Destinies Broken Heart [11/?]
-A Choice is Made-
Disclaimer: In other parts.
Note: I took a jump in time because I'm not gonna write out every little thing...I will handle in
flash backs to show that Buffy did get to know him but I had to move the fic along.
Note2: Sorry it took me so long to get this part out. Every time I sat to write it I would develop
a block and couldn't progress any further. But this time I sat down and was able to pop out the
entire chapter so it's all good! Remember feedback is a must!!
For any of you who want the previous parts to catch up or to read. you can get it at two places
my page : http://home.dencity.com/passionsfever/
or at FF.net at this address http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=291921&chapter=1
***
If we had this night together
If we had a moment to ourselves
If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable
Do you think this is right? or is it really wrong?
I know this is what we've been wanting.
And all this burning in my soul, it fills up to my throat
It fills up till my heart is breaking.
--The Calling "Unstoppable"
***
Buffy sat in the dark her arm wrapped around her legs. For weeks she has been having these dreams
with not a discerning smidgeon of it even telling her what any of it meant. At least now they allowed her
to be on a soft bed. Normally she was in a dark room with absolutely nothing. The thing that bothered
her the most was the guy that always appeared to her in her dreams. She knew she knew him. The
voice, being all that she heard as any sign of him even being there was enough. It was just placing it.
For the past week it had always been him that appeared to her. But today he wasn't coming. Today
he just wasn't appearing. Normally she wasn't waiting this long. Or at least it felt like a long time.
Though the dreams scared her she still looked forward to hearing his voice. The familiar air that
surrounded the guys presence.
"Sorry I'm late..." Buffy's head snapped up to look into the darkness out of habit, knowing full well she
wouldn't see him. But she did this time, she saw his coat. This wa the first time she had even seen a
physical form appearing to her. "Turn around..."
Her brows furrowing in confusion as she complied looking away from him. Feeling the presence
of him on her bed her breath caught as his arm came around her, as he rested the side of his face on her
back.
"Why won't you let me see you?"
"You're not ready yet." She felt him kiss the back of her neck as as his arms tightened around him.
"But I know you, if I could only see you."
"No Buffy, if you see me it will be to confusing."
"You are underestimating me."
"Maybe I am, but there is something I have to talk to you about before you can see me." Buffy
turned her head a little hoping to sneak a glance at him but all she saw was his leather clad shoulder.
"Is that why you were late?" Running her hands along his arm her fingers found every crease of his
leather jacket.
"Yeah I had to find a way to explain this to you...it's not to easy you know." Buffy smiled hearing
the slight laughter in his voice.
"Just tell me out right, that is probably the best way to go about it."
"I'm not to sure about that, sometimes it requires much more then that."
"Try me..."
One of the mans hands came up and brushed her cheek as she couldn't stop herself from
leaning slightly into his hand. "Okay but you have to promise you won't freak out when I start
telling you things."
"I promise..."
"First thing Buffy, tell me who I am...I want to know if you know...."
Buffy's eyes grew wide as they darted around as if looking for the answer, but yet she already seemed
to know it she just couldn't bring herself to admit it. "I don't know..."
"Of course you know Buffy, the answer is right there...just say it..."
"No..." Buffy turned her head frantically before turning around completely. Her hazel eyes met
chocolate brown as he hand quickly slid down his cheek as if seeking confirmation. "Angel..?"
"Yes Buffy, it's me..." He ran his finger down her hair line putting a few stray tresses behind her ears.
"I knew it was you..." Buffy's arms started to slip around his neck but he stopped her holding her hands
in his.
"We still have to talk Buffy...We only have a day left"
"What are you talking about...we have our whole lives Angel. This past week with you has been nothing
short of amazing. I..." Angel quieted her by placing a finger over her soft lips.
"I know how much you enjoyed it but there is only one way for us to continue our life together. You have
to come back."
"Come back where?"
Angel looked down as if looking for the right thing to say. "I don't exactly know how to say this to
you and I'm sure I'll probably say it wrong, but you and me more or less, weren't meant to be together in
this world."
Glancing up he wasn't to surprised to see the confused look on Buffy's face. "You and me were together
in a different one...a world where we aren't who we are now...You see in the other world I was a..."
"A vampire? Come on Angel do you really think because you were a vampire i would love you and..."
"You know?" Angel's eyes were filled with shock as he searched hers.
"Not exactly but when you were about to tell me it just seemed to make sense."
"I don't understand..."
"See Angel, I know you...but when you were about to tell me what you were I suddenly knew. It was
like a light got turned on inside my head you know?"
"Do you know what you were?"
"No I don't...but it can't be all that bad, I mean you're good...so why should it matter? I mean all the
movies I've seen with vampires I thought they were evil. Well except for that one that Anne Rice
wrote about."
Angel felt himself rolling his eyes at the name of the author but smiled at her uncaring babble. "It
goes deeper then that Buffy. But we have a day a day before I'm taken away from this world and
brought back to mine."
"You mean you are leaving? Why did you even bother to tell me...I mean..."
"Buffy please let me explain..." Angel's thumb ran loosely over the top of her hand as he interrupted
her. "I want you to come with me..."
"Really? You want me to go? I mean it may take me more then a day to pack and get Mia ready..."
"That's the thing Buffy, you don't need any of that...and I am sorry to have to say Mia can't come..."
"What are you talking about? I just can't leave my daughter here by herself!" Buffy stood from the bed
her arms extended in fury. "You want me to leave my entire life here? To go to a world I don't even remember?
How can you ask me such a thing?!"
"Buffy..."
"Don't you Buffy me! Mia is my daughter I can't exactly just leave her here. I will never choose a guy over
my own flesh and blood."
"So you have chosen then..." Angel looked down and started to turn and walk into the darkness. "I won't
come to your dreams anymore." Waving his hand to the side as he turned his back to her. "I'm not sure
if you'll remember me when I'm gone but I just wanted to let you know I loved you..."
Buffy's words caught in her throat as she reached for him and tried to yell to him to stop but her words
refused to come out as she fell forward.
***
Buffy sat up in a cold sweat as the light flooded into her room. Running her fingers through her long
blond hair Buffy could feel the tears running down her face. Finally she knew who the mysterious
guy was but now he was leaving her. Why didn't she want to go with him? Why did she suddenly
wish that Mia wasn't a factor? God how she wanted to go with him. Turning over in her bed she
drove her face into her pillow chanting that she wanted to go as she gripped the sides of her pillow
to her face.
***
Angel stood in the darkness wondering why the dream didn't end. He never thought that Buffy
wouldn't choose him. After all that they had been through the past he thought they would have
worked through this. But he kept forgetting. This Buffy never went through that. "God I was
so stupid."
"Oh I wouldn't say that Angel-cakes." Lorne leaned in a booth like table his arm draped across the
seat.
"How many times I have I told you not to name me after food?"
"Can't stop, force of habit."
"She chose Lorne..."
"So she did." A smile played on Lorne's face as he tapped on Angel's shoulder. "I wouldn't worry
to much about it. It may turn out better then you think."
"How can you say that Lorne? You know the stipulations as well as I do...If she chose to stay here
I would go back to the world where I belong and I won't even remember her. How can I go on
not knowing that I loved her? I would simply have no purpose."
"Oh you will have a purpose. And I'm sure it will be more clear to you when you get back home then
it is right now. But believe me you will know."
"You're starting to sound like Whistler, dancing around what's gonna happen."
"Hey what can I say, I like his style. Now you have to see her when you wake up?"
"Now why would I do that? She doesn't want to be with me Lorne..."
"Would you quit with the pity me act already?! Just do it just make sure you are at least
kissing her by midnight."
"Whatever Lorne, that's even if she even lets me into her place."
"You know what you are really beginning to get on my nerves. I have notice from the powers that they
want you there. So would you just do it instead of going on and on about this crap?" Lorne stood
and walked toward the darkness. "I'll see you when you get back. I want to hear everything."
Stepping into the shadows Lorne disappeared as Angel draped his arms across the table laying his
head down on it lightly.
Hearing a noise Angel sat up the room filling with light.
***
The phone was ringing loudly on his bedside table as he glanced at the clock. "Would you hurry up and
answer that already Angel! I'm trying to sleep in there."
"Sorry Ashen..." Angel reached over and pulled the receiver from the cradle holding it to his head
"This better be important!"
//"Angel..?\\
"Buffy?" Angels at up in bed the covers swirling around his waist. "Is everything alright?"
//"Can you come over? I'd like to talk to you..."\\
"Sure not a problem just let me take a shower and get ready and I'll be right over."
//"Thanks, see you in a bit."\\ Hearing Buffy hang up on the other end Angel dropped his receiver
back into the cradle as he turned and sat at the edge of his bed.
***
Well that's it for chapter 11...if you want chapter 12 F/B is a must.
-A Choice is Made-
Disclaimer: In other parts.
Note: I took a jump in time because I'm not gonna write out every little thing...I will handle in
flash backs to show that Buffy did get to know him but I had to move the fic along.
Note2: Sorry it took me so long to get this part out. Every time I sat to write it I would develop
a block and couldn't progress any further. But this time I sat down and was able to pop out the
entire chapter so it's all good! Remember feedback is a must!!
For any of you who want the previous parts to catch up or to read. you can get it at two places
my page : http://home.dencity.com/passionsfever/
or at FF.net at this address http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=291921&chapter=1
***
If we had this night together
If we had a moment to ourselves
If we had this night together, then we'd be unstoppable
Do you think this is right? or is it really wrong?
I know this is what we've been wanting.
And all this burning in my soul, it fills up to my throat
It fills up till my heart is breaking.
--The Calling "Unstoppable"
***
Buffy sat in the dark her arm wrapped around her legs. For weeks she has been having these dreams
with not a discerning smidgeon of it even telling her what any of it meant. At least now they allowed her
to be on a soft bed. Normally she was in a dark room with absolutely nothing. The thing that bothered
her the most was the guy that always appeared to her in her dreams. She knew she knew him. The
voice, being all that she heard as any sign of him even being there was enough. It was just placing it.
For the past week it had always been him that appeared to her. But today he wasn't coming. Today
he just wasn't appearing. Normally she wasn't waiting this long. Or at least it felt like a long time.
Though the dreams scared her she still looked forward to hearing his voice. The familiar air that
surrounded the guys presence.
"Sorry I'm late..." Buffy's head snapped up to look into the darkness out of habit, knowing full well she
wouldn't see him. But she did this time, she saw his coat. This wa the first time she had even seen a
physical form appearing to her. "Turn around..."
Her brows furrowing in confusion as she complied looking away from him. Feeling the presence
of him on her bed her breath caught as his arm came around her, as he rested the side of his face on her
back.
"Why won't you let me see you?"
"You're not ready yet." She felt him kiss the back of her neck as as his arms tightened around him.
"But I know you, if I could only see you."
"No Buffy, if you see me it will be to confusing."
"You are underestimating me."
"Maybe I am, but there is something I have to talk to you about before you can see me." Buffy
turned her head a little hoping to sneak a glance at him but all she saw was his leather clad shoulder.
"Is that why you were late?" Running her hands along his arm her fingers found every crease of his
leather jacket.
"Yeah I had to find a way to explain this to you...it's not to easy you know." Buffy smiled hearing
the slight laughter in his voice.
"Just tell me out right, that is probably the best way to go about it."
"I'm not to sure about that, sometimes it requires much more then that."
"Try me..."
One of the mans hands came up and brushed her cheek as she couldn't stop herself from
leaning slightly into his hand. "Okay but you have to promise you won't freak out when I start
telling you things."
"I promise..."
"First thing Buffy, tell me who I am...I want to know if you know...."
Buffy's eyes grew wide as they darted around as if looking for the answer, but yet she already seemed
to know it she just couldn't bring herself to admit it. "I don't know..."
"Of course you know Buffy, the answer is right there...just say it..."
"No..." Buffy turned her head frantically before turning around completely. Her hazel eyes met
chocolate brown as he hand quickly slid down his cheek as if seeking confirmation. "Angel..?"
"Yes Buffy, it's me..." He ran his finger down her hair line putting a few stray tresses behind her ears.
"I knew it was you..." Buffy's arms started to slip around his neck but he stopped her holding her hands
in his.
"We still have to talk Buffy...We only have a day left"
"What are you talking about...we have our whole lives Angel. This past week with you has been nothing
short of amazing. I..." Angel quieted her by placing a finger over her soft lips.
"I know how much you enjoyed it but there is only one way for us to continue our life together. You have
to come back."
"Come back where?"
Angel looked down as if looking for the right thing to say. "I don't exactly know how to say this to
you and I'm sure I'll probably say it wrong, but you and me more or less, weren't meant to be together in
this world."
Glancing up he wasn't to surprised to see the confused look on Buffy's face. "You and me were together
in a different one...a world where we aren't who we are now...You see in the other world I was a..."
"A vampire? Come on Angel do you really think because you were a vampire i would love you and..."
"You know?" Angel's eyes were filled with shock as he searched hers.
"Not exactly but when you were about to tell me it just seemed to make sense."
"I don't understand..."
"See Angel, I know you...but when you were about to tell me what you were I suddenly knew. It was
like a light got turned on inside my head you know?"
"Do you know what you were?"
"No I don't...but it can't be all that bad, I mean you're good...so why should it matter? I mean all the
movies I've seen with vampires I thought they were evil. Well except for that one that Anne Rice
wrote about."
Angel felt himself rolling his eyes at the name of the author but smiled at her uncaring babble. "It
goes deeper then that Buffy. But we have a day a day before I'm taken away from this world and
brought back to mine."
"You mean you are leaving? Why did you even bother to tell me...I mean..."
"Buffy please let me explain..." Angel's thumb ran loosely over the top of her hand as he interrupted
her. "I want you to come with me..."
"Really? You want me to go? I mean it may take me more then a day to pack and get Mia ready..."
"That's the thing Buffy, you don't need any of that...and I am sorry to have to say Mia can't come..."
"What are you talking about? I just can't leave my daughter here by herself!" Buffy stood from the bed
her arms extended in fury. "You want me to leave my entire life here? To go to a world I don't even remember?
How can you ask me such a thing?!"
"Buffy..."
"Don't you Buffy me! Mia is my daughter I can't exactly just leave her here. I will never choose a guy over
my own flesh and blood."
"So you have chosen then..." Angel looked down and started to turn and walk into the darkness. "I won't
come to your dreams anymore." Waving his hand to the side as he turned his back to her. "I'm not sure
if you'll remember me when I'm gone but I just wanted to let you know I loved you..."
Buffy's words caught in her throat as she reached for him and tried to yell to him to stop but her words
refused to come out as she fell forward.
***
Buffy sat up in a cold sweat as the light flooded into her room. Running her fingers through her long
blond hair Buffy could feel the tears running down her face. Finally she knew who the mysterious
guy was but now he was leaving her. Why didn't she want to go with him? Why did she suddenly
wish that Mia wasn't a factor? God how she wanted to go with him. Turning over in her bed she
drove her face into her pillow chanting that she wanted to go as she gripped the sides of her pillow
to her face.
***
Angel stood in the darkness wondering why the dream didn't end. He never thought that Buffy
wouldn't choose him. After all that they had been through the past he thought they would have
worked through this. But he kept forgetting. This Buffy never went through that. "God I was
so stupid."
"Oh I wouldn't say that Angel-cakes." Lorne leaned in a booth like table his arm draped across the
seat.
"How many times I have I told you not to name me after food?"
"Can't stop, force of habit."
"She chose Lorne..."
"So she did." A smile played on Lorne's face as he tapped on Angel's shoulder. "I wouldn't worry
to much about it. It may turn out better then you think."
"How can you say that Lorne? You know the stipulations as well as I do...If she chose to stay here
I would go back to the world where I belong and I won't even remember her. How can I go on
not knowing that I loved her? I would simply have no purpose."
"Oh you will have a purpose. And I'm sure it will be more clear to you when you get back home then
it is right now. But believe me you will know."
"You're starting to sound like Whistler, dancing around what's gonna happen."
"Hey what can I say, I like his style. Now you have to see her when you wake up?"
"Now why would I do that? She doesn't want to be with me Lorne..."
"Would you quit with the pity me act already?! Just do it just make sure you are at least
kissing her by midnight."
"Whatever Lorne, that's even if she even lets me into her place."
"You know what you are really beginning to get on my nerves. I have notice from the powers that they
want you there. So would you just do it instead of going on and on about this crap?" Lorne stood
and walked toward the darkness. "I'll see you when you get back. I want to hear everything."
Stepping into the shadows Lorne disappeared as Angel draped his arms across the table laying his
head down on it lightly.
Hearing a noise Angel sat up the room filling with light.
***
The phone was ringing loudly on his bedside table as he glanced at the clock. "Would you hurry up and
answer that already Angel! I'm trying to sleep in there."
"Sorry Ashen..." Angel reached over and pulled the receiver from the cradle holding it to his head
"This better be important!"
//"Angel..?\\
"Buffy?" Angels at up in bed the covers swirling around his waist. "Is everything alright?"
//"Can you come over? I'd like to talk to you..."\\
"Sure not a problem just let me take a shower and get ready and I'll be right over."
//"Thanks, see you in a bit."\\ Hearing Buffy hang up on the other end Angel dropped his receiver
back into the cradle as he turned and sat at the edge of his bed.
***
Well that's it for chapter 11...if you want chapter 12 F/B is a must.