A/N: This is a INU?KAG fic, NOT a Hojo/Kag one. just want to make sure you readers know so you wont get confused later.

DISCLAIMER: i dont own inuyasha. sheesh, its not like im rumiko in disguise or anything.

Kagome's P.O.V.

Dear Diary

Summer is finally here, and all I have being doing this whole week since school ended was sleep, go on the computer, sleep, watch T.V, and more sleep. People often wonder how I had even been able to graduate from college, with me sleeping like a pig all day long and all. I guess all the teachers just loved me when I was in their classes. I seemed to always get A's despite the fact that I rarely paid attention in class. Hey, I guess I was pretty smart. Hehe... Well, I suppose I should give some credit to my ex-boyfriend – Hojo...

Chapter One

Heart Broken

Briiiiiinnnnnnggggg!!!!!!!! Briiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnggggg!!!!!!!!

"Ah, I hate phones! Why do people always call me so freakin' early?" I grumbled miserably and trotted over to the phone lying on my unorganized desk.

"Hello?" I was barely awake when I spoke into the phone. If whoever had called couldn't hear me on the other side, that's their problem. It would just make one less person to deal with…

"Kagome! Where the heck are you?" ok, that would be Sango, my best friend since like forever. I can't even remember when we started being friends. "I've been waiting for you for one hour already! Do you even know what time it is? It's one…"

"Waiting?" I began to regain mental consciousness as Sango's voice got higher and higher, louder and angrier. "Waiting…" I repeated dumbly to myself, while searched furiously into my sleep-hollowed mind for an answer. "Oh, ohh… of course! The party! The party is today, right?"

"YES! Now get your ass over here so we can start! Kouga invited his new girlfriend Ayame. Miroku and Hojo and everyone is here too; everyone except for YOU!"

"Alright, alright! I'm coming!" Argh, how can anyone be so impatient and irritating?

"I swear, I've never even seen a pig that sleeps more than you! Soon, just you wait Kagome Higurashi, We're going to find you with 20 more pounds of excessive fat on your body within less than a week…"

Alright, I heard you Sango. Sheesh, it's not like it's your body anyways.

Grabbed my coat nonchalantly I stormed down my apartment. I had been living alone in my apartment since two years ago, when I finally persuaded my mother that I was a big girl, and didn't have to have a baby sitter anymore.

Parents can get so paranoid at times. On the moving day, my mother sat like an empress on the sofa directing the moving people not to crash any of her precious furniture.

Flash backs

"Kagome!" my mother turned her head and looked at me. "I haven't seen you helping out with anything! I expect my daughter to be diligent and hard working."

'Well, your highness, I haven't seen you lifting a finger since yesterday!' I thought sullenly and glared at her. Then said out loud, "Yes, your highness, I'm going to work hard right now, just so people can praise how great my mother is at teaching me these oh-so-wonderful manners." I rolled my eyes and walked toward my room to check if they had left out anything important.

"Don't you talk that way to me young lady! You're only twenty and already using that kind of rebellious tone talking to me, your mother! Now, what did your teachers say to you about manners?"

Now, that's my mother. Whenever I did anything bad, it is always my teacher's, and everyone else's fault; everyone except for hers. As if she doesn't have any responsibility for her own daughter!

"Yes, mother, I promise I will be a good girl now!" With that, I moved into my room. I looked around me; everything looked so dusty and hollow, so… bare. My once messy and crowded room was left with nothing except for my bed. My bed… Oh no! They forgot to take my bed!

Now, my bed is like the closest thing to me, even closer than my mother… At least when I do things wrong, my bed would offer nothing but comfort to me, while my mother on the other hand…

Everyone was outside, watching me while I observed suspiciously and cautiously at the moving men, directing them to be extra careful with my bed. "Well." I smiled and turned around, taking in the familiar faces of my beloved family as much as I could. "I guess this is goodbye."

"What do you mean, goodbye?" my mother snapped.

'Oh goodness, do you have to quarrel with every single thing I say on my last day?' I inwardly groaned.

"You are going to call us, aren't you?" I looked surprisingly into my mother's serious face. "Don't forget to call me every night to inform me how everything is doing, alright?" Here we go again; mothers are so protective.

Without even a tear in my mother's eyes, she smiled up at me and waved. 'Seems like you have been anticipating this day.' I eyed her with a fake smile.

"Bye honey! Have fun! Remember not to do anything dirty and sick alright?" What? "Remember I'm always watching you!" Yeah yeah yeah, you have proven to me you're the most wonderful spy, since you had been practicing it since the very day I was born!

End of flash back

So that's how I ended up living alone is my little condo along with my lovely bed. I never really called my mother often; I presume that's the reason why every time I call her, her voice sounds as if tears would threaten to pour down any second. Well woman, it's a little too late now. I mean, you seemed so darn happy on the day I was moving!

Here I am, running toward a taxi, hoping it will stop before run me over. Thank goodness it did stop for me, barely touching my legs. How can people these days drive so ruthless? I often wondered.

"Ok, it's 1122 Hanakimi Street." I told the driver hurriedly.

"Err…"

'Oh for heaven's sake, you're a taxi driver! And you don't know where to go?' I was getting irritated; he should have known better than to test my patience. "Here, let me word it differently, it's the five star restaurant next to Sunshrine Mall?"

"Oh, the restaurant! You should have said it earlier." I almost died right there. Didn't tell you earlier???

I glanced downat my watch with infuriated expression. How the hell can anyone dive this slow??? I swear, my grandpa could have crawled faster than this. The driver eyed me nervously, obviously scared of the look on my face.

"Can't you drive any faster?" I barked. Ahh...I was certainly having a slow but painful death…on this taxi! Finally, after what seem like I had spend an eternity on the stuffy car,we stopped at the foot of the five-star resturant.I crammed 2000 yen into the driver's hand. "It's ok; you can keep the change to buy yourself a nice hot hamburger." hastily I told him before dashed out of the car; entirely failed to hear the remark that I paid too little.

'Sango will kill me! Please gods, I don't want to die yet. I'm too young!' silently, I said my prayer, wishing that the gods will forgive me for all those times I had ignored them and hoped it would save me a second slow and agonizing death.

Sango came out of the restaurant, obviously had seen me when she was inside. "Oh, you're still alive? I was thinking when to go to your funeral." She eyed me warily.

"Sorry, I am a little late. Let's go inside."

"A little???"

"So Kouga got a new girl friend huh?" I asked with interest.

"Well, yah. Her name is Ayume. And, well, Hojo…" She hesitated before continuing. "Hojo also brought his new girl friend."

I flinched when Sango mentioned Hojo's name. "Well, seems like everyone is getting new girlfriends these days. Haha…" I laughed sweetly, trying to cover the bitterness within me. But Sango wasn't a dimwit. She's always incisive and knows exactly what is going on inside me. It can get really annoying sometimes though, with her knowing everything and all.

"Kagome…" She looked sadly at me; straight in the eyes no less. With that same look that's piercing through my soul.

"Let's just go." I said silently.

When we arrived in the room that we were suppose to eat in, a new girl came and greeted us. She looked almost delicate. Her snake like soft body made her look as if she's an invertibrate. I thought if I gave her a simple poke she would fall for sure. 'I guess this is the new girl friend of Hojo.' Dark thoughts roamed through my mind.

"Well, hello! You must be Hojo's new girlfriend. What a pleasure to meet you!" I said with an overly joyful tone. Sango tucked on my sleeve but I shook her off. The new girl looked most bewildered. It almost made me want to puke when she looked innocently at me with those big, round, watery green eyes. I scanned through the room and spotted Hojo sitting on a sofa watching me intensely. I turned around, desperately tried to avoid his stares. I was about to cuss out loud when he trotted toward me, eyes still on me.

"Hey Kagome." He said with the slightest sadness in his tone.

"Hey." I replied nonchalantly, trying to keep my cool.But inside I was a mess; as if thousands of horses were tramping over me ferociously.

I was so glad when I spotted Kouga walking toward us. I was saved from the loathing conversation I had tried to avoid since our break up.

"Hey guys. I see you have met my new girlfriend Ayame!" Kouga lifted his arm and hung them over on Ayame's shoulder. What did you say???

I can felt my cheeks burning with intensity. Sango was not helping much either. She whispered softly, "I tried to tell you!"

As I mentioned earlier, the party took place in the most expensive restaurant in Tokyo. Kouga had been the richest kid in school seeing as his father owns the Toyota Company. And he just happens to be best friends with us, so don't get all jealous about it.

Kouga coincidentally assigned my seat right between Ayame and Hojo, two of the people that made me most nervous. I obviously still felt the guilt and shame around Ayame, and as for Hojo, I think we all know the reasons. I glanced around trying to take a peek at Hojo's new girlfriend. 'Argh, do I even want to?' But I couldn't locate her anywhere as my eyes roamed around every corner of the room. Huh, she's still not here yet. Not very consistent is she?

Ten minutes later, a new girl barges into our room, looking flustered. Probably from all the running she had done.

"Hey, sorry I'm late." She looked around the table, and smiled as her eyes landed on Hojo. Sullenly, she walked over and tooks the empty seat next to him. 'Well, I'm sure I'm not mistaken this time. This has to be Hojo's new girlfriend…Kikyo…'

"So Kikyo, you have been going out with Hojo for how long now?" Miroku smiled flirtatiously at Kikyo, my ex-boyfriend's new girlfriend.

"Oh, we've been going out for only about 3 days so far." Kikyo turned her head and smiled at Hojo encouragingly. Hojo on the other hand looked some what down.

"Argh, why are you looking so sad?" I eyed Hojo annoyingly. "You've got yourself a girlfriend pretty fast huh, play boy?" I added sarcastically. He didn't say anything. But Kikyo sure looks livid after the statement I made.

"Excuse me? Don't you talk to my boyfriend like that! Who do you think you are?" Her eyes were burning with hatred.

"What? Are you going to do anything about it?" I challenged, not at all impressed with her comeback. Sheesh, she's only a newbie in our group and already acts full of herself.

"Why, actually yes!" She immediately stood up. Before I could tell what she was up to, she poured her cup of wine onto my face. I sat there, stunned. Never in my life had anyone acted as wild as she just did around me. Sure, she had been the most popular and snobby girl, whom every guy worshipped back in collage. But I never really knew her. And here, at our first meeting, we're already enemies.

Sango rose up in outrage. Her finger pointed toward Kikyo as she screamed, "Who you think you are, giving us your down right low attitude?" She spat. It took me several minutes to realize that I was covered in sticky smelly wine thanks to Kikyo. I just took a shower this morning damnit! Tears were on the verge of pouring down my cheeks. I got up slowly, looking at Kikyo in disbelief and rage as she glares me back in dignity. I wasso mad that I thought I would have slapped and laughed in her ugly face! Then my eyes land on Hojo. He just sat next to Kikyo, looking down at his lap without saying anything. My heart suddenly felt a surge of anger and pain. I guess all these years together meant nothing to him. Sango rushed to my side and took me to the bathroom to prevent anything harsh or unnecessary from happening. She didn't learn nothing about my manners after all this years sticking to me. When we're finally in the bathroom, I couldn't control myself any longer, so I cried. Not just silently sobbing, but cried in loud yaps that could have perturbed the whole restaurant. Sango held me as I wiped all my mixtures of tears and boogers along with saliva, onto her shirt. Gross, I know, but I have to get rid of them somehow.

"You're still in love with him aren't you Kagome?" she whispered soft and soothingly. I detected a bit of sadness in her voice. Keeping my head down and I nodded against her shoulder.

After I dried all my tears, I slightly moved away and mumbled thanks. Sango merely looked at me sad and encouragingly while stroked my hair to further comfort me. To me she was much more than just a best friend, she was like my older sister, my angel whom the gods had sent from heaven. She never failed to be the one that guided and comforted me when I needed someone there for me. I looked at her shoulder and saw a big wet dark circle where I had wiped my disgusting mucus.

"Sorry." I mumbled as a slight smile played on the edge of my lips.

Sango frowned, "Do you know just how much this shirt had cost me Ms. Hagurashi?" She pretends to be mad, but failed miserably when I smiled.

"Do you want me to take you home?" She asked gently.

I nodded. Sango led me through the door and took me straight to her car after informing Miroku, who waited outside the bathroom, that everything was fine. I suddenly felt fatigue and tired, so I closed my eyes and let my mind take me away from the painful reality. I could still smell the wine that's stinking to my body and feel it sinking into the soft seatback. But I didn't care, I just wanted this to all to be a dream.