard, everything feels real. Yes, I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming. Have I gone insane? Maybe I'll just ignore it. Yes, than it'll all go away. Sleep. I'll just go to sleep.
"Rikku, please let me in. (Waits a few seconds) O-okay, I guess you're still asleep. I-I'll just go now."
I heard his footsteps walking away. Echoing through the hallways. Fading. Was he really there? Oh, I'm so stupid. He was there and he needed...me. He needed me and I ignored him. I'm so pathetic. He was just on the other side of my door, my bedroom door. He wanted to see me. Talk to me. Be with me. As...friends. And that's all we'll ever be, just friends. Always and forever. Nothing more. Just a couple of friends. Yuna, she's so lucky. She has a guy, lives happy with him, and I can never have that or want to take that away.
"Tidus, I'm really worried about her." Came Yuna's sweet voice as she came out into the hallway.
Tidus was also standing there and depressed. "I just can't seem to get to her." He muttered.
"What? Did you say something?" Yuna asked.
"What? N-no, I didn't say anything." He put on a fake smile, "I didn't go see her either. I'll just be going okay." Tidus passed Yuna and went to the bridge.
"He's acting very weird too. What's he hiding?" Yuna smiled mischievously and walked after him.
"Rikku, what's gotten into you? I thought if I had come back, you'd be happy, like you always were. What happened? Did I do something wrong? Not seeing you is making me feel, feel, lonely. Why am I feeling this way?" Tidus was doing some thinking, too. But confided in his own room, "I feel like I, need her. I need her, badly. Like, I can't live without her."
I got out of my bed, uncertain of what to do next; I quickly took a shower and went out of my room. It was probably six or seven, maybe in between that. I took a deep breath and started walking. I slipped on the floor.
"I guess someone just mopped floor. It's so shiny. By the wetness on the floor, and the wetness on my sock, I'm guessing these were washed recently. I wonder who did this? It's so clean."
I got up and started to pout. For my brand new denim skirt had a big wet stain on it.
"Oh, this is horrible, people are gonna think I wet my pants. I mean skirt that is."
I turned around to change my skirt when he surprised me.
"Tidus? What are you doing here? And where's everyone else?" I asked.
"They all went out a while ago. I said I'd stay back in case you woke up. Speaking of which, you've been asleep all day. I was starting to get worried. (Stares at her butt) What happened to you're a, your butt there?" Tidus gets a closer look.
"Stop staring! I just slipped on the floor, okay."
"Okay, okay. You seem better. So you wanna meet the others now?"
"Um-actually, uh-yeah. Lets go meet the others."
He nodded his head and lent his hand to me. Of course I grabbed it and held on to it tightly. We walked and talked, but I didn't tell him my secret, and I don't know if I will. As we walked he stared at me with a happy smile. And I did the same, getting lost in his beautiful eyes. They were the color of the ocean, whenever I stared into them, I'd think of the calm ocean waves crashing peacefully on the shore. His eyes were so captivating...
"W-what?! Why are you staring at me like that? Is there something on my face, Rikku?"
"Oh, nothing, nothing but a dream. (Sighs)"
"You're weird Rikku! (Laughs)"
"Oh, shut up!"