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Authors note this is fairly depressing coz I was in a bad mood don't read it if you wanna stay happy!
Maybe I loved him, he was kind generous not like the others, when I needed him he was there. But we can't dwell on that now he's dead, gone forever. He was a good man who always tried, yeah he could be a nerd and not a patch on Giles as watcher but he tried, both with B and me.
All he ever wanted to do was please people. Well he pleased me and I miss him, maybe I loved him more than id like to say, and I hope he's watching me thinking how well im doing. On the straight and narrow, no more crime for me, that's partly because of him, I saw what happened to him in the time that I was in jail and I found that I didn't like what he had become on the outside, but deep down he was the same bumbling fool just a guy who'd had it rough.
And that girl the one he loved and lost, she was pretty and so obviously loved him too. Shame things couldn't have worked out for those to they were made.
Thinking about this is wrong I know as I lay by my lover, Robin is great and everything I could have wished for, but cant help but think what if I hadn't dismissed him. Thrown him off as a fuddy duddy from tea bag land, told him he couldn't help me, maybe if I hadn't been so mean it could have been us here, now it could have been me in his strong arms for all these months and he'd still be alive.
Its funny to think it now but I know its true I loved Wesley and never had chance to say, and now all I can think is I lost my chance. He's dead and I wasn't there to help him at the end.