Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters. If I did, I'd probably be lying comfortably in a deckchair in the sun, overlooking the pool of my Beverly Hills mansion. I'd be sipping on my Strawberry Margarita, and of course, I'd be writing an episode that brings Doug back to the show!
What happened so far: Susan left from her own birthday party. Doug found her crying on the roof and wanted to take her home. She asks him in, they get drunk and end up sleeping together. When waking up together, they realize what they've done to Mark and Carol. They were both late for work, and Randi and Jerry already suspect something. Susan and Doug talked about their ‚mistake' and agree on telling Carol and Mark about it. Mark shows up at County for a surprise visit and immediately sees that something's wrong with Susan because she's acting really strange when she's around him. Susan tells Mark about it, and he gets really upset. While Mark argues with Doug about the whole topic, Susan makes plans with Carol for the evening, because she wants to tell her about it, too.
A/N : Thanks for the reviews, savedbygrace, Carbyangel, Calcumalator, PinkSparkle02, gezzy and also Cat, for her very special reviews.
I think I've already mentioned this in the intro, but once again: Carol is single in my story. She hasn't been in serious relationship again ever since she and Tag broke up.
CONFESSIONS PT. II
With her heart pounding really fast, Susan stood on Carol's front porch. She already knew that this would be even harder than telling Mark. She took a deep breath and finally rang the door bell. She heard footsteps coming closer, then the door opened.
"Hi Susan! I'm glad you could make it," Carol said and hugged her best friend. You wouldn't be glad anymore if you knew about Doug and me... Susan followed Carol inside and the two women settled in the living room.
"You ok?" Carol asked, when she noticed how tired and beaten Susan looked today.
"Ah not really. I've got a terrible hangover." Susan replied. And I've slept with your ex, she added in her head. But she couldn't start off with this right now. "How was your day?"
"Ok. I had to do two hours overtime last night, so spend most of my day in bed." Carol smiled. "Your party must have been great last night." "I wish I could have stayed longer, but I really had to catch some sleep. And besides, I was not too keen on seeing him flirting with all those twenty-somethings, if you know what I mean?"
"You're talking about Doug?" Susan asked carefully.
Carol nodded shyly. Susan shivered. Somehow she knew that Carol secretly wanted him back, but up to now, Carol had never talked openly about this. Apparently, the whole situation was even more complicated than Susan had imagined it to be. She glanced around the room, trying to find the right words to tell Carol about the whole thing. Suddenly she noticed some framed pictures standing on the little table by the couch. Pictures of Carol's family, the ER gang...and a picture of Doug and Carol. Oh my gosh... Susan was almost positive that she hadn't seen this picture the last time she was over at Carol's. Susan felt worse and more guilty with every second that passed. She just wished that Carol would already know about it. But Carol didn't have a clue about it. In her imagination, Doug was trying to hit it off with one of the med students or something, but it would never occur to her that he only person Doug had slept with that night was nobody else than her best friend Susan.
"Anyway, I'm hungry....What kind of Pizza do you want?" Carol handed Susan a menu from her favorite pizza delivery service.
Susan put the menu down. She a had tried to wait for the right moment to tell Carol, but she soon realized that the right moment to spell out to her best friend that she'd slept with her ex simply didn't exist. It was now or never. "I don't want any, thanks. Actually I just came over because....because there's something I have to tell you..."
Carol looked up. "What? Okay, just go ahead," she said interested. Susan nodded and sighed.
"Well, first of all... you know that you're my best friend...and I would never hurt you intentionally... but sometimes, really stupid things happen...especially when you're drunk... And I was very drunk last night..."
"Susan....what happened?" Carol asked, now sounding pretty worried.
"You don't want to know..." "I'm so sorry Carol...."
"Susan, what did you do? Tell me!"
Susan's heart beat really fast. Carol would hate her for what she'd done. Nothing would be the same anymore once she'd made her confession. As much as Susan hated to tell Carol about it, she knew that there was no other option. She couldn't turn back time, so she would have to face the consequences. "Last night....we got drunk.... we...that would be Doug and me..." She took at deep breath. "I slept with him..."
Carol's eyes widened. She stared at the woman who was supposed to be her best friend. She remained silent for a couple of minutes, dealing with the information she was just given. I slept with him – only four words...but four words that made a difference. Four words that would change everything forever.
"You didn't...oh please tell me you didn't," Carol said after some time with a very shaky voice. Apparently, she was really shocked and still couldn't believe what Susan had told her some minutes ago.
Susan looked down at her hands. "It just happened, Carol. I can't explain it... It didn't mean anything..."
"It didn't mean anything?" Carol asked, incensed. "I hope you know what this means to me!" She got up, ran to her bathroom and closed the door behind herself. Susan jumped up and followed her. She knocked on the bathroom door.
"Please, Carol, let me in..." Carol didn't reply, so Susan slowly opened the door. Carol was sitting on the floor, with her back leaning against the bathtub and her head in her hands. Susan sat down next to her. "Carol, I'm sorry..."
"Why Doug out of all the people? He's my ex... and you are... no...you were my best friend...At least I thought so..." "Susan you knew how much he means to me... Do you have any idea how much it hurts to see him dating a different woman every other week? Do you know what it feels like to know that the person you....the person you....love... is going out with like all of your colleagues...and to make it even worse...has an affair with your best friend?"
"We're not talking about an affair...it was just one time...Nothing but a stupid mistake..."
"As if that would make any difference," Carol mumbled and looked at Susan. You couldn't tell whether she was jealous or more annoyed and disappointed. Carol most likely didn't even know herself.
"I'm so sorry... I never meant to do this to you... I was so drunk that I didn't know quite what I was doing..." Susan reached out for Carol's hand, but Carol pushed her away at once.
"Susan, Doug is not my boyfriend anymore.... He can do whatever the hell he wants... He can screw anyone he likes, and I will pretend that I don't give a damn, because there's nothing I can do about it anyway." "But you! You know all about us... You know how much he means to me.""You're right...I knew that....but we all do stupid things when we're drunk...and sleeping with Doug was the biggest mistake I could make... And if I could, I would make it undone... Carol, you're my best friend, and I never meant to hurt you....it just happened," Susan said quietly with her eyes cast down.
"You'd better go now," Carol said sternly.
"Carol, " Susan began, but Carol cut her off. "You heard me."
"I'm sorry," Susan said one last time and slowly got up and walked out of the door. She turned around once more and glanced at Carol. "I really didn't want to hurt you," she said before closing the door behind herself.
.... TBC....
I know you all want me to turn this into a Marsan... but I can't.
Sorry. I wrote a Marsan once (So right so real so perfect, it's
somewhere on , too), but I didn't really like what I was writing
because I wasn't really convinced by it. And even though everybody
thinks I'm crazy because of whole Dousan idea, I really enjoy writing
this story. And as far as I know, it's the only Doug/Susan story on
here, whereas there are hundreds of Marsan stories out there and I
really enjoy the uniqueness of my story. Anyway, I finally decided
where I'm going with this story...some more twists, and things will
really never be the same again...
Keep on reading to find out :D