Obejct of My Obsession
By: Felidae Silvestris
Disclaimer: I do not own Revolutionary Girl Utena …
Author's Note: This was originally a fic, but I thought I'd make it an Utena/Anshi fic … yeah. And it's an AU due to some stuff I did in the original. This is basically word-for-word the original, but with changes of characters. Hope you like!
Chapter Two
"Ready?" Utena asked, pushing herself away from the pillar she'd been leaning against. "Here, let me take that for you."
"It's heavy," I warned as her fingers brushed my shoulder, sending shivers up my spine.
"Not that heavy," Utena replied. She took the lead in our walk and I hurried to catch up to her.
The sky overhead was growing darker by the minute with storm clouds. Utena remained unfased, so I did as well. She led me to her apartment-building and into the elevator which we had to ourselves.
"How long are you going to stay tomorrow?" she asked.
"Huh?" I looked at her and then shook my head, reminding myself that I wasn't supposed to be in dream-land. I shrugged. "I don't know. Otou-san didn't say I had a time limit."
Utena grinned. "Good."
I peered at her as the elevator stopped, opening it's doors. Utena led me into the hall and to the end of it. A door loomed before us and I knew that this must be her apartment. She unlocked the door and led me inside. I looked around, noticing that everything about the apartment positively screamed her name.
"It's big, isn't it?" she asked, setting down my bag.
"Uh . . . yeah. Not as big as the orphanage I was in, though," I replied, blurting out strange things.
Utena chuckled. "I've always heard that American homes are a lot larger than ours here. Tea?"
"Iie. Arigatou." I heasitantly followed her into the kitchen where she made herself some tea.
"You can sit down if you want," she told me, her voice holding some laughter.
"Oh. Yeah." I sat down and looked around. The table-cloth was a dark burgandy, like flowing blood almost. I fingered the fabric and noticed that is was silk or satin.
Utena sat down across from me. "Like that?" I nodded. "The bed has silk sheets, which I'm sure you'll enjoy."
"Maybe," I mused, and rested my chin on my hand. My eyes rested on the goddess before me. Her blue eyes regarded me calmly, sparkling a little. Her hair drifted and swirled around her face, blown by the breeze from a fan. I noticed that it changed shades in the different lighting.
"What do you think?" Utena murmured, setting down her cup.
"You're beautiful." It slipped out of my mouth before I could stop it. My hands flew to my mouth as my face reddened in embarrassment. I looked down at my lap, afraid of what my angel might say.
I heard her chuckle and get up, moving to sit next to me. Her soft fingers ran underneath my chin and lifted it, making me look at her. "Anshi-chan . . . I think you're beautiful, as well."
My heart beat sped up as her eyes captured mine. I was stunned speechless as she moved closer, slowly inching her way towards me. It seemed like forever, but her lips finally met mine and I started, my eyes wide. Slowly, my eyes closed as I kissed her back. We stayed like that for a few minutes, her fingers ghosting through my hair as we kissed. Eventually, we pulled away from each other, but Utena stayed close to me.
"I told you I knew," she whispered.
"You did," I replied, feeling ready to drown in happiness.
"We should get to work."
I nodded, but neither of us made to move away. We stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like an eternity. The only movement in the apartment was our rare blinks, our breathing, and the fan. Finally, Utena leaned in again, her lips softly brushing mine before slowly standing up.
"Come on." She offered me a hand and I took it. Utena led me into a room that must have been her bedroom, leaving me to my own devices while she went off somewhere. I had to lean against a wall, otherwise I would have collapsed. I pinched myself to see if it was a dream I was having, but it wasn't. I smiled, relieved. Her lips had been so warm and her touch so real. It was real, more real than any of my fantasies.
"You should smile more often, Anshi-chan," Utena told me, coming into the room with my bag.
"I will if you kiss me again," I replied.
She chuckled and dropped my bag on the floor. Her lips were softer this time, and my arms moved to encircle her waist. Her arms went around my neck and pulled me away from the wall while deepening our kiss. This was even more wonderful than I had ever imagined. Here I was, kissing the very girl I'd been lusting after for years. Her touch sent electricity running through me, making me want more of her. She gently guided me to the bed and we flopped down onto it.
She pulled back a bit and we gazed into each other's eyes again. Her hands roamed freely up and down my torso, making me feel hot. I knew what she wanted and I didn't try to stop her from taking it.
"Ai shiteru," she whispered, still gazing at me. She hands undid the ribbon on my uniform. "You'll never, ever be alone again, koibito. I promise."
"Koibito?" I asked, dazed at the pleasure she was granting me.
She nodded as her hands slipped under my skirt. "Why do you think I wanted to bring you here?" I started to reply, but she lifted a finger to my lips. "Shh. Lets make this moment last."
"It'll last forever in my mind," I murmured to her. Utena smiled and I felt her other hand toy with me. I gasped at the feeling, but I didn't move away. "Ai shiteru, Utena . . ."
"I know," she whispered before our lips joined once more.
I awoke the next morning and didn't dare open my eyes, fearing that it had all been a dream. I felt someone gently stroking my hair and sighed, snuggling closer to Utena's warm body.
I heard her chuckle and felt her breath on my ear as she whispered to me. "Open your eyes, Hime-sama, it wasn't a dream."
"I want to stay like this forever," I told her, not opening my eyes.
Utena laughed. "So do I, but I'd like to see your lovely eyes, my Hime-sama."
I opened my eyes for her and looked up into her blue ones. I hadn't been lying when I told her I wanted to stay that way forever. I wanted to stay in the arms of the most beautiful creature on earth. I wanted to stay with her forever, resting gently in her arms. She leaned down and kissed my lips, her tongue taking a quick dive into my mouth to caress mine. I'd never loved anyone as much as I loved her in that moment. She was beautiful, and I was just a lowly wretch whom she favored. I didn't deserve to be her lover, but I was and I was sad when she ended our kiss.
"Ai shiteru, love," she told me. "You're beautiful, you know that?"
I sighed. "I get that a lot, but I could never measure up to you."
"Me? I'm no beauty."
"I think you are," I whispered, embarrassed.
Utena gently lifted my chin with a finger and gazed lovingly at my red face. "No one but you has ever told me I was beautiful. Arigatou, koibito."
I suddenly flung my arms around her and cried into her naked chest. I couldn't explain why, but I cried for what seemed like hours. Utena stroked my hair and kissed my forehead through the whole thing. She whispered to me soothing words and I calmed at them. Finally, she lifted my chin again and kissed me passionately, my crying ceased as we kissed.
"Why do you cry, Hime-sama?" she asked me.
"Akemi," I whispered, looking into her eyes for the hundreth time.
"What about her?"
"She . . . she's the closest thing I've had to a mother in so long. Akemi is homophobic, Utena-chan. I don't know what she'll do when she finds out about us."
Utena pulled me to her and nuzzled my hair. "You won't go through it alone, Anshi-chan. I promise. I said last night that you'd never be alone again, and I meant it."
"Utena-chan . . ." I pulled back. "You don't know what she did to my brother when she found out he was dating Kiryuu Touga."
"Hai, I do. Your brother is a friend of mine. She kicked him out of her apartment for good. I know."
"W-was he the one who . . . who told you?" I asked.
Utena smiled at me. "No one had to tell me, Hime-sama. I knew what I was hiding and therefore could see it in you. I always asked about you from your brother, and he always told me that you were depressed because the person you wanted to be with didn't see you. But I did, and I came very close to telling him. Very, very close. It was a miracle that you and I became partners for this project. It brought us together."
I hugged her, inhaling her scent as I did. It was like spices, crisp and musky. Her hands roamed over my back and I shivered with restrained pleasure at the feel of them. I loved her, and I would never let go, ever.
Author's Note: Just another translation and review reminder … ArigatouThank You, -Chan is an affectionate suffix, Ai shiteruI love you, KoibitoLover/Honey, Hime-samaPrincess. And a thing that really annoys me is when people get lazy and sai Koi instead of Koibito. Koi is a fish!