Beyond Reasoning
Chapter 20
Confession
I had been staring at my hand for a few hours. Today fear and dread filled my mind. Today was the day that I was going to tell her. Sure yesterday I was about to tell her a few times but everytime that the words where just on my tongue something would happen. Like back at the hospital when she had just woken up. Rolling over I looked ahead at the wall.
You've got to tell her brother.. Knives sent to me. He was probably still in his room. You don't tell her I will.
You can't. I sent back frowning at him. I just need the right moment for this.
If we where waiting for your right moment she might pass away of old age.. He sent. Laughing I realized how stupid that really was.
You said yourself that she isn't human and you saw the wings along with everyone else and you still think she'll die of old age? I chuckled sitting up in my bed and looking over where the small red braclet I had bought her sat.
Well we don't know WHAT she is Vash, she could very well be a female plant with freedom, I've never met one or she could be something else..or somehow a mutated version of a human. He sent to me.
A female plant...then why can't we sprout wings? I thought.
Who knows... Knives sent back.
Maybe an Angel? She sure looks and acts like it... I grinned standing up off my bed deciding it was time to get up and walked over.
O..Jeez Vash.. I herd as I smirked walking out the door seeing an empty hallway. Across from my door was the master bed room which used to be Meryl's and now was Candy. I was sure she was still sleeping, it had been a long day yesterday for her. Looking both ways like someone would catch me as I tip toed down to her door. A smile came across my face as I opened the door lightly to see a body spralled across the bed. A blanket across her stomach but her feet and arms where free from the blankets. One hand was above her head as she laid there sleeping peacefully. To me at that very moment she did look like an angel. Right now I wanted go go and crawl in and cuddle with her holding her close. But now wasn't the time to try and do that. She would probably call me hentai again and smack me off her bed. Laughing lighlty as I closed the door I was glad that she didn't remember the night we all got drunk and somehow I ended up in her bed. Yawning I began to walk down the steps to get something to eat. It was nice owning a house. Looking toward the windows I noticed the sand and wind that was going past, the visiablilty of outside the door was nothing. Shivering I was glad that I was in here and not out there caught somewhere. Opening the fridge I found some eggs and a few potatos. Setting the eggs aside I began to chop up the potatos then pressing them with some rice from last night to make some potato patties to fry. After I got that done I began to fry them and the eggs for a breakfast. I herd a creaking down the steps I was used to and wanted to hear some mornings, smiling I saw Candy standing there still in her pajamas rubbing her eyes. Though some people might protest I thought she looked so beautiful in the morning.
"Morning." I said with a smile as she looked up at me and yawned walking to the fridge and grabbing a can of soda. I was about to say that coffee was under way but Candy had never drunk coffee when with me so I figured that she didn't. Walking over I grabbed the pot of coffee and poared myself some taking a sip after that. Knives came walking in the room not to long after as I finished flipping the eggs and was about to put them on a plate for someone to eat.
"..You always make good eggs." I herd Candy mutter beside me. Glancing over I smiled at the brunette who was looking at the pan in my hands.
"I've had lots of practice!" I said grinning and sliding an egg off onto a plate and handing it to her along with my potato/rice patties.
"Well I guess I would be good too if I was 130 years old." She laughed going over to the table and sitting down. Knives then came up beside me.
"Couldn't you have made something better.." He said bitterly but I just smiled. Knives had always been that way, blunt and determined. That's why I didn't want Candy to hear about my feelings from his mouth. Any hope that she could return them would be destroyed.
"Aww come on Knives!" I said. "I can't very well go out in this weather and get something different."
"I could stop the weather." Knives said coldly as I laughed nervously looking over at Candy who had said nothing or had done nothing to show that she had herd the statement but then again out of everybody she wouldn't be phased by such a statement. She had seen first hand at what we could do in her anime/manga.
"Now we don't want to mess with mother nature.." I laughed sliding an egg onto his plate with the rice/potato patty. "Just eat up and don't complain."
"..Yeah right.." Knives said as he went over and sat next to Candy who smiled up at him, talking with him about something. Sighing I turned off the stove as my patty and egg where done. Putting it on a plate I turned and walked over sitting between Knives and Candy smiling happily at both of them.
"Well how was everyone's sleep?" I asked trying to make conversation.
"Fine." Candy said taking another bite out of the patty. "Just a little sore, that's all."
"That bed still sucks after two days of sleeping on it.." Knives said calmly. That's when I began to hear a light giggle turning to Candy who had her hand pressed to her lips as to stop the giggle.
"..Sorry.." She said. "But you two remind me of my sister and I back home."
"Ahh yes, back on Earth right?" Knives said as I shot a glare at him.
"..Yeah." She said smiling. "Vash told you, didn't he?"
"I read his mind." Knives calmly stated then looking down at the patty poking it with the fork in his hand. "That's how I knew."
"O.." She said finishing up her patty. "Well I'm glad I don't have to explain again."
"So your the oldest, right?" He looked up at Candy who nodded.
"Yeah I am." She said. "Out of four children that is."
"..And you act like this?" Knives said blunt. Candy just began to laugh waving her hands about.
"..Well someone doesn't like getting up in the morning." She said smilng at me gently which made me blink and my cheeks heat up once again.
"Well anyway I'm going to my room." Knives said standing up and leaving Candy and I at the table without any more words. Blinking I realized what he was trying to do exactly. He was trying to push me to tell her. Turning my head I saw her standing there, her care free orra around her gone and replaced with a more nervous one.
"..Ahh.." She said standing up and grabbing the plate. "I should go arrange my room to to my liking.." Candy turned and left the table leaving me to just blink at what was going on.
That's when I realized what she was doing. Candy was running from me. Ever since she woke up she hasn't been alone with me for more then a few seconds. Frowning I stood up placing my plate beside hers and walking up the stairs. I really didn't want such a discussion while I was still in my pajamas I walked inside my room first and quickly changed into a pair of jeans and a shirt. Then I walked down the hall where I tred this morning to peak on her sleeping. I had to tell her now and this had to be brought out. That kiss I almost gave her at the party must have frightened her. Stepping in front of the door I knocked on it quietly.
I herd nothing for a moment.
"I'm dressed, you can come in!" I finally herd as my hand rested on the knob of the door. Opening it slightly I saw Candy sitting there on the bed, she had switched her pjs to a small sun dress much like the one she had wore before. Her eyes where staring forward and she hardly acknowledge that I had walked in the room. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes for a second trying to gather the courage for this. Slowly I shut the door behind me so she couldn't run that way if she was indeed trying to.
"..We need to talk.." I said my voice even and almost cold. Her head turned and looked up at my face as her eyes gazed into mine, as if she was trying to dig out what exactly was the topic about this serious conversation.
"..About what..?" She asked finally never braking her gaze from my eyes.
"..About what almost happened at the dance.." I said taking another deep breath.
"I told you I'm fine Vash and I still don't know what happened exactly.." She began to say obviously either not realizing where I wanted this conversation to go or she was trying to deliberatly avoid the topic.
"No..about that kiss." That shut her up as she closed her mouth and gazed down at the floor, her hands falling to her knees.
"There was no kiss." She said.
"Well fine the "almost" kiss," I said turning and sitting down beside her. "..Something almost happened there and you know it." Turning her head her eyes looked almost infurated.
"Something did happen there, I died Vash." She stated harshly. It was a kind of tone I had rarely herd from the woman. " I died and yet here I am alive next to you...I don't understand anything anymore. Once upon a time I was the daughter of my father and mother back on Earth and now..now..I don't know what I am.." She said standing up. Quickly I reached out and grabbed the woman's wrist. This told me almost beyond doubt that she was trying to run. That she was trying to ignore this. She turned her head back and looked at me in shock.
"No, you won't run from this!" I said glaring up at her. I stood up not letting go of her wrist. "I don't know what happened there either, why you came back from the dead, how the heck you saved Knives but I do know that before you saved me from that bullet we where about to kiss and the few seconds you had left my side right then and there my world was falling apart. All I know is that you came into my life three weeks ago passing out in a puddle of mudd. Ever since then we've been nearly inseperable even with my brother wandering around threating my life. You where always there for me..and in those three weeks I grew to care about you. You had to have known that you where the first person really in all my 130 years of adult hood to great me with a smile even though you knew who I was. That wasn't the half of it. You knew everything about me and still you smiled at me and comforted me when I needed it."
"Well duh!" Candy shouted looking up at me trying to shake my hand from her wrist which wasn't moving. "Because that's the person I am Vash. I know people are not as always as they seem. I've always tried to be a friend to everybody wether they have a horrible reputation. The years of being alone and friendless back on Earth taught me that..."
"That isn't all of it, is it?" I said looking down at her. "All this is just an excuse to you really. An excuse that you know something was about to happen, and now your afraid."
"I'm afraid of everything Vash! I'm afraid of what I am! Of what I can do! I don't know who I am anymore.." She said tears falling down her cheeks slowly. "..How..How can I deal with that when I don't understand myself?"
"..I understand you.." I slowly said reaching up with my other hand and wiping the tears from her face. "Wither your human, plant, or even angel your still a woman. A woman who believes deeply in your values and morals. A woman who would do anything for a friend to stop them from feeling pain. Someone who will try and help anyone if she can." I took a long pause taking a deep breath into my lungs as I opened my eyes again and looked back down into her deep brown ones. "A woman that I realize I deeply love, that if she isn't by my side I grow frantic and my heart hurts. A woman that I can't live without. Your that woman Candy." The expression upon Candy's face wasn't readable as she was standing next to me, her wrist still in my hand. "..I realized that a while ago but..but I didn't want to say anything till my brother was taken care of and I wouldn't risk your life any more then I already had being near you."
"..Vash.." Candy muttered not moving her eyes from my face. Tears began to slide down her face again as I frowned taking it as a bad sign. "..No." She said reaching up with her other hand and wiping off her her tears. "...This has to be a dream." She then looked up at my face with a smile upon it.
"..What do you mean?" I asked confused.
"Well.." She said. "To tell you the truth Vash, ever since I saw the first episode anime episode I've been head over heals for a certian blonde outlaw. The outlaw that somehow I could identify with. Someone, if any cartoon could be, the man I dreamed about."
"You mean..."
"Yes Vash I love you too." She said with a smile. A giant grin came upon my face as I pulled the rest of her into an embrace. "..Vash.." She giggled. I picked her up feeling unsurpassed joy ebbing through my entire being after hearing it.
"Good." I said grinning holding her close to me. "Because I wouldn't want it any other way." With that statement I closed the gap between us in a kiss. I felt her lean into me as she returned the kiss.
After a few minutes of what I considered bliss I pulled away from her as I opened my eyes gazing into hers.
"I thought I could never feel any more happlier then during the time I was back on Earth with my family...but..." I felt her hand lace with mine as she squeezed it lightly beaming her smile at me once more. "..I could never believe that I could find you in all my life." Leaning up she placed another smaller kiss upon my lips.
"Well then lets celebrate." I said grinning as her pretty face turned into a angrey pouty one.
"Don't you dare even think about that Mr. Hentai brain..." She said.
"Hey...I was talking about going out after the storm together on an official date."I laughed realizing why Candy had thought such a thing.
"..Ok then." She said.
"Can you two be a little more quiet.." A voice from the hall came. Turning my head I laughed realizing Knives had herd everything. Turning my head back I saw the light pink tint to her cheeks as she stood there sheeplishly in my arms.
"O come on.." I grinned. "We wern't being THAT loud. Your just really picky." Sticking my tongue out at my brother I held her a bit closer. Everything seemed to be going my way for the first time. I had the girl, my brother, and a true home to call my own.