*Johnnys POV*
Pony was acting really strange today. We had been walking around all day because I didn't want to go home and he wanted to get away from Darry for a little bit. Every time I looked at Pony, he would go red. I think I did to because I like him. But thats wrong. I cant like my best friend! Another guy. Its just not right.
We walked into the empty lot and lied down to streach out. As I looked up at the clouds, I imagined what it would be like if Pony knew how I felt. And if he felt the same... Gah! Stop it! He would never feel that way! Why am I filling my head with false hope for something that would never happen?
I rolled over so Pony couldn't see the tears that were forming in my eyes. It had been too long and too much to hold in my hurt about loving my best friend. How long had it been? Um... about 6 months now. I just wish I could be in him arms. I haven't even been in the arms of my parents. It hurt so bad. But i know i have to wise up to what is real. Ponyboy and I can never be together and my mom and dad will always be like that.
"Hey Johnny?" i heard Pony say as i just about sobbed. I wiped my eyes real fast and turned back over.
"Yeah?"
"Whats the matter?" Pony looked worried.
"Nothing. Just... thinking..." was all i could say.
"Okay."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Pony's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Johnny looks real sad. I wonder Whats wrong. I wish i could make it better. Hold him and take away the hurt of his family. I have finaly accepted the fact that i love him but I can't tell him. Or anyone for that matter. This is somthing that I know I will have to get over.
"Well, I think we should be going home. You can come for diner so you wont have to go home." I said hoping to cheer him up with the offer of diner.
"Okay, sure."
We walked to my house in silence. When we went in the door, i heard a crash and then just about got nocked off my feet my Two-bit runing for him life out the door and Darry running after him yelling about a broken lamp. Soda and Steve were lying on the couch watching some show with girls in bathing suits.
"Hey Pony! Hey Johnny!" Yelled Soda from his seat.
"Hey."
"Where have you been all day?"
"Yeah, where have you been?" Said Darrys voice.
"Me and Johnny went for a walk." I said sitting in a chair. Johnny sat on the floor next to my chair. I looked at his hair and longed to run my fingers through it.
"Well next time, tell me when you go out!"
"Fine."
Darry walked into the kitchen and took the stew off the stove.
"Dinners ready!" He yelled and everyone ran into the kitchen. Everyone but me and Johnny. I sat there and waited for Johnny to get up. He must have had the same idea cuz he didn't get up till i figured i would.
When we were sitting at the dinner table, I kept stealing glances at Johnny. I think he notised and I stopped. Not to mention, I went really red. I got really interested in my food and then just about choked when Soda called my name really loud in my ear.
"What?!" I yelled in his face
"Wow, you must be going deaf! I called you 4 times!" He said and laughed. He stopped when i glared at him.
"Anyways, are you okay? Your not eating." Soda asked and felt my fore head.
"Im fine." I pushed him hand off my and blushed when I saw Johnny look at me. I got up and exused myself and went into my room shuting my door behind me. I needed to sleep. I was sick of thinking of Johnny in such a longing way...
Pony was acting really strange today. We had been walking around all day because I didn't want to go home and he wanted to get away from Darry for a little bit. Every time I looked at Pony, he would go red. I think I did to because I like him. But thats wrong. I cant like my best friend! Another guy. Its just not right.
We walked into the empty lot and lied down to streach out. As I looked up at the clouds, I imagined what it would be like if Pony knew how I felt. And if he felt the same... Gah! Stop it! He would never feel that way! Why am I filling my head with false hope for something that would never happen?
I rolled over so Pony couldn't see the tears that were forming in my eyes. It had been too long and too much to hold in my hurt about loving my best friend. How long had it been? Um... about 6 months now. I just wish I could be in him arms. I haven't even been in the arms of my parents. It hurt so bad. But i know i have to wise up to what is real. Ponyboy and I can never be together and my mom and dad will always be like that.
"Hey Johnny?" i heard Pony say as i just about sobbed. I wiped my eyes real fast and turned back over.
"Yeah?"
"Whats the matter?" Pony looked worried.
"Nothing. Just... thinking..." was all i could say.
"Okay."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Pony's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Johnny looks real sad. I wonder Whats wrong. I wish i could make it better. Hold him and take away the hurt of his family. I have finaly accepted the fact that i love him but I can't tell him. Or anyone for that matter. This is somthing that I know I will have to get over.
"Well, I think we should be going home. You can come for diner so you wont have to go home." I said hoping to cheer him up with the offer of diner.
"Okay, sure."
We walked to my house in silence. When we went in the door, i heard a crash and then just about got nocked off my feet my Two-bit runing for him life out the door and Darry running after him yelling about a broken lamp. Soda and Steve were lying on the couch watching some show with girls in bathing suits.
"Hey Pony! Hey Johnny!" Yelled Soda from his seat.
"Hey."
"Where have you been all day?"
"Yeah, where have you been?" Said Darrys voice.
"Me and Johnny went for a walk." I said sitting in a chair. Johnny sat on the floor next to my chair. I looked at his hair and longed to run my fingers through it.
"Well next time, tell me when you go out!"
"Fine."
Darry walked into the kitchen and took the stew off the stove.
"Dinners ready!" He yelled and everyone ran into the kitchen. Everyone but me and Johnny. I sat there and waited for Johnny to get up. He must have had the same idea cuz he didn't get up till i figured i would.
When we were sitting at the dinner table, I kept stealing glances at Johnny. I think he notised and I stopped. Not to mention, I went really red. I got really interested in my food and then just about choked when Soda called my name really loud in my ear.
"What?!" I yelled in his face
"Wow, you must be going deaf! I called you 4 times!" He said and laughed. He stopped when i glared at him.
"Anyways, are you okay? Your not eating." Soda asked and felt my fore head.
"Im fine." I pushed him hand off my and blushed when I saw Johnny look at me. I got up and exused myself and went into my room shuting my door behind me. I needed to sleep. I was sick of thinking of Johnny in such a longing way...