A/N: aaaaaaaawwwwwwwww thanx for all of your reviews I'm kinda thinking this might be a big story with lodza reviews like together forever by DerryBabe and stuff oh well here is the Chapter

Disclaimer: well… I don't own XS or the characters so anyone who wants to sue GO SOMEWHERE ELSE

Chapter 3: Facing Life

Kimiko sat on her bed, crying hard. She didn't want her life like this, she wanted it like it was before, just her, her mother and her father…

Her father

Why did he have to go away… too far for her to help, too far in for her too pull back, too far in for her to grasp tightly, too far in…

Her father

Was nothing but a dream for her to believe in, nothing but a dream for her to try and catch, nothing but a dream for her to wish upon, nothing but a dream…

Her father

Was a soul lost in the darkness of the forest, a soul lost in the deep dark maze of death, a soul lost who doesn't belong where he was, a soul, lost…

She wished she could see him again, it wasn't supposed to be like this, she remembered when she last saw him, she was only 8, she remembered it so well

FLASHBACK

"goodbye darling" shouted Kimiko's mother, her Kimiko's father was going for a check up. Kimiko began to scream and shout as she always did when her father went away, even if it was for a few minutes .He waved goodbye to his loving wife and screaming child. "I love you both" he shouted as he drove away.

END FLASHBACK

Kimiko thought about his last words to them ' I love you' the words repeated in her head, she though of the different types of love and hate, she loved her teddies but she LOVED her dad, Kimiko hated homework but she HATED Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian, she thought of how much she hated him, the pain he had put her mother through, emotional and physical, just as Kimiko had thought that her journey up the dark hill was over it just got worse, bigger and steeper, she wanted to stop, jump off and be with her farther forever, but she knew she had to go on, for her mothers sake. But she wanted it so bad, just to stop, jump, and felt the cool air rush against her face, blowing her hair back, falling through fantasies of love and peace, the good times and the bad, through purple bubbles and fields of pink blossom. Heaven, she wandered what heaven was like, anything but this, she thought to herself. She was sinking into darkness, evil, hurt, pain. She wished a silver rope would fall down and rescue her before she was in too deep.

Kimiko went and sat on the stairs again, looking at her mother, still on the floor but was no longer crying. Brian walked in and looked at the sad sight of her mother on the floor. He held out his hand for her to grab, she put her hand in his and pulled her up, he stroked her face and then began to kiss her, Kimiko didn't know why her mother had accepted the kiss, but after a moment she pushed him away, Brian seemed to try to kiss her again but her mother wouldn't let him,

"no… get off of me you…you stupid, ass" she shouted, Brian looked at her, tears were in her eyes.

"don't you call me that you whore" he shouted and hit her very hard around her face, he pulled his hand back to hit her again but was stopped by the cries of Kimiko

"STOP… please stop" she shouted down the stairs. She ran to her mother and then face Brian. Brain looked at her, but said nothing. "How could you do this, just walk into our family and hurt my mother" Kimiko shouted at him

"how DARE you, you little hoe, go to your room" Brian shouted at her, Kimiko looked at the floor and then at Brian.

"NO" she said firmly "I am not going to let you do this to my mother any more, I will do what ever it takes, I swear" she shouted, Brian glared at her, but it didn't scare Kimiko, she was ready to stand her ground. Whatever he was going to do, she could face it. She stared him in the eyes, her eyes filled with flame and anger. Brain could see that she was not scared of what he was going to say. Brian looked at her and then broke that silence with his deep echoing voice.

"You wouldn't know anything about love, are you in love?" he asked coldly, Kimiko didn't answer. "do you have a lover, no and I don't think you will ever find one" he said. The words hovered in front of Kimiko, sinking in and tearing her apart.

"no…" she said quietly tears in her eyes "no… I- it's not true" Brian looked at her, triumphant, she closed her eyes, a single tear fell down her face. She tried to hit Brian, her delicate hand throwing its self at him, but Brian stopped them, holding her by the wrist. Kimiko tried to pull out of his grip but was unsuccessful. He began to twist her wrist, Kimiko screamed out, closing her eyes in pain, tears streaming down her face. Kimiko opened her eyes to try and find her mother in the room, she spotted her in a corner, huddled up. Kimiko tried to break free, pulling as hard as she could. Brian let go and Kimiko fell backwards onto the hard lino floor. She looked up at him and then at her mother crying in the corner, she had to get away. Away from this life, any life was better. Even on the streets. She pulled herself to her feet, and took one look at Brian before running up to her room…

A/N: well I took a LONG time deciding weather to leave it there or not and I decided to leave to there so… C U na d please review. I will be updating shortly… really shortly