This is a new story I am trying out. I also am in the process of writing a story where the marauders and lily read the harry potter stories. SO if you like those read that one too.

Summary: this is a story where harry is given a choice of different lives. One without Sirius or his parents, one with Sirius only, and one with his parents and Sirius and he has to choose the right one. Will he pick the best one or will he come to realize that he is very important to his life. Read and find out its pretty good I think

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter

Chapter 1 the Nightmare

Harry woke with a start and stared around his bedroom. Everything was blurry because he wasn't wearing his glasses but he could definitely tell he was no longer in the death room of the Department of Mysteries. He laid his head back on the pillow and brought to mind his dream and immediately regretted it.

The dream had been haunting him since the end of fifth year and it was always the same. Sirius falling through the veil and he, Harry, reaching out to catch him and being a second to late as Sirius fingers slipped through his. Harry would watch as Sirius's stricken face would fade away leaving Harry empty once again.

Harry didn't always feel empty just when he was alone and could think. He wasn't normal he kept reminding himself but that didn't make it any better. He hated the summer holidays and dreaded the time he spent with his family. Harry wasn't scared of many things but he was afraid of time he had to himself to think. Harry had encountered much evil throughout his five years at Hogwarts. Rescuing the Sorcerers Stone, defeating Riddle and the Basalik in the Chamber of Secrets, the dementors, watching him return but nothing prepared him for the loss of his godfather. His thoughts he realized were what he feared most anymore. He hated thinking about his godfather and feeling that it was his fault.

Everyone kept telling him to not blame himself and move on but he couldn't. He had led Sirius to his fate and he could never and would never forgive himself for it.

The sunlight crept through the bedroom illuminating his desk, Hedwig's cage, the wardrobe and finally Harry urging him to get up and start a new day.

Harry got up and got dressed in Dudley's old sweater and jeans and leaving his thoughts behind in the place where his pillow left the imprint of his head. He looked around the room and headed for the door as Hedwig swooped through the window. She had two letters attached to her legs. Harry knew who these were from without ever looking at the addresses.

"Ron and Hermione again?" Harry asked her. Ever since the end of the term he had been receiving letter from his best friends filled with advice and condolences.

"Harry,

Remember to stay sharp. Don't go looking for Voldermort there's nothing you can do. We will get you out of there as soon as possible. We wish you were here see you soon.

Love always,

Hermione"

Harry put aside her letter smirking as he thought about the prophecy he had yet to tell them about. It totally contradicted what Hermione wrote because he knew he was the only one that could do anything but he hadn't had the heart to tell them yet.

Setting aside Hermione's letter he reached for Ron's it was a bit more lighthearted and completely void of advice.

"Harry,

Well it's been pretty uneventful really quite boring but Fred and George help with that when their around. They've managed to knick some interesting information but nothing we don't already know. George got angry at Ginny yesterday and levitated her out the window. Mum wasn't too happy but she calmed down when Fred gave her their gift of ruby earrings and pearls. To bad she didn't know they change the color of your skin when you get angry. Well write back and if we don't get your letter in three days time Dad will be by. We'll get you out of there soon.

Ron"

Harry smiled. He only remembered to well Mr. Beasley, Tonks, Lupin and Moody threatening Uncle Vernon on his behalf at the end of term. If he didn't write back in three days time then they would all show up on the Dursleys doorstep demanding information about Harry. As much as he would have liked to see the Dursleys faces at that moment he didn't want to worry all those that cared about him. So he sat at his desk and wrote out two identical letters (changing the names).

"Ron,

I'm fine. Had that nightmare again still can't shake it from my mind. I won't do anything rash I promise. Tell everyone hi for me and how are you and Hermione getting along. Can't wait to see you.

Harry"

He asked how his two best friends were getting along because they had been dating for two months and he wondered if they had killed each other yet. He tied the letters to Hedwig and sent her back to Grimlind Place ( that's spelled wrong but I can't remember what it is and I am too lazy to get up and get my fifth book copy) where he knew headquarters still were even after Sirius's death.

Harry watched Hedwig fly away into the bright morning sun before heading down to breakfast with the Dursleys.

Well that is the first chapter. Review and let me know if its worth to type the rest of what I have. Thanks