NOTES:
YaoiKitty: Nah, that's okay…I've got them all book-marked, but I just might feel like putting in Pink Floyd lyrics or Zeppelin lyrics or Association lyrics or Fleetwood Mac lyrics every once in a while…
Chapter Eight: Fight, Fight, Fight!
Kei and Sho were hatching a plan to get a week to themselves so that they could work out their "situation". Kei was going to tell the others that Sho had a horrendous fever, along with the flu. Sho prayed that his friends would buy their story as he wished the vampire good luck before Kei left.
"I don't want any of you catching the flu from Sho," Kei explained to them as they sat in Shinji's bar that night. Toshi, Shinji, and Shinji's wife were sitting at the table, staring at Kei. "We can't risk our whole team catching the flu and being out sick for weeks."
"Wait a sec, Kei," Shinji said, eyeing the vampire suspiciously. "If you don't want anybody sick, why are you still staying with him to take care of him if anybody can catch it?"
I pretended not to notice
And stared far out the small window
The angel's voice spreading in the sky
Was embraced by the wind
"I'm a vampire," Kei said sternly, standing up. "I heal quickly."
He returned home, locking all the doors and windows; double-checking the blinds as well. Sho was sprawled out on the couch, staring blankly at the television. The remote was in his hand as he flipped through the channels rather lethargically. As Kei finished locking everything, he walked over and stood in front of the television. Sho neither said nothing nor made any motions. The only sounds were of the low hum of the television and the clicking of the remote.
"Sho," Kei said walking over to the man, who was still blankly flipping through the channels. He seated himself on the edge of the couch right in front of Sho's chest. He stared straight into Sho's eyes, which were still focused on the television. Kei reached out slowly, not bothering to look away, and took the remote out of Sho's hand, turning off the television and throwing the remote onto the table. "Sho?" he said again, and no response came. "Don't ignore me." Silence. Then, "Fine."
Kei leaned forward while licking his lips. Swiftly, he placed his lips on Sho's, kissing the man passionately. Sho's arms shot out and wrapped themselves around Kei suddenly, bringing him closer. After a few moments, Kei pushed himself away from Sho.
"You tricked me!" Kei exclaimed while feigning shock, brushing his hair out of his face. Sho looked at Kei and grinned.
"You're so gullible," he replied, resting his head on the pillows. He rubbed his forehead. "God, I feel like I have the flu! But it's from two nights ago..."
"I hope you don't have the flu," Kei replied, poking Sho. "You'll get me sick!"
The commotion reflected in your eyes can't hear anything
Only now I murmured "It was a trick from when I was naïve"
Into the sky
"But you heal fast, so wouldn't it not affect you?" Sho asked.
"I don't know..." Kei replied, curling up next to Sho. "I've never been this close to someone before to catch a virus... unless I'm drinking their blood."
"Oh?" Sho said, raising an eyebrow. "What about the other night when we were having—"
"I mean—" Kei interrupted. "—in other generations... I'm just... a monster to everyone." Sho stifled a gasp, although he knew it was true; he just didn't like it when Kei beat himself up. "I've never had anyone to get close to."
Sho wrapped his arms tighter around Kei. He leaned forward and whispered gently to him, "You have me now." Kei smiled.
Turn, turn... Inside of the time that left me behind I am, now,
les misérables
You who I loved too much are on the other side of the wall
Softly smiling
"I know I do." He replied. "But it won't last forever... you know that, I know you do. Hey! That reminds me..." he turned to look at Sho, who was grinning.
"I think I know what you're getting at," Sho replied, whipping one of his many braids back behind his shoulder. "About the other night, right?" Kei nodded.
"Yes, and that's part of my point... not that part, Sho," Kei said as he noticed Sho's perverted grin. "I mean the serious part." Sho's smile faltered.
"Kei... no." Sho replied seriously, losing his childish charm. "No... I don't want to talk about it!"
While blasted by the cold wind
I relived my memories in the returning night
The melody I softly sing to myself
Is carved away by time until it vanishes
"But Sho," Kei replied, reaching out to touch the man's face. "You'll have to face it sooner or later... wouldn't you think sooner is better than lat—"
"NO!" Sho yelled, pushing Kei off of him and standing up, furious. "I don't want to hear it!"
"No, I don't want to hear it, Sho," Kei replied, sitting up straight, staring at Sho, his eyes cold. "Any time I bring up the subject, you push it away! You'll have to face it now or never!"
I can't forget the sadness that I cannot return to
Even now, my body that cannot taint the flickering emotions
Seems to break down
"Then I choose never!" he replied fiercely. "Kei, I love you more than anything in the world and I don't want to lose you!"
"But I'll lose you! When you die!" Kei replied, angry at Sho's stubbornness. "Sho, you know I'll live forever, and you know that for a fact. But for some reason, it doesn't trigger in your mind that you won't live forever." He stood up, noticing Sho's crestfallen face, and touched the man's cheek gently. "Sho, you'll have to face that now. If you don't, you'll live in doubt forever... Sho-kun," he wiped away a falling tear on Sho's face with his thumb. "I don't want to lose you just as much as you don't want to lose me, but we have to face this..."
Where can I go to make my loneliness vanish
"I a l w a y s h a v e t o m o r r o w..."
Sho shook his head vigorously. "No, no... no!" he whispered to Kei, beginning to sob.
"Yes, Sho... yes," Kei whispered back, pressing Sho's head to his chest in comfort. A painful memory flashed back to him as he did this…
"Don't change your schedule to match mine, Sho! You have a life! I don't! You have friends that love you, so don't waste their friendship sitting here in the dark during the day with me!"
"Sho... you know what we have to do," Kei whispered to him, backing up so he could hold Sho on the couch. "We can't keep putting it off…you know that." Sho nodded, pressing his head into Kei's white peasant-cut blouse. "Sho, you're going to make me cry!" he said half-jokingly. Sho let out a part sob, part laugh.
"I'm sorry," Sho replied, hugging Kei from where he was positioned.
"Just like years ago..." Kei whispered. "You'd cry like a baby and sleep like one afterwards... I envied you for that ability... I'd hold you and comfort you, cradling you in my embrace as you cried and your worries would wash away... Does it still work, Sho?" he asked. Sho slowly nodded, rubbing his tears into Kei's shirt. Kei continually ran his hand over Sho's hair in comfort, rocking gently, listening to Sho's muffled sobs. "Eien o yume miteta ano koro no bokura wa itsumademo hanarezu ni dakiatte waratteta." Kei sang quietly into Sho's hair. Minutes passed.
Sho continued to sob into Kei's shirt until he could regain control of his voice. "Kei." He whispered, still trying to steady his voice. Inside of him, the name brought anger, but Sho didn't know why. Sho quickly pulled away from Kei, sitting up. Kei stared into Sho's eyes, which were bloodshot and red, the childish twinkle gone. The warm sapphire eyes had turned cold; his chest was rising and falling quite heavily. Inside, Kei was slightly afraid. He had never seen Sho more serious that that moment in time, and he feared it.
"Sho?" he asked timidly. "Are you—all right?"
Turn, turn... Inside of the time that left me behind I am, now,
les misérables
You who I loved too much are on the other side of the wall
Softly smiling
"No, I'm not all right," Sho said, anger flaring up in his voice. "You keep pushing me away from you so we can't get as close to each other as we want." He grabbed Kei's collar and pulled him close, blue eyes staring down brown. "I love you, but you keep pulling away! Kei, I don't want to lose you again... I don't need you to run away for months and then show up again, I don't need that!" He pushed Kei back into the couch, letting go of his collar. Sho stood up, with Kei staring at him as though he was mad, his own eyes growing ice-like once again.
"I push you away out of love. I push you away so you don't get hurt!" Kei replied, more viciously than he meant to. "I'm a monster, a vampire! I don't love, I kill to live! I'll live as you slowly decay in front of my eyes. I don't want you to get attached to me and I don't want to get attached to you because I don't want to hurt you! I never wanted to feel the pain of losing someone I love, but I will. I'll feel the pain of losing the only person I've ever loved and there's nothing I can do about it!"
"Everything I do is for you! It's all for you, Kei!" Sho cried, angrily. "Make me like you!" Kei gasped, his eyes widening and losing their ice-like look.
Deeply, deeply falling inside of the dream that I only started to forget I am, now,
les misérables
"How can you say that!" Kei hissed evilly. "How can you even think that! After all the horrid things I've told you about this lifestyle? If you can even call it a lifestyle. It's horrible! I told you once before and I'll tell you again; I would never make you like me! I would never want you to have this fate as your outcome!"
Sho's gaze faltered and he looked down at the carpet. He could hear Kei's heavy breathing, but could find nothing to say. Anger and resentment were overflowing within him, but he just couldn't face Kei. He finally managed to look at him. Kei had his arms crossed over his chest, poised in anger. Sho took a deep breath, ready to let out what he wanted to say.
"I don't care what the lifestyle is!" Sho fumed, anger pouring out of him. "We can be together forever and we'd never have to lose each other! Don't you get it, Kei! How can that be—"
"YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!" Kei yelled. "It's not that simple! It's not fun and games! Besides," Kei lowered the tone of his voice slightly, becoming more serious than angry. "You'd miss me too much if I were to leave." He looked at Sho, who was shaking a bit, trying not to explode in rage and fury.
Kei's voice began to rise again. "I should just leave you since you don't get any part of my condition!"
Only this unattainable desire... it's filled with sighsSho's blinding rage overtook him once again at his words. As Kei grabbed his cloak, Sho began to yell. "Fine! Leave then!" He walked over to the door and opened it, glaring at Kei. "See if I care!"
Kei walked over and stood in the open doorway, turning to Sho, a small smile on his lips. "You'll miss me soon enough." he said. He quickly walked down the steps as Sho slammed the door shut.
On Kei's side of the door, Kei turned around, his eyes widening as he realized that Sho had just shut the door behind him. A plan formed in his mind as he smiled, turning back around and heading out onto the dark streets of Mallepa.
You who I loved too much are on the other side of the wall
Softly smiling
Sho slammed the door, shutting Kei of out his life. As he rested his head on the doorway, he realized what he had just done. Frantic, he pulled open the door, to meet nothing on the other side. Jumping down the few steps, he looked both ways down the street. Empty.
"Kei?" he called frantically. "KEI!" He yelled again. Nothing. I'll prove to Kei that I can live without him. I know I can, Sho thought hopefully. I'll beat him. I will. I can.
Sho walked back inside, closing the door behind him. With that, he shut Kei out of his life... forever...
You who I loved too much are on the other side of the wall
Softly smiling
NOTE: Try to guess what they're talking about when they said "About the other night, right?" If you guess correctly, you'll be my hero. Just, DON'T LOOK AT OTHER PEOPLE'S ANSWERS OR KYO WILL EAT YOU (and any cake you have lying around the house…Kyo plus Cake equals Scary!)!
Sarenia: OOOOO! Wonderful cliffhanger! (sarcasm)
Why thank you... WAIT... never mind...
TRANSLATIONS:
Eien o yume miteta ano koro no bokura wa itsumademo hanarezu ni dakiatte waratteta: At that time, the two of us were dreaming about eternity / We held each other and laughed like we'd never part
The lyrics are Mizèrable by Gackt... still no Hyde... DON'T KILL ME PLEASE! And I know they're out of order at the end, but it fit in with the chapter, so NYAH!