Title: Meaning of Snow

Pairing: RuSen

Disclaimer: I do not own Slam Dunk.

Summary: The snow is falling one by one, as one man pours his heart in a letter, where his feeling will remain unsaid, unknown to the other.

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Meaning of Snow

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25th of December

Dearest Akira,

I don't know why I'm a writing you a letter right now. Perhaps I'm in my mushy-mode right now, but then again, maybe I'm just making up an excuse in order for me to make you a letter.

The snow is falling one by one. Can you see it? Somehow, it represents you, because for me, snow represents beauty… and you are no other but beauty for me. I sound different, don't I? Well it's because you've changed me. You allowed me to feel different kinds of emotions, whether it is happiness, sadness, pain or even love.

But you know what, I'm happy, because finally, I'm sure that I've already gotten over you. True, I can still feel my heart beating faster and slower at the same time yet unlike before, I can now talk to you like how it used to be. I can now act normally without any act of hesitation. I can now say the things I wanted to say without hesitating whether I should continue or not. I'm happy, really I am.

For once, I had proven myself wrong that you'd forever haunt me down from the place where we used to meet, up unto my very dreams. Yet until now, I can't help but wonder, whether I had really fallen or not. I would gladly believe that I have not, although I would be deluding myself then. Maybe I really did fall or perhaps at the peek of falling. My feelings towards you are so unclear that I can't seem to understand why I care so much for you yet I've met you not so long ago. But one thing for sure, you've changed me. I became a better person because of you. The events we've been through maybe nothing but a spur of a moment to you but it means a lot to me because I have grown each day yearning for your smile, for your lame jokes, for your touch … for you.

But this I tell you, whether I had really fallen for you or not, one thing will never change, will always remain, and this is no other but the feeling I have for you, that you'd always remain special to me, whether in a friendly way or in a stage higher than friendship. But like what I said a while ago, I've already gotten over you, so by this time, you're no other but a friend to me. A friend, who will always stay closest to my heart that when I come to the point that I'm already down and weary, I'll think about all the hardships we've been through and smile.

It has truly been an honor. Merry Christmas.

Kaede

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knockknockknock

"Oi Kaede! Let's go, the train will be leaving after 5 minutes. Uozomi is cooking a special dish, we better come on time before Sakuragi finishes it all."

"Hai. Coming."

I then folded the letter I made for him neatly and placed it inside a clean white envelope.

"Sorry for waiting."

"No problem. Let's go."

I locked the door of my apartment and threw the letter on top of the overflowing garbage bin.

Things would be easier this way. This way, I would spare him the pain of rejecting an old friend. Let I alone carry this pain. I alone.

"The snow's beautiful. Oh. By the way, Merry Christmas Kaede."

"It sure is. Merry Christmas."

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owari

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A/N: This is my first Senru fic. I made a letter for my uhh.. friend and somehow, I felt my love for Senru thru that letter. Anyhow, Merry Christmas minna. Ja ne.