A/N: Ok, I'm finally updating this story, but it's only because of my guilty conscious. Thanks to those of you who sent me some ideas, they helped a little bit. I got a bit of this chapter from a suggestion from my loyal reader/reviewer Phoenix-Satori10, thanks chica! Oh yea, I don't own anyone famous! On with my crappy chapter!

Not the Same:

John's POV:

Ashley was supposed to be getting back in 10 minutes, so I was rushing around trying to clean up the mess that the kids all made. I'm beginning to think that this Mr. Mom thing is harder than wrestling! Ash was only gone for a total of 2 days, but it felt like 2 months to me, and I know Sydney was really missing her mommy. I think even the twins were a little down in the dumps, even though they can't fully understand everything that goes on yet. Shawn was probably the hardest hit, after me. He has been moping around, and hasn't said a word since he and Sydney saw me trashing my room. Even the dogs missed Ashley! I was extremely relieved that she was coming home, but a part of me was still mad at her for leaving in the first place. I still can't believe that she could even leave and get that far, without even a second thought. This is the second time that Ashley has technically left me, and who's to say that this is the last? I would have to say that this whole thing definitely lowered my trust where Ash is concerned.

I heard a car pull into the driveway, and looked out the door. I saw a very tired, worn out, emotionally drained Ashley shutting her car door, and throwing a bag over her shoulder.

"Syd, Shawn, mom's home!" I hollered, hearing the two of them tearing down the stairs.

"Mommy's really back daddy?" Sydney asked, peering out the door. I didn't have to answer, because she squealed and ran out the door nearly knocking Ashley over as she hugged her. Ashley started smiling, and dropped her bags and wrapped her arms around Sydney. I turned around, and saw Shawn sitting next to the twins, just staring.

"Shawn, Ashley or mom is home." I said again, not knowing what Shawn had been calling her for the short time that he knew her.

"I know." Shawn replied.

"Well, don't you want go say hi?" I asked.

"Why?"

"Never mind Shawn." I replied, scratching the side of my head. This kid is only 4 years old, but he already has the mind of a 7 year old. He's really smart actually, at least that's what the kindergaden teacher told me in a note that got sent home today. Ashley and Sydney walked in the door, and Ashley put her stuff down on the ground and gave me a weak smile as she walked over to the twins and Shawn. Shawn just stared at her as she gave him a hug and then watched as she spent a little time with Josh and Winsor. I carried Ash's stuff upstairs and put it in the bedroom and then came back downstairs and watched as the kids all talked/garbled to Ashley. A half an hour later, I noticed that it was already 9 o'clock.

"Syd, Shawn, its time for you guys to go upstairs and sleep. Hurry up!" I said as I picked up Winsor.

"Aw, do we have to daddy?" Sydney whined.

"Yes Syd, move your butt!" Ashley chimed in, playfully smacking Syd on her behind as she slowly got up. Shawn slowly followed behind her, but then turned around and walked back over to Ashley.

"Uh, can I call you mommy?" he asked.

"Of course you can Shawn!" Ashley replied, beginning to smile.

"Ok, night mommy! You're not leaving again are you? I don't want my new mommy leaving like the first one did."

"No, I'm not leaving again Shawn." Ashley said as she gave him a hug. Shawn smiled, hugged my leg, and then went upstairs to his room. Ashley picked up Winsor, and together we carried them to their room.

After checking and double-checking on the kids, Ashley made her way down stairs around 9:45. I was sitting on the couch, flipping through channels on the TV.

"So are you even going to say hi to me John?" Ashley asked, with one hand on her hip.

"Hey Ash, how's the baby doing?" I replied, looking up at her.

"I'm guessing that the baby's fine. John, I'm really sorry about what I did. You have every right to be pissed off at me." Ashley said, sitting down next to me.

"Yea, you're right. I can be mad at you. Hear me out Ash, you left me in the middle of the night and drove off. Not only that, you left your kids, ya left your whole family. I know that you felt like it was the right thing to do, and yes you were being VERY selfish. Did you ever think of the kids?"

"No, I didn't. I didn't think of anyone, and I honestly, I didn't care. I don't know what my problem was, but it's gone now. Can we please just move on and start things where we left off?" Ashley said, getting closer to me.

"I don't think I can fully get over this Ash!" I began saying as I stood up. "You really did hurt me, and I don't want anything like this happening again! You've broken my heart twice now, and trust me, I'm not going to let it get broken anymore! I'm glad that you're back, and I still love you with everything that I have, but I just need some time to re-adjust."

"Alright, I understand. I'm going to go to bed now, you coming?" looking at me in a seductive way.

"I think that I'm just going to sleep on the couch tonight. I'll see you in the morning Ash." I said, giving Ashley a hug and kiss on top of her head.

"Night John, I love you." Ashley quietly responded.

"Love you too." I replied as I turned off the TV and pulled a blanket over myself. Ashley flipped off the lights as she made her way up the stairs.

Ashley's POV:

Well, I guess that went better than expected. At least John doesn't totally hate me, even if he won't sleep in the same room as me. I'm really shocked that Shawn wants to call me mommy, I thought the kid hated me. Hey, I'll take it from him, it's all good!

I slowly crawled into bed, and stared into the pitch-blackness of my room. It felt really good to be home, it just felt weird to be alone in my bed. Ten minutes later, I heard Dirk come panting into the room. He hopped up on the bed, and curled up by my feet. Oh well, at least I'm not sleeping all by myself anymore, I guess this is what it's like to be in the doghouse!

A/N: Sorry it sucks, but hey at least I updated! I had a KILLLER AP history essay to write, and it took me 6 whole flipping hours yesterday! Please review, and as always, I'll take any comments/suggestions that I can get! Peace out y'all!

Oh yea, Team Eddie beat team Kurt tonight!!!!!! Go John, he scared Carlito out of the venue!!!!