A/N: WOW! 7 reviews for chapter 7! That's a bit weird….. Well thanx RINA, Asellus Night, Niffer, SabineballZ, Blue Demon, Rai Dorain and Amariie (thanx for the flower idea. It really helped me with this chap) for reviewing!

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Let me breathe
Let me breathe

I can't even think right now
Something's got me feeling guilty
Hurt you slowly but so surely
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?

Pushing into what I want
Because I am so goddamn selfish
Left you hanging, stopped relating
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?

I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go

(Is it you, is it me)
It's easier to let you go
(Let me breathe)

Let me breathe

I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?
Repeat

I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go
Repeat

Is it you, is it me
Repeat

It's easier to let you go

Breathe
Repeat

Let me breathe

Breathe
Repeat


Trust by Adema
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Chapter 8: Needles

Hitomi's emerald eyes fluttered open only to see bright lights everywhere. Am I dead? She asked herself. She blinked her eyes a few more times until everything was no longer blurred. She could see that she was in some sort of a room and she laid in an extremely uncomfortable bed. Her eyes searched the room in wonder.

Her surroundings seemed familiar, as if she had seen them somewhere before. That's when it hit her. She wasn't dead. She was in the hospital. Tears welled up in her eyes. Everything was perfect! She had locked the door so no one could get her. What happened to ruin it all?

"Well it's good to see you're awake." A nurse spoke as she went to open the blinds. She looked to Hitomi and felt pity for the young teen. "Oh sweetie, there's no need for tears."

"Yes there is." Hitomi hissed under her breath. She made a vow to herself to personally kill who ever found her.

"The doctor should be by later." The nurse informed and went to leave.

"Wait. How…who brought me here?"

"Oh some boy called and we sent an ambulance." A boy? Hitomi sat in wonder. Who could have- her eyes widened in shock as she realized who it was. Dilandau…but how did he find me? The door was locked…

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Yukari paced to and fro in the hospital lobby, impatiently waiting for the doctor or a nurse to inform her of her friend's condition. Her hands were clasped together tightly. She had been there since six thirty in the morning and it was now almost two in the afternoon.

"Miss Uchida?" the nurse asked as her dark brown eyes searched the lobby for the mahogany haired teen.

Yukari stopped her pacing and ran up to the nurse. "Yes?"

"She is now awake. You can go and see her if you wish." Yukari dashed passed the nurse and ran to Hitomi's room.

"Hitomi!" she shouted as she burst through the door.

"Yukari? What are you doing here?"

"What do you think? I'm your friend." Yukari walked over to Hitomi and leaned on the steal rail of the bed. There was a long and awkward silence that was filling the air. Hitomi fidgeted in the bed trying to get comfortable. "Hitomi…"

"Yes?"

"Why did you try to umm…?" Yukari paused and gestured towards Hitomi's bandaged wrists. Hitomi looked away from her friend and gazed out the window. She had wished this conversation never happened.

"Well…it's just, well…things haven't been going right and I just wanted out of life…so I did this." Hitomi tried to explain without having to get onto the topic of Gaea and how she felt betrayed by Van. "So…how'd you find out I was here?"

"Oh well Dilandau called me. He sounded really worried or panicky. He said something about you, blood and the bathroom. I told him to call the hospital and that I'd meet him there." Hitomi's eyes looked at her friend in shock.

"Dilandau was panicking?" she couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"Yes. Why you ask?" Hitomi shook her head and looked back down to her wrists. He was panicking? It just doesn't seem like him to panic. I know he doesn't want me dead because that would be nice, but… Hitomi became lost in her thoughts and Yukari quickly took note of that. She said a quick good-bye and left, leaving her friend to her thoughts.

Hitomi laid back and tried to relax in the extremely uncomfortable bed. So many things were going through her mind. She could understand why Dilandau "saved" her but did he really get all panicked like Yukari had said? As sleep drifted over her, she fell into a deep sleep.

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Hitomi stood in her bathroom alone, or so she thought. As she looked towards the door way she saw herself cutting her wrists. Hitomi got a feeling of déjà vu as she watched the thick blood drip down her arms. Hitomi watched carefully as she saw herself fall to her hands and knees then collapsing onto the tile floor.

Within seconds of her collapse came a knock from the door. Whom ever it was tried to open the door but was unsuccessful; the door was locked. They then pounded on the door, desperate to get in. Then suddenly without any warning, the person of the other side of the door broke it down by running shoulder first into it.

Not surprisingly it was Dilandau. However, it was the look on his face that surprised Hitomi the most. He looked at the fallen girl with wide eyes. He stood there almost paralyzed by his own confusion or perhaps fear. He knelt down beside her and felt for a pulse on her neck. He then quickly jumped to his feet and ran out of the room.

Hitomi followed Dilandau to the kitchen downstairs. He picked up the phone and dialed Yukari's number with shaky fingers. His voice was quaked and his bloodied hands seemed to tremble. Dilandau then hung up the phone and dialed the hospital, following Yukari's direct orders.

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Hitomi awoke with a jolt. Her mind quickly went over her dream, trying to decide if it was just her sub-conscience making it up or whether it was a vision. It can't be a vision. I haven't had one since I was on Gaea… The thought of having a vision sent a shiver down her spine.

A knock came from the door. Hitomi only guessed it was probably Yukari checking up on her. "Come in." she answered and set the bed so she could sit up right.

The door opened slowly and to Hitomi's surprise it wasn't her friend but someone else that she wasn't sure whether to be happy or angry with. There Dilandau stood, looking emotionless as usual. He was dressed in his school uniform, minus the cream coloured jacket. He had his left hand in his pant's pocket and the other held a bouquet of flowers.

Hitomi raised an eyebrow and pinched her arm. Was she still dreaming? Dilandau confidently walked towards Hitomi and held out the flowers towards her. "Yukari told me to give these to you." He stated quickly, hoping to wipe her mind of thinking he'd gone soft.

Hitomi accepted the flowers and for some odd reason felt upset that he wasn't giving them to her on his own free will. "Thanks." Hitomi spoke in a silent whisper. Her eyes slowly drifted from the beautiful assortment of flowers to Dilandau. As she looked at him she felt both happy and angry. She wanted to tear him to pieces for saving her but she also wanted to thank him. "Dilandau…why…why did you save me?"

"Because…" he paused and searched for the right words to say. He wanted to say "Just to piss you off." But he also wanted to say, "I just wanted to."

"Because…?" Hitomi repeated.

"Because how am I suppose to torture you when you're dead?" it was like a kick to her stomach to hear him utter those words. But then again she had to remind herself that it was Dilandau she was talking to.

"Yukari said you were panicked when you found me." Dilandau looked at her with wide eyes.

"Me? Panicked? Ha! I never panic." Hitomi could sense the nervousness in his voice which told her he did panic. Then perhaps my dream was true.

"You're lying." Hitomi said with a slight grin on her face. Dilandau looked at her with a stiff upper lip and held his head up proudly.

"You accuse me of lying?" Hitomi nodded and her smile grew. "Well you're very wrong and once you're out of this place you'll wish you had died." With that said, Dilandau stormed out of the room. You're such a bad liar Dilandau… Hitomi thought with a full grin on her face.

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A/N: Well hoped you enjoyed. I'm sorry I didn't post this chap sooner but I was really busy that last few days. So like always, if you want an e-mail when I update, just leave your addy in a review or e-mail it to me at