Serina was pulling stuff out of her closet. Only one thing was racing through her mind, getting away from Hogwarts, away from Snape.
"Bastard," she said to herself pulling her shirts out of the closet and throwing them on her bed. "Thinks he is all that, that he is the fucking god of the world. Bullshit."
"Do you really think that?" a voice said.
Serina jumped at the sudden voice. She turned to face the owner of the voice, only to be faced with the person responsible for her sudden need to leave.
"What do you want Snape?" she asked turning back to the closet. Snape walked over to her and stood next to the closet.
"I have a few questions and you are going to answer them," he said simply. Serina started laughing while throwing another pile of clothes onto the bed.
"No, I'm not. You didn't want to know then, there is no reason for me to tell you now," she said.
Snape looked up and glared at her through his hair falling across his face. Serina's smile instantly fell. She was in awe.
"Even after twenty years he can still make me weak in the knees just by looking at him. Just remind yourself that he is the asshole here in this situation," she thought.
"That isn't going to work Severus," she said, walking toward the door. Snape was faster.
He grabbed her arms and pulled her to face him. "Talk to me. Tell me!" Serina looked up at Snape defiantly and tried to struggle against his grip.
"Let me go Snape!" she yelled. Snape didn't listen. He slammed her against the wall and held her in place with his body. Struggling didn't matter, because he wasn't budging.
Serina sighed. "What the hell do you want to know Severus?" she asked looking directly into his eyes. Snape took a deep breath.
"Why didn't you just get rid of the baby when I sent you the letter?" Serina's brow creased in confusion. That wasn't the question she was expecting.
"Well, I don't believe in abortion, and that perhaps I hoped that…that…" Serina swallowed and took a deep breath. "That I would come and find you?" Snape finished. Serina nodded. "Why would you leave if you thought that…"
"I was hoping that you would change your mind and that you never really meant anything, but as the years passed I realized that it was useless. You obviously didn't care enough about me to even try and find me. I knew that it was just me and Molly now."
Snape stepped away from Serina, but kept his hands on her upper arms. "Why America? If you wanted me to find you, why did you go so far away?"
Serina looked back up at Snape with fire in her eyes. Her anger was back full force. "I was heartbroken. I thought that on some level you cared for me, on some level you wanted me. That night when we made love, I thought that was what we were doing, making love. When I read that letter you sent me I knew that to you it was nothing more than sex."
Serina pushed Snape off of her and started punching him in the chest as hard as she could, Snape just stood there and took it.
"You said that you loved me, that you were thinking about marrying me. When I found out I was pregnant I thought that we would be a family. Then that damn letter came and I knew that you thought of me as nothing more than a quick release. I figured you were out with some other girl at that very moment, getting another quick release. I thought that I meant nothing to you. You broke my heart into a million pieces." Exhaustion finally caught up with Serina and she fell to the floor, her head in her hands.
Snape bent down next to her. He wanted to put his arms around her and help her, but knowing that he was the reason for her tears, he didn't. Finally Serina looked up again, but not at Snape.
"I loved you, more than anything else in the world. You were my first lover, my first real kiss, my first heartbreak, and you are the father of my first and only child. I don't trust myself anymore to make those kind of decisions anymore. I obviously can't make a good judgment of character."
Snape said nothing, just sat on the ground next to her. "Didn't you ever think about me?" he asked.
Serina turned and looked into the only eyes she has ever lost herself in. "I think about you everyday, even now. I always hoped I would run into you again, but now that I have I wish that I hadn't."
Serina stood and walked out of the room. Snape stood and followed. He grabbed her wrist and forced her to stop. She kept her back to him.
"I'm sorry," he said slowly. "I am not very good at apologizing. I don't do it much, but I'm sorry. I wish that I could go back and not send that letter, but I can't. I can only hope that you will give me a second chance."
Serina turned and looked at Snape. "Severus, I…" Snape cut her off by pulling her into a kiss.
The kiss took Serina by surprise and her first instinct was to push him away, but she had forgotten how good he was. Warmth spread throughout her body as she felt his lips against hers. She lifted her arms around his neck pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. She opened her mouth and he pushed his tongue into her mouth. Their tongues began a fight for dominance.
His arms encircled her waist, pulling her directly against his hard body. Her hands moved up into his hair, feeling the softness she had tried to forget.
Her hands moved down between them and started to undo his cloak and the buttons on his jacket. He groaned deeply.
When he groaned, she was pulled back into reality and pushed away from him. He looked at her with creased brows and confusion.
"I can't do this Severus," she said stepping backwards to the door of her quarters. She opened the door. "I can't be your muggle whore anymore."
Snape's eyes widened as he realized what happened. He fixed his cloak and walked over to the door. He turned to Serina.
"Please don't leave on account of me," he said before walking out of the door. Serina shut the door and fell to the ground behind it. The tears came no matter how hard she fought to keep them in her eyes.
Snape could hear the whimpers from the other side of the door. He just stood there and listened before walking back to his quarters.
He fell onto his bed and started at the ceiling. Sleep wouldn't come no matter how hard he tried. His mind was too involved with the woman who tortured his soul for nearly twenty years.
His hand raised to his lips and he remembered their kiss and how nice it felt. It was almost like the twenty years hadn't occurred. He thought to do something to convince her that he was sorry and that she really meant something to him.
"Even after all these years, I still love her," he said to himself. Finally sleep overcame him and he fell asleep, still in his clothes, and his mind still filled with Serina and his feelings towards her.