NOTES:
Melly: Yes, now I do remember. (Cracks up)
YaoiKitty: (Throws more Pocky to you) You are so cool! Like purastik!
Chapter Six: Angst Fills The Air
"I said, I want my pants back!" Sho exclaimed, wrapping a towel around his waist. He walked into Kei's room. Kei stood at his mirror, running a brush through his blonde hair. A drawer was thrown open, shirts hanging out of it at random angles; the only one that Sho could see perfectly was his 'Safe Sex Forever'. He was still wearing Sho's pants, but he hadn't found a shirt he wanted to wear.
"You said you wanted them back," Kei said, throwing the brush over his shoulder, "You never asked for them back."
Inside of the continually falling rain
Hollowly, I looked up into the sky
With the ends stretching out into eternity
A flock of birds looking for freedom was crying out
Sho opened his mouth to retort, but realized that Kei was right. The vampire walked towards Sho, smiling. "You know I'm right," he said, placing his mouth over Sho's gaping one. Sho pressed his still-wet body into Kei, making them unbalanced.
"Oh no," he said quickly, before they smashed into the ground. A pain-filled moan was emitted from Kei as he withdrew his tongue from Sho's mouth.
"I landed—on—my brush!" Kei gasped, reaching underneath his back to pull out the brush from underneath his back. He threw it across the room, hearing a gasp from Sho. He looked to where he had thrown the brush. Kei started laughing, realizing that he had grabbed a corner of Sho's towel and thrown it along with his brush.
Only your lost smiling face
Could never do anything like betray
Over and over I murmured this to my heart
"You pervert!" Sho yelled, trying to get up to reach his towel. Kei shook his head and grabbed Sho by the shoulders. Kei flipped Sho over so that he was on top of the man.
"What's wrong, Sho? It's not like I didn't see you naked last night in your too-small bed..." Kei purred, brushing his (Sho's) pants against Sho's bare legs. Sho twitched, and gave Kei a quizzical look. He said nothing, but shivered instead.
"Cold?" Kei asked, realizing Sho was still wet...and naked. Sho nodded in response to the question.
And no matter how much I've been hurt
And what became the thing that hurts me
I can't stop for anyone
"I can't move," Sho said, his voice shaking. "You're laying on top of me!"
"And you don't think that I can warm you up?" Kei asked, resting his head on Sho's chest. He could hear the beating of the man's heart quicken, and Kei smiled, knowing what it meant. Slowly, he began sucking at Sho's skin, feeling Sho's heart beat even faster. Sho clutched Kei's hair, moaning his name softly. Kei continued sucking at Sho's skin as he made his way up Sho's chest and to the man's neck. He continued upwards, but in his mind he truly debated whether he should drink the blood he so longed to feel coursing through his own veins. He could tell that his feelings were getting in the way of his thoughts. However, one clear thought broke through.
It's fine if I only find a little bit of light
Even if today's sun doesn't rise
"The falling rain will someday cease, won't it..."
"I would never turn you into what I am! I would never let you suffer each day, relishing the thought of having to drink someone's blood! I would never let you go through time like me! It's too horrid for you to bear, and I couldn't bring myself to do that to you, Sho!"
Instead, Kei licked at Sho's skin, feeling the man shudder at the touch of Kei's saliva on his neck. "Kei," Sho whispered, grabbing the towel and somehow managing to slide it in between himself and Kei. He grabbed Kei's head and stopped the licking. Kei's brown eyes stared into Sho's blue eyes with concern... and lust. "This—doesn't... seem... right." Sho said, watching as the vampire's face fell. Sho quickly looked away.
You've gotten tired of walking
In your hand you've held the vanishing dream
"You... you... why?" Kei asked, rolling off of Sho and rolled next to him on the floor, sitting up. He put his hands on either side of Sho's face. Tears were tricking down Sho's face. Kei bent over, bringing their faces so close that their noses were brushing each other. "God, Sho. We were so close to having sex again and you stop?" Kei smiled gently, kissing away Sho's already-fallen tears. Sho let out a soft sob.
And when this life has been exhausted
There's something precious that cannot be forgotten
Our time together that we fought for
"I know," Sho whispered, his voice cracking. "B-but... it's just... you're a vampire... and I'm—I'm not... you'll live—forever... and—and—I...I'll die, but—you... you'll keep living—on without me...I just—I don't think—you'll—you'll..." He took a deep breath. "I don't think you'll—remember who I am... I'll just be a blur in the timeline." Kei knew hard it must have been for Sho to have said that to his face. Tears threatened to fall again as Sho let out a sob, bringing still more tears into his eyes. Kei pressed Sho's head against his bare chest, cradling him in his arms. The tears already on Sho's face rubbed off onto Kei's chest. "I'm sorry," Sho sobbed, pressing himself into Kei.
And even when my voice doesn't reach you
Even when we can't return to that time again
I'm here, continuing to cry out to you
"No, I'm sorry," Kei said, wiping his face clear of tears with the back of his hand. "I never thought to think—I was too caught up with my emotions to realize how much pain we truly are causing each other." Kei swore under his breath. "I knew it was too good to be true..."
Sho stifled a sob. "Kei?" he asked, quite hard to understand. "Can—can I—at least—have—my—pants back?" Kei laughed into Sho's hair bitterly.
Even when those times stream by
Like the feelings that make my body shake...
Because the evidence of our continued fighting remains
"Is your only concern for your pants?" Kei asked, a tear sliding down his cheek and landing in Sho's hair.
"Well, once I get them back," Sho said, regaining control of his voice, looking up at Kei. He wrapped his arms around Kei's abdomen. "My next concern will be what we should do now..." Kei sighed, kissing the top of Sho's head. He let go of the man's head.
"Well, if you'll stop hugging my abs," Kei said, poking Sho in the head, Then I can take off your precious pants and give them back to you."
"Oh..." Sho said, disappointment hidden in his voice. He snuggled closer to Kei's stomach. "But your abs are so comfortable!"
Someone continues to search for
The meaning of their birth
"Were you not the one that was just telling me that we shouldn't do these things anymore? And now," Kei said, trying to pry Sho's arms off of him. "Now you won't let go—of—me!" Sho's arms withdrew from around Kei. Sho jumped up, clutching his right arm, which was holding up the towel.
"God damn you, Kei!" Sho said. "You killed my arm!" As Kei looked closer at Sho's arm, he noticed many scratches that were beginning to bleed. "You could ask nicely!"
"I did..." Kei replied, beginning to take off Sho's pants. "But you didn't listen." He folded up Sho's pants and set them on the ground. Kei went to his dresser and rummaged around. When he walked back over to Sho, he was holding a small towel. Kei began to wrap Sho's right arm with the towel. Again, he was trying very hard not to just lick it off of Sho, but he knew he shouldn't, so he didn't. "There," He said, resting his hands on Sho's bandaged arm.
"Thanks..." Sho replied. Kei handed him his pants.
And no matter how much I've been hurt
And what became the thing that hurts me
I can't stop for anyone
"Go change, Sho," Kei said. "God knows what time it is." He went over and picked out a pair of red leather pants to wear.
"Two in the morning," Sho said, leaving and walking to his room to change. Kei sighed and walked over to the window, his red pants reflecting the moonlight. Now, as compared to a few hours before, the streets were deserted. Only a few stray dogs ran across the streets, barking loudly and growling at each other. Kei sighed again and waited for Sho to return.
It's fine if I only find a little bit of light
Even if today's sun doesn't rise
"The falling rain will someday cease, won't it..."
For so long Kei had awaited the day that he would tell Sho about his love. That day was glorious, for a little while. In that same night, he had hurt Sho physically, hospitalizing him for almost a week... Kei shook his head, leaving the memory behind. He still felt responsible... although Sho always reassured him that it wasn't his fault. And then... earlier that day, it had been glory for them both, and now Sho wanted that glory to stop for the rest of his life. Kei knew Sho meant it from the bottom of his heart, but even lower in his heart, Kei knew Sho was regretting, with every moment that passed, that he'd said what he did. Kei didn't blame him for his decision, he knew Sho was right. He would forget Sho soon enough after he died. Days pass quickly when you have nothing slowing your trip to nowhere down. Kei would love to spend the rest of eternity with Sho, but he couldn't bring himself to drain Sho's life from him. It would be too hard for him to even pierce the skin on Sho's neck. No... he couldn't even think of doing that... tears began welling in his eyes at all of the thoughts racing through his mind.
As Sho came into the room, he quietly closed the door and locked it. "Kei..." he said. Kei slowly turned, tears rolling down his cheeks. Sho's jaw dropped slightly. He had never seen Kei crying before. Had he said something he shouldn't have? He felt like he was rotting from the inside out. "Oh God, Kei... what's wrong?" Sho rushed over to the vampire, who said nothing. Sho reached out and touched the vampire's cheek. He didn't flinch, he continued to spout tears. "Kei..." Sho said worriedly, his voice cracking. He couldn't stand to see the person he loved crying...
"That's right, this rain will someday cease, won't it..."
The lyrics are Dears by Gackt...still no HYDE...maybe next chapter...I gotta find an angsting song...Mirror? Maybe...but that's still Gackt... (sighs)
Wow. I updated in like...not a long time...I wrote all of this at school up to where Sho says: "God damn you, Kei." I think the Mexican kid that sits in front of me in Geometry is beginning to wonder why I'm always writing underneath my desk...heh heh heh...xD