Beyond Reasoning
Chapter 8
Dreams
So there I sat besides Vash in another bus. It had been two days since the December discussion. We found out not to long after that that the bus would not arrive for another day to take us to our next stop which was May to then get to December. Looking beside me Vash was asleep. I knew why of course. The night before a rain unlike anybody had seen in Wyoming had come and sweapt through. I had been told this by some old folks in Wyoming while it was happening. Vash had stayed up all night trying to make sure the dikes didn't break so the town wouldn't flood. He told me to stay in my room at the hotel while it all happened saying it wouldn't be good for my stitches to be working like he was.
(flash back)
I was soaking wet standing outside the hotel with the 7' 5" outlaw standing there glaring at me.
"No," Is what he told me. "Don't even think about it Candy, your in enough stress as it is. We don't need the stitches to break open again, not in this weather where the hospital is going to be swamped!" Frowning I tried to put my best mad face on looking at him. I really wanted to help, even if it was some way of handing ponchos to the workers but Vash wouldn't hear of it.
"Come on Vash!" I shouted through the ran. "I can do something small.."
"No." Again that response from him. "You go up in the hotel room and I'll be back once most of the work is done." He must have realized I wasn't going to move so he picked me up and carried me to my room with me thrashing about like a little kid wanting something but not getting it. It didn't matter to him at all because he dropped me on the bed and before I could get up and go he had walked out the door and blocked it so I couldn't get out. Of course the idea of climbing out the window soon came after that but I decided not to fight it and waited there. I didn't know how I would freak if I tried going out the window, and Vash would have been pissed at me if I tried to help. So I laid there going to bed.
(end of flash back)
Glancing over at him I moved his blonde locks that wern't staying up over to the side of his face. He looked so cute sleeping and leaning on the window. A blush came to my cheeks as I thought about the concern he held for me. It was probaby guilt that he had because of my stitches his brother gave me but I still enjoyed it anyway. Even with the stitches I couldn't help but think I was in heaven with the blonde but I figured that heaven didn't have a million miles of desert and three burning suns over. I would imagen out of the two hell would be closer to what I described but again Vash wouldn't be in hell with me because that would defeat the point of sending me to hell to burn with Vash beside me. He made me happy which was one of the things that hell wouldn't do for someone. Chuckling I thought about what I had just thought and smiled to myself. Yawning I found myself sleepy mainly because I was bored out of my mind on this bus ride. There didn't seem to be any children on this bus ride so there was nobody to play around. So I decided to let myself take a nap. Getting comfy against Vash I leaned my head on his side and let my eyes slide down.
(Dream)
It was quit a nice dream, one of me sitting in the middle of a bunch of children playing. They where rushing about when I saw a figure coming toward me. A smile graced my face as I realized it was Vash. Standing up I walked over to him. Embracing me as I got to him I snuggled closer to him hugging him as well. I felt so safe in those arms like nothing in this gigantic desert could possibly hurt me. Looking up my eyes locked with his as he bent down slowly to meet my lips with his. That's when the mood of the dream changed considerably and I heard footsteps behind us. Turning around I saw the sillowet that I saw the second day in the ally
Knives.
Glaring I reached back trying to take his hand but only felt him shove me forward onto the grass that laid beneight our feet. Looking back I noticed Vash had grabbed his gun at his side.
"Don't you see human..." Knives's voice broke through as I turned toward the other brother glaring at him. "..We are plants, your a human, the spiders in this world. You don't deserve to live." He pulled up his gun and pointed it at my forehead. Turning back I looked at Vash pleading with him to put the gun down.
"Vash...please...don't do this! This isn't what Rem wanted!" Tears filled with my eyes as I crawled toward the ice cold greenish-blue eyes of Vash. He pulled the hammer back on his gun as I sat there. "..Please Vash...don't do this...I love you!" The sounds of two guns being fired echoed through my ears... and all I saw was feathers, feathers blowing in the black void..
(end of Dream)
I heard myself scream and awoke to it.
"...Candy..are you ok?" I heard his voice beside me say and an arm on my shoulders. My eyes darted around trying to figure out where I was exactly then everything came flooding back. I was on a bus with Vash who was beside me as I huddled against him biting my lip. on Candy I know your awake now, what's wrong?" I turned my head to see his soft green eyes looking all worried at me as I pulled myself away from him and tried to get control of my shaking. It was just a dream. Just a dream that scared the living daylights out of me.
"..I...I'm fine," I finally got out but my voice was quit shaken still and lied about the words I said. I looked down at my hands which where clenched together so much that my knuckles where white.
"..No your not," Vash's whisper came as his hand tugged at my arm closest to him. "What happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it," I responded quietly removing his hand from my arm and looked away from him. Like Vash needed to be told about my freaky dream and get him all worried even more over nothing. It was just a dream. I've had crazier dreams back on Earth. This dream should be no different.
But then why did I feel like huddling in a corner far away from the blonde outlaw crying my eyes out that I could possibly dream of him shooting me like that, his eyes so cold toward me. I hated those eyes, those heartless, cold eyes that screamed of murder upon the color of green. Feeling myself begin to shake I tried to stop it closing my eyes but feeling tears welt up and sliding down my cheeks. That dream hurt the most I've ever really felt. Maybe it was the fact that I had confessed my feelings toward the blonde in it and yet he did not aknologe my feelings. Maybe that's what scared me the most, that I would confess to him that I did feel quit strongly toward the blonde outlaw and he didn't think my feelings where of any worth. I hated rejection. Sobs came past my lips as I sat there hunched over the best I could considering the line of stitches upon my back. I heard faintly in one of my ears Vash shift positions where he sat beside me. That's when I felt his hands grab my sides and pull me up on his lap. Right now I didn't want him to touch me, even get near me..but with his arms wrapped around me the sobs stopped slowly and the shivers through my body sessed. I couldn't explain it but as I sat there in his arms, my head leaning against his chest, listening to the faint sounds of his heart beat I was calm. Turning my head I saw the sky line had changed from daylight when I fell asleep to night, one of the five moons rising above the horizon slowly, the giant whole in it quit visable since it was 80 lit up. Within a few days that moon would be full. Leaning my head back on his chest I just sat there for who knows how long. I felt Vash shift weight a few times as I sat there. I smiled to myself thinking about uncomfertable it must be for him but I was in heaven at that moment. I felt like a school girl in love at that moment. If only Vash truely knew how much I cared for him. How he wasn't alone in this world, even when I was on Earth. Hearing a change of breath I looked up and saw Vash's face relax and asleep. A smile adorned my face as the nightmare I had was pushed away looking up at his face. He was so cute. From the look of it he looked totaly human now, no body could misake him for a plant. Reaching up I touched his face and leaned up placing a light kiss on his cheek then leaning back down on his chest. I had done it. I had actully kissed the outlaw on his face. Sure it was when he was asleep but it was a kiss non the less. A giggle came from my lips as I covered my mouth and looked up at his face. His hands where holding me close to him so I wouldn't fall. So I leaned back more and closed my eyes deciding to try sleeping again. I figured I would have the best sleep I've had in a while wrapped in his arms and on his lap.