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She's not the kind of girl
Who likes to tell the world
About the way she feels about herself
She takes a little time in making up her mind
She doesn't want to fight against the tide
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
Can't bear to face the truth
So sick he cannot move
And when it hurts he takes it out on you
And lately I'm not the only one
I say never trust anyone
Always the one who has to drag her down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
The trick is to keep breathing x2
She knows the human heart
And how to read the stars
Now everything's about to fall apart
I won't be the one who's going to let you down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
I won't be the one who's going to let you down
Maybe you'll get what you want this time around
The trick is to keep breathing x7
By Garbage
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Chapter3: The trick is to keep breathing
"What do you want Dilandau?" A smirk came to his lips at the question. He leaned onto the hood on the red convertible. "Well? What is it? I don't have all day."
"Sure you do Hitomi."
"Just answer the damn question." Hitomi huffed in annoyance.
"It's simple really. I want my revenge for everything you've done to me. I want you dead." A laugh escaped Hitomi's lips. Dilandau raised an eyebrow in confusion. "What's so funny?"
"If you want me dead then go ahead, kill me." Dilandau was taken back at her remark. This was all going against his plan. She wasn't supposed to be embracing death but rather fearing it. "Better yet, I'll kill myself for you to save you the trouble."
"W-what?" he stuttered in disbelief.
"Now, if you don't mind, I have some self pitying to do back home." Hitomi turned around promptly and decided to go home taking the short cut.
As Hitomi walked up the steps of her home, a firm hand grabbed her by the shoulder and spun her around. She rolled her eyes and turned back to the door. "Could you please just leave?"
"You're not supposed to be like this." Dilandau spoke in a growl. Hitomi turned around looking not at all pleased.
"You know, you're right. I'm not. I'm supposed to be happy. I'm supposed to be out having fun. But-" she stopped herself. What was the point in telling that psychotic pyromaniac her problems? He wouldn't care in the least bit.
"But what?"
"Never mind, just leave me alone." She unlocked the door and went in, slamming the door shut on Dilandau's face. His eyes narrowed in both anger and curiosity. He wanted to know who had beaten him to making her life a living hell.
Hitomi locked the door behind her and went straight to her room. She shut the door behind her and fell backwards onto her bed. She rubbed her temples and telling herself what just happened was an illusion. There was no way he could be there on Earth, just no way. She shut her eyes and hoped to drift into a peaceful sleep. However, she would once again be deprived of it.
"Okay, you tell me right now why you want to die." Hitomi frowned inwardly and sat up right.
"Don't you have better things to do other than bug me?"
"Answer me or-"
"Or what? Kill me? Alright, go ahead." She was making his blood boil. All the time he had spent on planning his revenge seemed useless now. He could never get his plan to work. He jumped out of the windowsill and left. A new diabolical plan had come to mind. You just wait Hitomi…you're gonna wish were never alive after I'm done with you… a sinister grin came to his lips as he departed from the Kanzaki home.
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It was Monday morning and Hitomi was still half asleep sitting in class. The entire weekend she couldn't stop thinking about Dilandau. Was he just an illusion? A figment of her imagination? He couldn't have been, it all seemed too real.
The entire morning she stayed focused on whether or not she was losing her mind. Out of all the people on Gaea, why would he show up? Why not Van or Allen? When lunch had come around, Hitomi shook off the thoughts of her going crazy.
As she entered the cafeteria she found a few of her friends sitting down already. She joined them and listened in as they talked about their exciting weekends. "So Hitomi, what did you do on the weekend?" Hitomi was lost for words. She couldn't tell them about her encounter with Dilandau but he plagued her mind. She had to come up with an answer fast.
"I…I just hung around home, nothing special." She looked around and noticed that one of her friends was missing. "Where's Yukari?" she asked looking around the cafeteria.
One girl looked at her watch and knitted her eyebrows together. "She should be back by now. She's showing this new guy around school." Something within Hitomi's mind told her that she wasn't going to like whom it was that Yukari was showing around. She simply shrugged off the feeling and tried to maintain her composure.
"Hey Hitomi!" a familiar voice yelled over the noise of voices.
"Hey Yukari!" Hitomi replied with a genuine smile.
"Yukari, who was this guy you had to show around?" one of her friends asked.
"Ya, is he hot?" another asked with a wink. Yukari laughed and sat down across from Hitomi at the table.
"You'll just have to wait and see." She paused and looked towards the exit and smiled. "There he is." Her grin grew larger the closer he got.
Hitomi looked over to see what all the fuss was about. Her jaw dropped open and her emerald eyes widened. "Oh dear god…it wasn't a dream…" she muttered under breath. Yukari looked at Hitomi with a confused look plastered over her face.
"You know him?" she asked.
Dilandau approached the table grinning slightly. "Well, it's a pleasure to see you once again Hitomi."
Hitomi rolled her eyes and stood up just as he sat down. "I've lost my appetite."
"Leaving so soon Hitomi? I've just gotten here." Dilandau said with a smirk. Hitomi said nothing and walked away. Yukari watched with great interest. How does Hitomi know him? And why does she hate him so much? Yukari wondered.
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For the next few days Hitomi avoided any contact with Dilandau. If she saw him in the hallway she'd promptly turn around and go the other way. God, of all people, why must he be here!? She wondered time and time again.
However, since she was avoiding Dilandau, she was also avoiding her friends at the same time. Dilandau had befriended her friends and her dear friend Mayumi had fallen completely head over heels for him. In truth, Dilandau could have cared less what Mayumi felt towards him, just as long as she kept the act up he would get closer to achieving his revenge.
Yukari and a few of her other friends sat at the cafeteria table eating their lunch. Dilandau's presence was absent from the group due to an argument he got into with the chemistry teacher. There was no stopping Dilandau once he had the Bunsen burner in his hands.
"Yukari, what's wrong? You seem so out of it." Yukari was removed from her daze like state and looked at her friend blankly.
"Oh…well it's just that I'm trying to figure out why Hitomi is always ignoring Dilandau. It always seems that whenever I mention him she changes the subject instantly."
"Oh…I see…well, you know what. I think Hitomi secretly likes Dilandau." Yukari raised an eyebrow and gestured for her friend to continue. "It's so obvious. She's just afraid of getting into a relationship because she's still upset about the accident. Remember when Amano came back about a few months ago and she just completely ignored him?" Yukari nodded and her friend continued. "Well I remember she use to be all gaga over Amano before he left. Now why on earth would she ignore him and act like he wasn't even alive? The answer is she was afraid of losing him."
In a strange way it was making sense to Yukari. Hitomi had gone through a tough time and had even admitted to her that she was afraid of falling in love. Hitomi was scared that whom ever it was she got close to would be ripped away from her. "You know what Fumi, I think you might be right." A devilish smile came to Yukari's lips as she planned to get Hitomi and Dilandau together. Sure it could be seen as mean or cruel but Yukari knew this would be the only way to cheer up her friend.
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