Well, I don't know if this chapter came out good, I wasn't intending on using this particular idea for this particular story, but then it just seemed to fit. I hope it's good, hehe. Thankies for ur reviews! Moo! (I say that when I'm happy…I know…it's different) I suck at writing articles about action, so the newspaper article might be crappy, haha. The tense is kinda messed up, I tend to switch from past to present. But other than that, Enjoy!

I don't own Teen Titans or Avril Lavigne's song "Slipped Away."

The Dream

I put down the daily paper and looked out the main window. Two weeks had passed since the article was written.

SLADE DEFEATED?!

Yesterday, anyone by the waterfront could see the amazing battle between the Titans and Slade. Numerous businesses were damaged, but no one was reported as dead. Many were injured, mostly because of an earthquake that rocked the entire city near the end of the confrontation. The police are still investigating the scene of the crime, and will not release any information. Many of the eyewitness accounts say that a young girl with blonde hair was seen near the battle and was caught underneath a building when the earthquake shook. Firefighters are still going through the debris and no bodies have been found yet. The Titans refuse to speak to reporters about the fight, which leads many to believe that the war between the Titans and Slade still isn't over.

Two weeks…still no word from Terra. The Titans weren't telling anyone that she had betrayed them and no one was really asking. Whether she was dead or alive was up in the air. I gently watched all the Titans go through their moods. Everyone just agreed after a while that she was dead. Starfire was still perky, but every once in a while she'd wistfully look out into the ocean for minutes at a time. Raven seemedthe same, but her hood was over her eyes more than usual. Cyborg was the optimist, while Beastboy did his best at hiding his grief. Robin tried to be optimistic too, but his hopeful statements were always met with silence.

As for me, I didn't dare hope. I hoped she would be alive, then again I hoped Lily would come back and she didn't, now did she?

Some days I found myself humming Avril Lavigne songs, never really a good sign. Those songs brought back memories I wish I didn't have, but they somehow eased the pain I felt now. Sleep was the only way for my head to stop wondering and hoping and wishing. Sleep was always good. Always. At least, until the dreams started.

I awake in a carnival. I look up and there is Terra and Beastboy getting onto the Ferris Wheel. I see a dark shadowy figure sneak in behind them and I wave my arms, trying to yell to them. But no sound comes from my mouth. I yell in frustration, getting angrier because I can't really yell, I'm just thinking of yelling. But my throat tightens as if I really am.

Morning came as usual. I made breakfast and tried to study schoolwork. Life went on. Even though I didn't want it to. I could never stand the way that a life changing thing could be going on, but right now, I'd be acting normal. A good friend of mine could have died, but here I am, making tofu and eggs as if it hadn't happened. I guess I'm always confused at how to go back. Back being the way I used to be before the whole Terra thing: happy. I clean up after everyone and am confronted by Raven.

"You're having nightmares," she calmly told me.

I keep my eyes on the swishing of my cloth on the table and don't respond.

"They're not normal nightmares," she continued, " you're screaming and waking me up, sometimes even Starfire, and she's at the end of the hall."

I still keep my eyes on the rag, as if it's gold or something valuable.

"Do something about it," she quietly says, and there's a tone in her voice that makes me look up. Her eyes looked sad and she held my hand. "Please do something about it."

So now I'm going to keep a journal of my dreams. Of course what happens in the dream is obvious, but maybe there's a meaning underneath it all. Maybe I'm trying to get something out that I'm not able to in real life. God…why does this always happen to me?

I open my eyes and I'm there again. Only this time I'm actually in the cart that Beastboy and Terra are in. Once again I'm mute and cannot warn them.

They, the dreams, go on and on. In one I follow them to the place of mirrors. In some of them I have a voice. I always yell at Terra to run or to say something against Slade whenever I have my voice. It always ends the same though. Beastboy walks away and Terra and Slade slip into the shadows. Always…every…single…time. Days turn into weeks of having these nightly, how shall I call them…experiences? I try force, I try my words, I even try hitting Slade, just to change everything. I always tell myself in my dream, "If I just do this, everything will turn out alright."

My regular daily life hasn't really been affected by this. I think I actually am better when it comes to Terra, and even Lily. You'd think it'd be a wreck, having these occurrences, but I think it's rather cleansing. Instead of beating up a pillow or old car in the junk yard, I release my emotions in my dreams. One day I decided to meet my friends at the park. The sun was shining, my horrible tests at school were done with and it was a time to celebrate. As I walked to the park, I made up ways for myself to try and end the dreams. Maybe if I thought hard enough, it'd actually happen in the dream. Then, quite suddenly as I'm debating whether or not to think up a baseball bat in my dream, it hit me. No, not the Frisbee which came rather close, but the idea. The idea of how to end my dreams. And it hurt when I thought of it. And it hurt even harder when I thought of how I'd have to dream it.

I will do nothing.

All this time, I was trying so hard to change fate, to change the destiny of this young girl. But I couldn't. I had to let it happen. I had…to let go. Let go of both of them…and it really hurt when I realized it.

A short young girl stares at a boy and girl her own age with tears streaming down her face, silently. The music of the carnival envelopes everyone as she keeps staring while the second girl slips into shadow, a boy walks away, and she is left alone.

Nuh, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah,
I miss you.
Miss you so bad.
I don't forget you.
Oh, it's so sad.
I hope you can hear me.
I remember it clearly,

The day you slipped away
Was the day, I found it won't be the same. Oh…

Nuh, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah
I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the head.
I wish that I could see you again,
I know that I can't.
I hope you can hear me.
Cuz I remember it clearly,

The day you slipped away
Was the day, I found it won't be the same. Oh…

I've had my wake up, won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it, It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back.
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you're not coming back.

The day you slipped away
Was the day, I found it won't be the same. Oh…

Nuh, nah, nah, nah, nah
I miss you.

Okay! That's outta my system. Now to have fun and try and lighten up the mood! I promise I will! It might take awhile, seeing as how the holidays have me busy, but I'll try posting up soon again. I REALLY hope all u people are having fun during the holidays, really I am. Sometimes it's hard for me, but then I see my friends or family and I'm reminded of all the weird and cool stuff that goes on around this time of year. Right now the house smells of food, Mexican food to be exact. My grandma is over from Texas and I haven't seen her in two years. I'm happy. Hope u are too. Moo! Peace out! (and don't forget to press the pretty little purple button at the end of this page!)