"Ms. Taylor I understand that you had a miscarriage two days ago?" the doctor asked Jesse.

"Yes sir." Jesse answered holding John's hand for support.

When Jesse didn't come out of the bathroom for over an hour John came looking for her. He found her sitting on the bathroom floor next to the toilet, which she didn't flush yet. After seeing that Jesse had no choice but to tell John what happened. He insisted that they come to the doctor to make sure that everything was okay. Jesse didn't tell him that she knew that she had miscarried because it wasn't the first time it happened.

"I also see that it wasn't the first time?" the doctor asked to a shocked John.

Jesse hung her head. "No sir it wasn't." she answered.

"Alright, well I will have to check you out to make sure everything is okay. If you will undress and put on the gown I will be back in a few minutes." The doctor walked out of the room.

John stood and started pacing the room. "You've had a miscarriage before?" he asked not looking at her. "Why didn't you tell me?"

Jesse sat there looking at the floor. "I'm sorry and I should have told you. But it was so long ago and I didn't think it was that important."

John stopped and stood in front of her. "It's important to me. Tell me what happened"

"I got pregnant when I was with Mark. It was the last time that we were really together before he proposed. I never told him and two and a half months later I didn't have to because I miscarried. John please don't be mad at me."

John started walking around again. "I have to go outside and get some fresh air. Come back to the car when you are done." John said walking out.

He didn't know what else to do right now. He never thought in a million years that she would have gotten pregnant twice with Mark. For some reason he had him feel less like a man when he couldn't get her that way. What bothered him more was the fact that she didn't tell him. Maybe she didn't think that it was important, but it sure was to him.

Over the last month they have gotten so close. They would talk every night before they went to bed and he thought he knew almost everything about her. She sure as hell knew everything about him. But she lied to me. Was all that kept running through his mind. Shouldn't he be upset with her? But the truth was he wasn't. In a way he was relieved that she had miscarried because it gave them to have a chance to have their own baby. Now he wasn't so sure if it was the right thing. Maybe she can't have children and that's why she can't carry one over two months. John shook his head and walked to the car.

He reached into the glove box and pulled out a small ring box. Sighing he opened the box and looked at the engagement ring he bought her. John was going to propose the night all this happened. He knew that he might be jumping the gun by asking her to marry him, but he was one hundred percent positive that she would say yes. They were in love and Jesse admitted that she was never in love with anyone before. John knew that they were meant to be together and he didn't want to waste anymore time. Now all he had to do was wait for the perfect time.

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One week later…………

John walked into the house after coming home from the road. He was lucky that he had the whole week off because he was going to propose to her tonight and he wanted time to spend with her. He had everything planned out. He was going to send her to the store for something and then set up a whole romantic setting in the living room. It was going to be perfect.

"Jesse!" he yelled setting his stuff in the living room. When he didn't hear anything he thought that she might be sleeping so he walked up to the bedroom.

Opening the door he saw that she was not in there, but there was a note on the bed. John didn't have to read it to know what it already said. He walked over to the note and picked it up. Taking a deep breath he opened it and read it aloud.

Dear John,

You have no idea how sorry I am about everything. I know that you are upset that I never told you about my other miscarriage and you have no idea how hard that was for me. I have decided that you deserve better and that is why I am leaving. By the time that you read this I will already be on a plane back home. Please don't come looking for me I know that this is the best thing for the both of us. You need someone who will love you in the ways that you should be loved and not some broke shell of a person. Remember that I will love you always. It we are meant to be together then we will find our way back to each other, but don't wait for me as I am moving on. Please forgive me John. I love you.

Jesse.

John rolled the paper into a ball and threw it across the room as two tears fell from his eyes.

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I hope that you liked the chapter. In this one I wanted it to focus more on John then Jesse. In the next you will find out more about the real reason Jesse left and if John is going to do anything about it. Please review and tell me what you think.