Title: Cold
Rating: PG
Summary: A love says goodbye
A/N: this is just something that ran through my mind n a rainy day. It's about a girl I made up saying goodbye to her love. If he had been involved with a student I suspect it might be a bit harsh and bland. The whole tone of the fic is just letting my mind wonder on the colder side of life and letting go of your first great love. If you hate it flame me it might keep this sad girl warm. Love it, seek out your own great love and build on that.
I sit and stare
What else is there to do?
It's the first snowfall
You were waiting for this
Now more are waiting for this
They actually asked me
I told them to wait for the first snowfall
A cold and honest answer
They could have asked your parents but instead they asked me
The owls have already been sent out
Everyone has been waiting, put their lives on hold for this day
I don't want to stop watching just yet
You are waiting
Waiting for the final chapter
It would surprise you
How many people showed up
They cleared the hall its standing room only
People have spilled over the stairs
A sea of black and tears
I'm not in there
I'm standing silently watching you
They made you expressionless
You don't look peaceful you never did not even in sleep
They've asked me to walk out with you
I don't understand this ceremony but they will tell me
They carry you out
Everyone's head is bowed
I touch your cheek then take my place in the front row
Lucius is sitting next to me
It may surprise you but he has been my greatest comfort
He just pats my hand as the speech begins
"Fallen and taken
He has left this life to early
Word has been sent and you have all responded
May we never forget whom is lying here
Who shall walk him to the other-side?"
I stand
The dead dried flower from my hair is now in yours
Its suppose to be a symbol
Something about sharing and leaving
I don't really care
I'm still sad
I do not mourn you commanded me not to
Everyone knows now
The suspect many things but its no longer polite discussion
I kiss you, its only proper
I sit back down
Though there are many people this doesn't take long
Not many people are allowed to speak
They have began to move you again
I am at you side
They set you down in the grass
This is where you instructed you be taken
The Headmaster lights the flame
Everything has already been said
Lucius is behind me
He doesn't say anything just stands there watching
We all watch
No song or chanting just silence
Silence is the only thing that feels right
We leave, not wishing to watch your burning corpse
You rooms are sealed off for the rest of the year
You classes are cancelled until next semester
Most of your items were given to me, including your name
A gift from your father
We never talked about bonding but I accepted
It only seemed right
Your name
That's what they call me
I won't answer otherwise
I love your books
I where your house scarf now
The one you wore in school
No one says a thing
They think I'm mourning you
Its different here then the muggle world
Lucius pays his son and I visits
He sends owls whenever he can
I'd figured he'd be the one to hate me the most
He's made many offers on my behalf
He wants to see to my schooling
He wants to see to my future
I haven't decided my future
You pushed me toward university
I don't want to go still
It's my choice
"Miss Havelock-Snape?"
"Yes"
"What was the answer to number 4 on last weeks quiz?"
"Green?"
"Yes… Green was the color that offended the goblins of Ricrorch so that they attacked the goblins of Melikilin so they would change the color of their uniforms"
Boggs is mumbling about some goblin rebellion
I miss your voice
The way you growled when you were upset
Or how you purred when you were pleased or threatening
I make you sound like a cat
The bloody baron tries speaking to me of death
I don't want to hear it
I'll find out when I die like you did
I miss the nights around your fire place
Curled up on the floor ignoring your glares
You never liked me staying in your rooms
You rather I was gone
No one said anything
It was expected in your society
In the muggle world they would have put us both on trial
How different
Your father owled me
He questioned my direction after school
Apparently everyone was expecting our announcement
We were technically engaged
If sharing a bed and being seen together was considered engaged
Its how we got away with what we did
We both just saw something that ended our loneliness just a bit
Never did think you would give in
Took 3 years but you did
I'm as stubborn as you
To choose the potions master as my first crush
To chase him in my forth, fifth and sixth years
I was always considered odd
Neither cunning Slytherin, or clever Ravenclaw
You wouldn't have settled for a Gryffindor
Just steadfast, loyal, stubborn annoying Hufflepuff brat managed to crawl under your skin
I'm very proud