Whoo. Welcome to my First Lemon ever!! It's probably suck-tastic, but I don't care, as long as you read it!! Muhahahaha. It may not turn out to be too lemony…probably just slashy…
NOW REDONE AND EDITED!!!
Chapter One: Confessions
The three words formed silently on Sho's lips and in his mind; 'I love you'. But they always caught in his throat, obstructing his voice box. Every day Sho pushed himself to say it. Every day it failed miserably. How can he be so stupid as to think Kei would stand there and wait for the words to form from Sho's lips? Kei was an impatient person and barely had time to listen to Sho at all. Besides, he would probably run out on him if Sho ever confessed his love for the vampire.
In the cramped room, Sho opened the window to let some fresh air in to ease his distraught mind. His cerulean eyes were wide open, reflecting the moonlight. His long, braided, highlighted hair was pulled back into a ponytail. He threw his white trench coat (which needed considerable washing) onto the bed, revealing a skin tight black tank top and tight black leather pants that seemed to be painted on. Sighing, he rested his arm on the windowsill, resting his head atop his arm. Sho's gaze passed over the ever-busy streets of Mallepa, the crowds made up mostly of whores and drunks leaving bars.
He watched Kei come around the side of the building. How could he not know it was Kei? The vampire's blonde hair sleeked back stood out since it reflected the moonlight, brown eyes darting back and forth from wall-to-wall. Of course, his usual skin tight red tank top, which stated 'Safe Sex Forever', and black leather pants that matched Sho's stood out in the moonlight. Kei looked up automatically and smiled, revealing his sharp canines that marked him as a monster to everyone…everyone but Sho.
"Hey Sho." Kei called up at him. Sho smiled and waved slightly in return. Just like every other night. As Kei turned the corner, coming around the back, Sho cursed under his breath. Should he tell Kei tonight or should he just forget it all? But how could he forget?! He lived with the person he loved more than anything in the world and spent most of the day talking with him casually…or as casual as he could get while talking with Kei…
Every night for the past few months, Sho had done this ritual of cursing himself for not telling the truth, not being open to Kei, never saying anything in reply to Kei's 'Hey Sho' because his voice was caught in his throat. Closing his eyes for a moment, Sho drifted into deep thought, leaning upon the windowsill. He didn't even notice nor realize when Kei walked into his room to say 'hi' like he did every night.
"Hi Sho," Kei softly called into the room. Sho didn't respond. Kei knew something was wrong this time. How did he know? Because this time, Sho didn't respond at all, he hadn't even flinched. Normally, he would have grunted or at least moved, but Sho just stayed still. "Sho?" Kei said fearfully, wondering what was wrong with Sho. He wouldn't let anything happen to Sho. He cared for him deeply. Hell, he loved Sho. Sho was his reason for living on, he gave him comfort in knowing that he could live happy, knowing that he had someone that gave him a reason to live, but Sho had no idea about the feelings Kei had. He didn't want to tell Sho because he didn't know exactly what Sho would do if he ever told him. He knew it was possible that Sho might run out…he'd think he was crazy…but that was all he could come up with. That dazzling smile that made girls stop dead in their tracks……No. Kei couldn't think about it…
Coming closer to Sho, he could see that he was breathing, which was, in fact, movement. Kei sighed, relieved that nothing had happened. Smiling mischievously, to play as a prank, Kei paused and seductively said, "Sho…" Again, nothing. Slowly, Kei reached out his arms, slowly draping them over Sho's shoulders, stretching as high up as he could, since he was much shorter than Sho. He nuzzled his nose into the back of Sho's neck, but Sho still didn't pay any attention. He grinned, happy that the next part of his prank could take place, the part he would enjoy.
Slowly, he edged his head around the side of Sho's face, sliding around to the front of Sho, who was still staring out the window, trying to ignore the fact that he was enjoying Kei hanging off of him. He wanted to see where Kei was going with it. Swiftly, Kei leaned upward, staring into Sho's eyes, which had shifted to look into Kei's. Making his move quick, Kei leaned forward and pressed his lips to Sho's, kissing the man. Sho jumped slightly at the shock of what Kei was doing at that very moment. Kei then gently placed his hand on the back of Sho's head, pushing him deeper into the kiss.
Sho, not realizing that Kei was watching him intently, closed his eyes slowly, realizing how much he had longed for this moment, although he knew Kei was just joking…but it was still bliss for him…
Kei made a mental list of reasons why Sho would have closed his eyes, but the obvious one was the last one on the list. Slowly, he pried his lips away from Sho's, staring intently at Sho. "Dakishimete." Sho mumbled, barely audible. He hoped that Kei hadn't realized that he hadn't tried to push him away during the kiss…
"What?" Kei said, grinning at the taller man. He looked up at Sho, his brown eyes searching the younger, much younger, man's face, his arms still wrapped around Sho.
"Nothing." Sho replied, glancing down at Kei. He smiled. Acting like he had just realized what Kei did, he playfully glared at the vampire and said, "What did you just do to me, Kei?"
"Oh, nothing…Just a little prank on a non-responsive man." Kei said, letting go of Sho, but staying in front of the man, still smiling.
"Next time, it may be more efficient to just tap me on the shoulder." Sho replied, tilting his head up at the ceiling, concealing his blushing cheeks. Yes, he had enjoyed the kiss, but he didn't want Kei to see him enjoying it. He had dreamed of a moment like that with Kei, which was extremely embarrassing when it actually happened and he didn't know about Sho's feelings. He began to wonder if Kei had feelings for him…after all, he had just kissed Sho.
Tears began to form as a war emerged in Sho's mind. TELL HIM NOW! DON'T TELL HIM! YES! NO! He must feel the same way as you do if he just kissed you!! Yeah, right. He said it was a prank!! A sudden burst away from Kei and onto his bed startled the vampire and frightened him to death. Was something wrong with Sho? Had he taken his prank too far? Even though he had enjoyed it, had Sho? He was worried that Sho would take it literally and run away…although, he did kind of want Sho to take it literally……
Slowly, Kei etched his way forward towards Sho's slumped over figure. "Sho?" Kei said cautiously. He knew how dangerous Sho could be when he was emotionally hurt or having a temper tantrum. "Sho—is there something that's bothering you?" Kei kneeled down next to Sho. He leaned slightly sideways to look at Sho's face, which was concealed in shadow. As he asked if there was something bothering him, he saw Sho's cerulean eyes flicker towards Kei. All of a sudden, Kei knew.
He suddenly knew why all of those nights Sho had been so distant, why Sho was always waiting for him at the window, why Sho had cared for him all those years, why Sho was always so distant in their casual conversations…
"Sho…" Kei said soothingly. He reached out his hand and touched Sho's cheek, wiping away a tear like he had done just a few months ago when he had snapped at Sho for always being around. He put his hand underneath Sho's chin and lifted his head so he was looking at Kei. "Sho, is there something you want to tell me?"
Glancing at Kei, Sho realized that the vampire cared deeply for him. So much, that Sho knew he would never run away no matter what he said, even if it hurt him deeply. He could see worry in the brown eyes of the man he loved more than anything in the world. "Kei, I—I—" Sho began. "No, it's—it's stupid…I really—I really don't—don't want to…to bring it up…"
"Nonsense," Kei said, going to sit next to Sho on the bed. "I saw your eyes flicker towards me when I asked if something's wrong, and there's something wrong. Tell me, and I can help, Sho." He smiled warmly. "I won't run away or leave or anything…you can tell me. I can handle it."
NOW! Sho's mind screamed at him. "I—well, I guess…Kei, I—I…" He glanced at Kei quickly. Sho noticed that the vampire's lips were, again, dangerously close to his own… "I love you." He blurted out. The vampire's eyes widened in shock and relief, warmth spreading through his body, warmth that he had never felt before………
Translations:Dakishimete- Hold me
Heh. I guess it's alright. Review please. It's short.
NEW NOTE: I have to edit the second chapter as well, so read that one too. It should already be edited. And I find the kissing part very, very great!! If you need a smut muse, drink ice cold Mountain Dew Pitch Black, it works!!!!! Happy New Year Everyone!! May it be Gakuhai filled!!!!