"Uninvited"
My nose presses against the window that is the entry to your soul. So close yet so far. The pain I see but cannot touch the love that is there that I have no claim to, the emotions that churn inside you that I cannot mend.
I have no right to ask for entry. You see I am uninvited.
Uninvited to heal your pain, uninvited to tame your fears and uninvited to show you what I feel in my own heart.
I am uninvited to comfort you since I am the reason you have moved on.
This was not my intention but what is done is done. It hurts to see you turn away from me. But I have not given you any reason to trust me with your heart.
You should have someone to support you and fill your needs. You crave something that I cannot give. A love that is bigger then both of us and I know I will fail you in someway and lose you forever.
You need someone that will care for your soul, but its too late for me I'm uninvited.
You are strong and I see I should have been the one. It's too late now for me to be the one you could lean on the shoulder to cry on
I should not put the blame at your feet. The blame falls all on me. I should never have told you to get a life and now that you have shut me away, I am alone I am uninvited.
I have put barriers between us that you have stopped climbing. These same walls that have stopped us from acting are now keeping us apart. I am angry but I have no one to blame but myself.
You have given me the opportunity to change this but I would not. Arrogant as I am I imagined you would wait till our time was right.
I never saw the signs and the hints you would give begging me to act before it was to late.
It is I who has created this gap between us. It is I who is trying desperately to fill it. But I am too late I am uninvited.
I am uninvited to share your happiness, uninvited to partake in your sorrow. Instead I am a bystander to all of this a shadow in your heart a whisper in the wind.
Uninvited and destined to spend my life alone in this prison I have created. Uninvited to love you as you once loved me.