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If you are a homophobe turn around and walk away right now. If you just want to read a lime or lemon you'll have to wait cuz this fic is not about getting turned on. No, it is about the deep feelings one human/saiyan can have for another human/saiyan. Whatever, I talk too much, just read.

Falling All Over Again

Prolouge: Running Away

The plane started to move to the appropriate lane before takeoff as one of its stewardess checked to make sure that all passengers had their seatbelts on. Before seating herself she noticed a teenager sitting alone at one of the window seats with earphones on. She got to check if she too had her seatbelt on just in case. Good thing she did too because the young female was staring out the window and had not heard the captain's request to buckle up. "Excuse me Miss but you need to put on your seatbelt." Without acknowledging the speaker the teen slowly belted herself in and continued to gaze out the window. Satisfied, the older woman finally went back to her seat and got prepared for take off.

In less than five minutes the plane was moving smoothly away from the airport and many were looking out their windows to see the ground slowly disappear from sight as they rose higher and higher. But the teen with the earphones looked out without joy or wonder, this was nothing new to her. Instead she leaned back and closed her eyes in an attempt to actually listen to her music, but her effort was in vain. The thoughts that plagued her were still present and fresh in her mind, so was the pain she felt from her chest. She focused on that pain and tried to shut it away but it stayed like her thoughts. It felt like a black void within her, its purpose was to swallow her whole. The more she struggled against it, the stronger it became and the more damage it inflicted. She let out a deep sigh and wished for sleep to overcome her.

Bra…if only you knew. Images of her friends and family replayed in her memories, it happened only an hour ago.

/flashback/

A woman with rich dark hair stood with a man much taller than her, with tears welling up in her baby blue eyes. She reached out and wrapped her daughter in a bear hug that the man joined in with a moment later. "I want you to be good and stay safe, ok Panny. I know it's only going to be for a year but you are growing up so fast, by the time you come back you'll probably be taller than me!" Pan laughed at her mother's attempted joke and kept her own tears at bay.

"Now Pan, remember what I told you about your abilities." Her father told her in his strong but gentle tone. Pan let go of her mother for a while to tiptoe and give her dad a hug and peck on the cheek.

"Don't worry, daddy. Everything will be fine, I promise." She released her father to see her mother again. "And mom, I seriously doubt I even grow while I'm away." Everyone who heard her chuckled at the youngster's pessimism. She was 16 years of age but barely made past the five foot mark. She turned around and said her goodbyes to Krillen, 18, Bulma, Trunks, and Goten. She was really going to miss them.

"Don't forget to say bye to your favorite person now." Pan walked up to her beautiful blonde friend that she came to think of as an older sister. Marron was about four years older and was there for Pan whenever she needed help. If only she could have helped me this time. The two girls embraced with smiles on and broke away. At that time Pan noticed that the one person she really wanted to see before she left was at the edge of the group sitting on a bench. Marron followed her friend's sight and breathed in deeply. "You better go say bye to her before you leave. And don't worry about her; I'll still be here to look after her when you're gone."

Pan gave Marron one final hug, "Thanks and I'll miss you." She then proceeded to take the seat next to her best friend since she was born. Bra didn't look up or say anything; she only stared at the ground. The two sat in silence for a while before someone finally spoke.

"Pan, you better not forget me while you're gone." Bra said in a hushed and stern voice.

"Who could forget someone with a name like Bra?" Pan smirked. Bra hated the reference to her name as much as her father did with vegetables.Pan then did the full Son Grin, minus the head scratch, when Bra's mouth gaped open and eyes wide in disbelief. Those eyes quickly turned into slits and Pan knew this was the time to run. She got off the bench just as Bra's fist slammed down where she would have been. They took off in a child like manner running around the airport with Pan and most of the gang laughing. All of them were thinking around the same lines. They were all going to miss Pan's ability to make a bad situation funny. Then the final boarding call was announced.

/end flashback/

An unseen tear slid its way down Pan's cheek, then another. Silently she let them go and didn't bother to wipe them away. She didn't care if someone saw her in this state. It didn't matter to her, it felt like nothing did. She just wanted to let go of it all. Am I doing the right thing? Leaving everyone? Should I have stayed? No, I couldn't have stayed. It was either leave now or lose everything. I mean it won't be all bad. I'll be where I've always dreamt of going and doing what I love, and it will only be a year. I can survive a year. So one year at Japan's finest literary school studying writing, my passion, while I also do all those other school subjects. It's actually kind of cool and exciting, I hope I grow at least four inches. A faint smile touched her lips as she finally rested.

A/N:

If you have no clue what's going on and are one of those types that needs to know or you'll die of curiosity you'll wait for the next chapter. Then there are those that have already figured out what I'm writing and love it so they will also wait for the next chapter. I win either way! Peace.