Chapter 5

Denying Feelings

Sango's POV

I sit in my room with her homework spread out in front of me. I'm not doing any of it but in my mind, I'm questioning all these newfound feelings for Miroku. Why is this happening to me all of a sudden? I don't understand…why would this happen to me after I blocked myself from having these types of feelings?

I just don't understand! Why? Why? I swore to Kagome and Ayame to never love another guy again…and now…I have to keep my feelings for "him" a secret. From him and my friends. It's only been a year and I'm already breaking the pack…

What has gotten into me? This is crazy! The guy's a lecher! How could I be…no I won't say it. I don't love him…that's just plain crazy…A knock came from my door. I quickly scramble to pretend to be doing my homework when the door opens up. It's my little brother Kohaku.

"Hey Sango? Some guy named Miroku is at the front door and he wants to talk to you…" Kohaku says. He closes the door. I get up and walk downstairs. What is Miroku doing here? Why me?

Miroku is at the front door leaning on the wall. "Hey Sango." He greets me.

"Hey Miroku. What are you doing here?" I ask.

"Well, I thought about it a bit. So do you want to go on a date with me?" he asks. He grins at me.

I shake my head and say, "I'm sorry Miroku. I can't." Which is the truth. I'm still bound to the pact and I can't break it unless Ayame and Kagome want to. And it has to be broken at the same time we made it.

"It's alright. I'll see you tomorrow then." Miroku says. He doesn't look hurt at all. Instead, he was still smiling with no trace of hurt…

Miroku left my house. I felt bad in refusing him but I have to hide my feelings…

Ayame's POV

I can't believe he kissed me! And I can't believe I'm having feelings for him! I can't show this feeling around anyone! I'm breaking the pack and I promised myself not to! What has gotten into me?

I sit at the bar in my kitchen doing my homework. This is crap…I can't love him can I? If I do then I have to deny them. I won't love anyone. I promised Kagome and Sango that. This will be harder than I thought. I thought I blocked my feelings out forever. How could he break through my defenses?

"Ayame? Is something the matter?" someone asks. I look up to see my cousin Kagura. Kagura and her little sister Kanna has been living with my family for the past few years because their mother died and their father was in prison. Kagura was like my sister and helped me through my tough times.

"Yeah. You know that pact Sango, Kagome, and I made?" I ask. This was my chance to get advice to repel my feelings. Kagura nodded and I continued. "Well, there's a new guy in my classes. He's nice and really sweet. Well, he has an eye for me and I'm starting to get feelings for him. I need to hide my feelings for him and from Sango and Kagome."

"I see. Ayame, you do need to hide your feelings. If you don't Sango and Kagome will think you betrayed them. But for this guy you're falling in love with, if you don't then you won't know where that might lead." Said Kagura.

"Thank you Kagura." I say. She smiles and nods.

Kagome's POV

I sit in my room trying to do my stupid Algebra homework. Grr…I hate math…but each time I try to do it, my mind goes back to Inuyasha. I won't think about him. Even if I'm starting to have feelings for him…love is stupid. End of discussion.

Love is stupid. I just keep repeating that over and over again. I'm falling for someone after I promised I wouldn't anymore. I was the one who created the pact and I'm the one breaking it! How could it happen? Sango and Ayame will be so mad if they find out…

I'll just have to deny my feelings. No one will find out about it.