Shatter
You sit in silence
Staring out the window
And watching as the world goes by
Disappearing before your very eyes
You're used to this silence by now
Because it's easier not to talk
When nobody's talking to you
Maybe you should have done that all along.
You should have never listened
Never said a word in reply
Just walked away and rolled your eyes
And never have gotten involved
And then when the truth came out,
The secret in your blood,
It wouldn't have hurt
Like it does now.
It is impossible to lose
What you never had at first
And you never would have believed
In what would break your soul
You could have told them right away
About the boy who claimed to be God
So they could find out the problem
Before you let yourself believe.
But you didn't, of course.
So here you are
Going to crazy camp
Going through your own little hell.
You've never been to camp before
Even though Luke and Kevin did
Because you were never quite as special
At least until you got sick.
Now you're special in the worst of ways,
Sick in body and broken in soul.
Oh, what you wouldn't give
To just be normal again.
Kevin and Luke were always the stars
The award-winners, the champions
"Best Athlete," "Most Intelligent"
Is there an award for being sane?
They're driving you themselves
Even when they let Luke fly alone
Because Luke is sane and healthy
And you're glass, waiting to break.
They treat you like a child
Writing your name on all your clothes
As though they think you'll get lost
And won't be able find your way home again
But as much as they baby you
They seem frightened, too
As though touching you
Would make you go insane again.
But now they won't have to touch you
For a whole six weeks
While the those expensive doctors
Put their Humpty Dumpty back together again.