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Jesse sat in the back of the catering room with her head in her hands. She sobbed softly for ten minutes before she felt a tap on her shoulder. She looked up and saw Charlie standing in front of her. Jesse stood up and wrapped her arms about him.

"What's wrong?" he asked stroking her hair.

"John doesn't want me anymore. I came to tell him I was sorry and that I wanted to be with him and he told me that he needs to move on. I thought he loved me." she sobbed.

"Oh honey." Charlie sat her down again, but held onto her. 'I'm sure he didn't mean it. It's been hard for everyone."

Jesse pulled away. ''He gave me this.'' She reached into her pocket and pulled out the ring box. ''He said that he was letting me go. How am I supposed to take that?''

Charlie sighed. ''Jesse I think I should tell you something. Last week after the show John had a breakdown. He got so wasted he was sent to the hospital to have his stomach pumped. Vince told him that he needed to straighten up or he would be fired.''

''Why would he do that?'' Jesse asked shocked. It wasn't like John to drink that much.

''You know that John and I are very close right? I mean as close as two straight guys can be.''

''Yeah.''

''He told me that he couldn’t live with the thought that you weren't coming back to him. He just wanted to get drunk to get you off his mind. I got him to tell me a little more and I found out the real reason.'' Charlie paused. ''He blames himself for you being unhappy. He blames himself for you losing your baby and for making you run to Mark in the first place. He is so in love with you and he couldn't live with knowing that he made you unhappy. He wanted to drink the pain away. I think that's why he is trying to push you away now, he wants you to be happy.''

Jesse started crying again. ''Great now I am making him unhappy. Why the hell is this happening to us?'' Jesse stood and started walking away. She couldn't take this anymore. Things had to change and she had to show John how much she really wanted him back. She had to make him know that he didn't make her unhappy, he was the only man to ever make her happy.

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John sat on the edge of his bed looking at the open beer in his hand. He hasn't taken a drink he just sat there looking at it. He wasn't sure this was the right thing to do. He had already been warned about drinking, but all he wanted was to forget about her and the way she made him feel.

John got up and threw the bottle in the trashcan. He wouldn't risk his job for temporary relief of his hurting. Just the look on Jesse's face when he told her that he was moving on will haunt him forever. He couldn't look at her anymore so he just left her standing there with tears forming in her eyes. That would be the last time that he hurt her, because he was planning on dropping out of her life. He couldn't hurt her anymore.

There was a sudden rapid knock on his door. John stood and answered the door. ''I don't want to see you.'' he spoke.

''That's too bad because I am not leaving until we work this out.'' Jesse said pushing him back into the room and closing the door.

''Jesse please just leave me alone.''

Jesse stood with her hands on her hips looking at him. ''I know about last week John and I want to talk about it.''

John looked at her. ''Who told you?''

''It doesn't matter. What matters is you almost died over me and I want to know why. Don't you play games with me either.''

''Jesse, what do you want from me? I said that I was letting you go because that's what you wanted.''

Jesse smiled and walked up to John. ''Is that what I wanted?''

John gulped. She was standing so close to him. ''Yeah.''

Jesse noticed that John was standing in front of the bed. She grinned as she pushed him backward making him fall on the bed. Then she straddled his hips pinning him to the bed. ''Then I guess you knew that I wanted this.'' She said as she leaned down and gave him a kiss.