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Chapter 13
Homeward Bound

"And remember, that time when I thought Hitomi was a handmaiden?" Millerna's voice droned on. "I asked her to carry Allen's bags, simply because I was judging her by the clothes she wore. Who would have guessed that we would turn out to be such good friends?" she smiled at Hitomi, and the girl in the green dress smiled back.
The maid at the door had been slightly incorrect. Millerna, Hitomi, Van, Allen, and Celena were not the only ones at the "Last Supper". A few members of the Crusade were there, along with Princess Eries. The Mole Man had also snuck in, stealing Pyle's seat when the Crew member had excused himself for other matters.
Currently, the people at the table were describing their first encounters with Hitomi, as she was the guest of honor.
The Mole Man was up next. "I remember my first meeting with Hitomi. The little lady was wearing a pretty stone and it caught my eye so I went after it- "
"-Which is where I came in." Allen said mock-gallantly. "That was my first encounter with Hitomi… saving her from an attacker. Of course, when I asked if she was alright, she referred to me as someone else and passed out." A light chuckle wove through the table and Allen nudged Hitomi playfully.
As the memories continued, Van grew more and more solemn. His thoughts were stuck on what he had read… Hitomi's confession about who her heart belonged to: the blond knight in shining armor.
The young king glanced at the interaction between Hitomi and Allen. Nothing was really happening, just a few smiles (that, in truth, were directed at everyone at the table), but at the moment, Van was so torn that something as simple as Hitomi asking Allen to pass the salt seemed, in his eyes, as though she was whispering "I love you," to the knight Caeli.
"..of course, that's when my brother stepped in and kissed Hitomi to ward me off. It worked well, I must admit, as I was thoroughly disgusted. I doubt, however, that Hitomi was." Celena finished her say and glanced over at Hitomi, who was turning slightly rosy-cheeked at the memory. Van's eyes darkened. He had remembered that little incident, alright. That was when he had felt his first pang of jealousy towards Allen. At the time, he wondered why the hell he had felt like that, scoffing at the notion that he might feel something for the girl with the funny hair and clothes. But it seemed he had no reason to laugh at the tiny twang that pinched his heart at the sight of her being kissed--on the cheek, at that--because in truth, he had fallen head over heels with Hitomi. He had just been too denying of his heart and also, more importantly, too afraid to tell her.
But now it was too late.
Van was jerked out of Memory Lane when he felt all eyes on him. He realized that it must be his turn to say something. But, he didn't let one word go. He just sat silently, his gaze locked onto the flaming candle in the center of the table.
"Looks like lover-boy is tongue-tied." Reeden chortled, but stopped abruptly when he realized that no one was laughing with him.
"Van…" Hitomi broke the silence. "Do you have any memories of our first encounter?"
He raised his head and her eyes met his. "You called me pig-headed," he said softly, evenly. "And then you slapped me." He stood up suddenly and excused himself.
Everyone watched, mystified, as he left the room, a little storm cloud hovering over his head. Then their heads turned to Hitomi, to see what she was intending to do about it.
"I don't understand…" he voice quavered. "That memory never bothered him before…" she felt Allen's hand on her shoulder.
"Go after him, Hitomi." He suggested. "If anyone can cheer him up, it's you."
"Having a pretty girl in your room will cheer any guy up," Reeden cracked, but Celena shot him a mean look and he immediately shut up.

"Dammit!" Van threw his fist against the wall in anguish. He jerked it back at the intense pain, falling to his knees like someone who has just been defeated. He continued to stay in that position on the floor, shaking.
A gentle knock on the door broke through his anger for a moment.
"Van?" came the voice that he had fallen in love with. He got to his feet and opened the door.
"Hitomi." He stated flatly.
"What's wrong?" she asked gently.
"Nothing." He didn't know why he bother to deny that something was bothering him, he could see it in her eyes that she already know something was up.
"Liar. Please tell me. Maybe I can help."
Van smirked coldly at the irony.
"What so funny? Don't play games with me." She begged.
He stared at her icily. "Go to bed, Hitomi. You leave tomorrow, and you wouldn't want to be late in going home, would you? This conversation is over, I'm going to sleep."
"You can't go around pretending nothing bothers you." She growled lowly.
"Watch me." He countered, slamming the door shut.
Hitomi was stunned. His words hit her like a punch in the nose and she recoiled as though she had actually been hit.
"Damn your stubborn side, Van Fanel!!" she shouted, unaware of the tears that had begun to streak down her face. She burst into her room, closing the door behind her with great force. Eventually, she fell asleep.

The sun was what woke Hitomi Kanzaki up the next morning, shining its brilliant rays on the sleeping girl. She groaned and considered covering her head with a pillow but the idea soon vanished as she remembered that today was the day. She hoisted herself out of bed, smoothing the green dress that she hadn't bothered changing out of the night before. Hastily, she pulled the garment over her head, then tugged on her brown uniform skirt and buttoned up white blouse that went with it. She left the room, glancing at Van's door. It was still tightly closed, indicating that he was not yet up.
She bounded down the stairs, taking two at a time, to the dining room. Allen, dressed rather casually, was the only person there. Breakfast had been set out, however.
Hitomi rook a seat across from him and poured himself some juice. She sipped it slightly and felt Allen's crystal-blue eyes upon her.
"What?" she asked.
"How did things go with Van last night? When you didn't come back down I considered checking on you. I decided against it, lest I interrupt an important moment between you and the king of Fanelia."
Hitomi lowered her glass and for the first time Allen noticed the bags under her eyes.
"That bad, was it?"
She slumped back in her chair. "When I tried to talk to him, he slammed the door in my face. All I asked was 'What's the matter, Van?'. Allen, what did I do wrong?"
The knight Caeli frowned. "You didn't do anything wrong, but he--" he stopped mid-sentence, his eyes focusing on something behind the sandy-brown haired girl. "Good morning, Van." he greeted cheerily, while at the same time noting the bags under the young king's eyes. "Sleep well?"
Van didn't reply. His face was set in a stubborn way, a manner which Allen recognized instantly as being the same one that the boy bore on his face during their first encounter. Somewhere along the lines, Van's pride had been damaged, and something had toyed with the most valuable part of him... his heart.
The raven-haired lad took a seat at the end of the table. A servant was soon hovering over him, offering juice and other breakfast foods. Van shook his head to dismiss him. "I'm not hungry, thank you."
A long silence entered the room after those 5 little words had been uttered. Van continued his stern appearance and Hitomi was casting furtive glances at him, exchanging concerned looks with the man who sat across from her. At last, Allen asked: "What troubles you, my friend?"
'Friend'? Van thought to himself. Friends don't take away each other's heart's desire. You know what I feel for Hitomi, Allen. He opened his mouth to reply, but was cut short by a gentle cough. Millerna, clad in her princess's gown, her gloved hands clasped in front of her, took two dainty steps into the room.
"I have just been informed that Dryden has returned, and is waiting in Folken's laboratory." she said quietly, carefully. She looked to the green eyed girl. "Hitomi, it's time."

They seemed like a troop, walking slowly, dismally, through the streets of Asturia to Folken's laboratory that had been hidden away. Not many people knew about it, and Millerna intended to keep it that way. All the same, people would stop their work as they watched the 5 people move towards the hidden lab. Hitomi walked up at the front with Millerna on her left and Allen on her right. Behind them, Celena walked with Van, who didn't seem to have changed his mood. Furtively, her brother would cast glances at her to make sure she didn't try anything with Van. If she had it would have been completely out of character, but he concluded that it was better to be safe than sorry.
"Here we are," Millerna announced flatly as she pushed open the door of the building. In the far right was the door that led to the basement, Folken's lab. As they approached it, it swung open and Dryden appeared.
"Hey," he greeted, meeting them halfway. "You're right on time. I was just tinkering a bit more with the fate-alteration generator that Folken had worked on. It's working fine."
Millerna nodded. "It's.. good to see you again, Dryden." she said softly. Something passed between them at that moment, something that was not easily identified.
"So," Dryden said hastily, breaking the gaze. He turned to Hitomi, who was fiddling with the strap of her duffel bag. "Are you ready, Hitomi?"
"Yes," she lied, looking away. "But I need a few moments to say goodbye."
He nodded in understanding and took a few steps back to give her room. Hitomi first turned to Celena.
"I never really had a chance to know you... the real you... but you're a good person, Celena, and I'm glad Allen finally was reunited with you." she gave Celena a quick hug, which the surprised girl returned.
"I'm glad to have met you. My brother has told me so much about you." she smiled at Allen.
Hitomi withdrew from the hug and turned to Millerna. "Princess--"
"Just Millerna." she corrected lightly, her voice wavering.
"right," Hitomi chuckled slightly, blinking quickly to trap the tears. "I never thought that I would grow to adore you as one of my best friends, but... " she paused to throw her arms around the woman. "You are, you really are. I know we'll see each other again someday, and I'll always remember you."
Millerna hugged her friend tighter. "Goodbye, my friend Hitomi."
There was one last person that Hitomi had to say goodbye to, before she, Van, and Dryden went down to Folken's lab to send her home.
Hitomi noticed as the crowd took a few steps back. Out of the corner of her eye she saw Van, still stoney-faced. "Allen," she said to the blond man. Immediately, he dropped to one knee, taking her hand and kissing it respectfully. "I'm not royalty. Please stand." she said. He did as he was told. "Allen," she repeated. "You were one of the people here on Gaia who helped me adjust. When I first met you, I felt better about being here because you resembled so much Amano, a friend on the Mystic Moon. You were like him in so many ways. You were caring, and considerate, a true knight Caeli. Sure, there were times when you did some things that I didn't exactly appreciate, but everyone has their faults." she reached up to hug him, and he returned the embrace. "You helped me to have courage..." she whispered in a voice so low only he could hear it. "Courage to confront Van, which I intend to do before I leave." he pulled out of the embrace and winked at her.
"Good luck," he said, grinning. "I know you can do it."
"Is that everyone?" Dryden asked. Everyone nodded solemnly. "Alright then. Hitomi, Van. Let's go."
They walked silently to the door, the 3 people left behind saying their final goodbyes. Hitomi waved to them with slight tears in her eyes until she shut the door behind her.

Dryden thumped down the stairs, Van behind him, and Hitomi after that. She rubbed her arms nervously.
"It's really not that hard," Dryden said calmly. "You just place your hand he--" he stopped, frowning.
"What is it, Dryden?" for the first time since breakfast, Van spoke.
"Damn!" he cursed under his breath. "The fate generator seems to be malfunctioning. It won't turn on."
Hitomi's face brightened.
Dryden growled. "Come on, you piece of dirt!" he yelled at the machine. He gave it a swift kick and suddenly, it whirred to life. "nothin' to it." the merchant prince declared, as if he had known what to do all along. "Van, come over here so I can teach you how to work this baby." he patted the fate accelerator affectionately.
The young king uncrossed his arms and made his way next to Dryden. Their voices became a soft murmur as Hitomi busied herself by looking at the laboratory. It had remained untouched since Folken's...
"...you have the pendant, right?" she could hear Dryden say. "It's necessary for the procedure."
"Yes, I believe Hitomi still has it." Van answered.
"Good." Dryden clapped his hands together. "you know what to do?"
"Yes."
"Good." he repeated. "Then I'm out of here. I know you two are probably dying for some time alone to have your goodbyes."
Van glared at him.
Dryden ignored the look and turned to Hitomi. "If I don't see you again, which I probably won't, I wish you a good life. Try coming back for a visit sometime, if it's possible."
"I'll drop you a line sometime." she said to him, and smiled.
He looked at her with curiosity. "'I'll drop you a line'?" he repeated. "What does that mean?"
"You used it in your letter, remember?"
The merchant prince scratched his head a moment and shrugged. "I've never said that before, and I don't know what it means. Anyway, I'll leave you two alone now. It was nice meeting you, Hitomi."
"Likewise."
He trudged up the steps and shut the door behind him.
Hitomi looked at Van, whose expression was unreadable in the dim light of the fate-generator. "Well," she said, her voice shaky. "I guess this is it, huh."
"Yes... I guess it is." he returned. He wanted so badly to kiss her then, but what good would come of that? She already had someone.
"I'm really going to miss you, Van." she whispered. "You changed my life... for the better." she moved towards him abruptly, unable to stand being so far apart from him. She needed to be in his arms more than anything at that moment. She threw her arms around him, letting the captive tears finally go free. "Thank you for everything you've done for me, she said, hugging him tighter. That's when she noticed something that nearly broke her heart. Van was not hugging her back. His arms lay loosely at his sides and his hair was covering his eyes. He turned away from her, causing her arms to break away from him.
Van began to follow the instructions that Dryden had given him. Hitomi took a few steps away from him, overwhelmed with sadness. It was clear that Van no longer cared anything for her.
As he continued the instructions, a pink light began to shine from beneath Hitomi's clothes. She pulled out her pendant, which was glowing brightly. "Van..." she whimpered. He had completed all the tasks except one. Carefully, he placed his hand on the small circular area on the control panel. The machine was whirring frantically now, and a bright blue light encircled Hitomi.
"I'm sorry, Hitomi..." Van whispered, a tear falling down from his cheek.
Hitomi began to rise up in the light, ready to be sent home. Her tears continued to flow. "Goodbye, Van..." she whispered, her words lost in the whirring of the machine as she rose higher... homeward bound.