I don't own Inuyasha...that is all...oh yeah; I don't own the song in this chapter either
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Chapter Four: Thinking Of YouIt's been a month since Inuyasha made the most heartbreaking decision of his entire lifetime. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't stop thinking about Kagome. When he was staring at the sky, her face was smiling down at him, whenever he was sitting up in his favorite tree, he was thinking of how they met, and the times she shed tears for him. Whenever he slept, in his dream was Kagome...Kagome, Kagome, and nothing but Kagome. He thought he was going to go insane without her by his side, like she always was. "No. I can't let her be here anymore. It's too dangerous. In her time everything will be safe...here, there's nothing but demons to search for the shards and out to get me...and I drag her into it. I wish she never came here in the first place. The Shikon No Tama would have been whole and everything would have been normal! But Kagome had to go and free him, then go through all that danger, and shed more tears than he ever thought a girl could shed for a hanyou. He gritted his teeth together, and clenched his fists. "Damn you Naraku! Damn you to hell!" he growled under his breath. Then as the thought of Kagome came to his mind, he relaxed, knowing she was safe and away from all of this.
Miroku walked up to his hanyou friend. "Inuyasha, if we're going to go and collect the rest of the jewel shards and go after Naraku, we better get a move on!" Miroku said, seriously, as he sat down beside Inuyasha, who was now sitting under a willow tree, his head lowered, thinking about the usual. "I miss her, Miroku. She was my strength. She was what I fought for all this time. Not Kikyo. Kikyo is just a friend to me now. A friend who isn't alive...just an empty shell with other's souls...and a lack of her own." Miroku stared at his depressed friend as he poured out all of his thoughts out to him. Miroku gave a slight chuckle, making Inuyasha glare at him. "And what are you laughing at, monk?" He snapped. Miroku shook his head. "Forgive me. I wasn't trying to offend you. I'm just surprised that you're sharing with your life secrets with a mere monk like myself. It's rather amusing." Inuyasha got up, walking away. "Feh. I don't know why I told you all that. Not like you would understand shit!" Miroku caught up with him. "You're wrong, Inuyasha. I have a pretty good sense of understanding where you're coming from. I wouldn't love a woman either if she were just made out of soil and ashes and who steals other's souls. That type of woman is not to be loved, for it has no soul of its own. She's just wandering the earth with no real intention of love, or hope." Inuyasha blinked, raising an eyebrow. "And you are the expert, aren't you? Especially when it comes to women." Miroku gave a slight smile. "Partly. But mostly because I'm a monk and I'm against the fact that person without a soul wants to take her once-called love and embrace death together. That's just not in my religion." And with that he walked into Kaede's hut to get Sango and Shippo. Inuyasha however, stayed outside, pondering on Miroku's words. "I reckon he's right. It's not right. No wonder I've lost all the feeling of love for her. Kagome's the real one." He said to himself as he waited for his friends to get a move on. Kagome...I wonder what you're doing right now? Are you happy? Please be safe.
Present Era
Kagome silently walked from school. She's been dodging her friends for the entire day, for she didn't have any desire to actually tell them what was going on between her and Inuyasha. She gave a heavy sigh when she thought of him. His eyes, his face, his voice, his arms that she felt so safe in, she thought of everything! Inuyasha...I miss you so much. Hojo asked me on a date again, and I had no choice but to accept, for I know I won't see you again. I hope Kikyo is making you happy. At least she's with you there. Where you belong. I had to move on as well. But I can't. She silently started crying. I miss you so much, Inuyasha.
That afternoon, she sat on the bench under the Goshinboku Tree. She sighed as she looked up at it, remembering the first time she and Inuyasha met.
: Flashback:
The boy's voice was cold and she could tell that he wasn't the pleasant sort. "You look pretty dumb there, Kikyo." Kagome got up. "You can talk?" Inuyasha sneered. "The Kikyo I knew wouldn't waste her time. Why don't you kill it like you killed me?" Kagome lost it. "That's it! Kikyo! Kikyo! Whoever she is, she's not me for my name is Kagome! Ka-go-me!" She was almost nose-to-nose to him now. "And I say you gotta be her, for there's no way you could smell so-!" his nose twitched as he sniffed her. Then he backs off a little. "You're not her." Kagome was a little relieved that he realized it. "I know! Whoever her is!" Then Inuyasha scoffed slightly and muttered an insult she heard pretty well. "You're right. Kikyo was cuter...much cuter." Kagome's eyes widened. What did you- Then the centipede picked her off the ground. "LET ME GO!" as she grabbed onto Inuyasha's bangs. "OW! OW! OW! YOU LET GO!"
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Kagome gave out a little laugh as she remembered. She was afraid of Inuyasha then for he tried to kill her for the Jewel of Four Souls. But she got so accustomed to him, and when she saw Kikyo kiss him, she knew for a fact that she fell in love with him too, on account of otherwise she wouldn't have felt such deep hatred for Kikyo. She sighed again as she hugged her knees, looking up at the leaves of the Sacred Tree. "On my 15th birthday I fell through the well. And I ended up 500 years into the past! I never expect that I would fall in love in the Sengoku Jidai period with a half-demon! Hojo was the one I admired then, but Inuyasha...he's different. And I fell in love.
Inuyasha couldn't stand it anymore. He had to get a glance at her now. He climbed out of the well, and sniffed the air. She wasn't outside, that means she was inside her room. He jumped on her balcony, and really silently opened the door, just to look at her. She was staring at a picture...a picture of him! He smiled slightly. She was drawing something, and he caught a glance as she pinned it to the wall. It was Kagome hugging him. Then in her angelic he heard her sing a song, to the music that was playing. And it was just the music. She began to make him fall in love with her deeper.
"Everybody's got something,
They had to leave behind
Like regret from yesterday, that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering, how it could be now
Or might have been
All this I know but still I can't seem to let you go
I never had a dream come true,
Till the day that I found you
Even though that I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory, I've lost all sense of time
And my road can never be, for yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering, how it should be now
Or might have been
All this I know but still I can't seem to let you go
I never had a dream come true,
Till the day that I found you
Even though that I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
He noticed that she was crying! She shed tears, for him again!
"You'll always be the dream that fills my head, yes you will,Say you will, you know you will
You'll always be I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering,
Because love is a strange and funny thing
I try and try but I just can't seem to say good-bye
I never had a dream come true,
Till the day that I found you
Even though that I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
"So she loves me?" he asked himself. Then he saw her start turning around and he leaped back to the well, where he went back to his own world. He was smiling to himself. "She loves me. I never knew she did." He got out, realizing that it was getting dark. Then he smelled her...he smelled the ashes. "Oh no. Kikyo. Not now." He muttered to himself. Kikyo walked over to him gracefully. "Hello, Inuyasha." Inuyasha just nodded. "I see you're troubled. Any particular reason?" He shook his head, no. "But there is a reason. That girl that you've become so fond of lately is missing." She said, smiling slightly. He frowned. This is none of your business, Kikyo! He thought angrily. He felt the jewel shards grow hot against his chest. "I came here for the remaining jewel shards...and for us to embrace death together. What do you think?" She asked, placing a hand on his cheek, and caressing it gently. Inuyasha frowned deeper. "No. I'm not going to hell with you, Kikyo. I'm not done living yet." He answered, boldly. He was about to say more, but she silenced him with a kiss. His eyes opened in surprise. He moved away. "No! Kikyo, I'm not ready for this yet." Kikyo nodded. I understand, as she wrapped her arms around him. Desperate for Kagome's touch, Inuyasha figured that Kikyo was the closest thing he had, so he collapsed to the ground, being embraced by Kikyo. He closed his eyes as a tear rolled down his face. He figured that in the morning he would go and talk to Sabre. "Kagome...I love you." He whispered out of pure confusion and sadness. Kikyo's eyes narrowed in hatred for her reincarnation, but he still embraced him, knowing that Inuyasha's life belonged to her, not to Kagome, and she was going to keep that in her possession. This time when she kissed him, he returned it, only because he imagined Kagome holding him, assuring that he will never be alone. Kikyo deepened the kiss and he still returned it. She knew why he was returning all her movement. Kagome was that reason.
Kagome's time was filled with snow as well, as she looked up at the sky, in her warm clothes as she stood under the sacred tree. "Kagome! Kagome! Ayumi is on the phone!" Her mother called her from the house. "Coming!" Kagome answered, and paused for a second then ran into the house.
"Hello?" She asked into the tube.
"Kagome! Hi! How is your laryngitis?"
Kagome sweat dropped. Stupid old man... "Uh...it's gone."
"Great! Then you know that we have a talent show rehearsal tomorrow!"
Kagome's eyes widened. "No! I completely forgot! What are we doing?"
"We're singing a song...you know...the one you sang once? By Do As Infinity or something?"
Kagome sighed. "I'm the singer, right?"
"Who else knows the words? We're dancing too."
"WHAT?"
"You're a great dancer, it's going to be fine! Hojo will be proud of you!"
Kagome muttered. "That's what I'm afraid of..."
"Huh-?"
"Oh nothing! See you later then...and don't worry, I'll bring the CD."
"Okay! See you!"
With that, and a heavy sigh, Kagome went back into her room, watching snow fall onto the shrine grounds. "Inuyasha, I hope you have a merry Christmas." With that she plopped down on the bed, and closed her eyes.
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So how was this chappy? I think it was alright. I know it was short, but don't bite my head off! Anyways:
You've been listening to: "Never Had A Dream Come True" by Sclub7
R&R!